dipsy1512
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As the title says I've really let myself down and I feel terrible but know its my own fault. I keep starting sw but then find a reason to give up more recently my hip operation. That was a huge excuse for me (can't do any exercise because physio says to take it slow, then no point in the meal plan because I'm not exercising) then the in-laws are coming at the weekend for a week or so, so no point trying as they are terrible eaters so I've put it off again. Thing is I have up smoking, well 18 months ago so the cravings have gone and since then combined with p**s poor excuses I'm the biggest I've ever been. It's dawned on me today that I'm now a size 16 and wear the same 4 items of clothes because they are the only ones that fit. I'm totally disgusted with myself, each time I look in the mirror reminds me of what I have done to myself. The in laws arrive Friday and we are out for a special meal next saturday then they stay for a week. So whilst I want to change their stay puts me on even more of a downer. I'd love to say oh yes I can stay on plan while they are here but it just won't happen without cooking separate meals (they are funny when it comes to food, nothing tastes right unless full fat. I have known fil to throw his dinner in the bin because it doesn't suit) and I don't want an atmosphere at the table each night.
I've turned into a huge horrid mess and feel so well huge I guess. What a silly silly girl
Sorry to moan but here is the place I can say how I feel without either (inlaw) you've put weight on or (hubby) babe you always look great to me, which is lovely but not really the point.
I've turned into a huge horrid mess and feel so well huge I guess. What a silly silly girl
Sorry to moan but here is the place I can say how I feel without either (inlaw) you've put weight on or (hubby) babe you always look great to me, which is lovely but not really the point.