Thank you all so much for your kind words. It's been a rough few days but fortunately I've got a lot of very good people around me, and an incredibly supportive partner, so I've got a lot of support and kindness. I've actually decided to get back on the diet tomorrow. I'm going to have an easy day today, just some proteins, and get back to Cambridge in the morning. My mum died because of a heart attack, and I know she'd want me to be taking care of myself so I can try to prevent the same thing happening to me. She died way too young and I don't want to end up that way, so I'm going to channel my grief into something positive, because I've tried sugar and carbs and they didn't make me feel any better. Doing this just might. xxxxxx