twinmum07
Silver Member
I did weightwatchers in 2010-2011 and lost just short of 3 stones. I then spent a while plateau-ing and lost my mojo. I left weightwatchers in early 2012 and tried calorie counting, slimming world (3 times), the cambridge diet, weightwatchers once more and then found the eating plan that worked for me - stuff your face. It was great, I was never hungry and had so much fun. There were a few drawbacks though - i used to be able to run and now walking exhausts me, i have gained 3.5stones and now my pre-2010 'fat' clothes are way too small. Every Monday morning I dread work - I love my job but each week feels like a lottery as to whether i will actually be able to squeeze into my trousers and make it through the day without them exploding - so far I am winning but only just.
After some long hard thinking at the weekend i have to accept I am no longer fitting into my size 18 'fat' clothes and I have 2 choices - bite the bullet and buy some clothes in size 20 or 22, whichever I actually am (given the extent of the squeezing into the 18s I suspect I would have to go all the way up to a 22), or get the weight off and fast.
I am worried that I have become a serial dieter and I am worried that my children will start to pick up on my bad food habits, associations and yo-yo-ing so I really feel that if it doesn't work this time then I have to accept that my size is my size and learn to accept that as I don't want to expose my children to repeated failed dieting. Also, I don't think it does anything for my confidence as I have wardrobes full of cheap clothes from sizes 12-18 and have never invested in clothes I love as I am always chasing the next size down. I have no size 18 tops, 1 pair of jeans, 1 pair of work trousers and 1 work skirt so I feel ultra-repetative and frumpy.
I went back to weightwatchers on Tuesday and weighed in at 14st12.5, which is my highest ever and is only a few pounds short of my weight just before I gave birth to the twins, in all honesty I looked way better 35 weeks pregnant with twins than i do now.
I really want this to work and I want to get my self-confidence back. My children are 5,5, and 2 so I don't want my weight to hold them back. I hate being around the other mums so avoid taking the kids to parties as I feel a wreck (and I have no clothes!)
I am much more confident at work as I am a teacher so I am a bit larger than life at work - I have no idea how I can be so confident in the classroom when I am totally devoid of any confidence out of it.
My marriage suffers as I find myself totally repulsive so I am sure my poor husband would love some of my confidence to return.
I know I can make weightwatchers work and I hope I can use this diary and forum to keep me on track. I am quite excited about my next weigh in on Tuesday as I hope it will confirm that I can do it and give me my first step on a long journey.
I have been good this week but hopefully not too good to make my body do anything crazy. I haven't used any weeklies yet and hope not to need to use many, if any, but I have been quite a lot under my 32 dailies each day so far. I just don't want to replace naughty snacks with ww bars and things as I want to break the habit so I have been using meals and the odd pack of quavers.
I have been using my pedometer and have quite a few activity points built up but, again, won't use those. I don't think my pedometer is set up right as I have it on average stride and find trying to change it too much hassle. If i am not using the points then it doesn't matter but just gives me a bit of inspiration to 'move more' so I have been more active at work this week.
I had been feeling great until last night, when i just suddenly turned then shock horror TOTM arrived this morning so I am battling the mega munchies and bloating today. The twins are having their birthday party tomorrow and have invited their whole class. We are catering it ourselves so my kitchen is full of very tempting, naughty food so not the best timing for uncontrollable munchies! I must resist!!!
we have a department meeting after work on Monday so i plan to take all the leftover food and cake into work and deposit it there so hopefully a double winner that I can get rid of all the temptation and make all my work colleagues fatter so I will look thinner!
Anyway, best stop warblingn on to myself on here and go do something useful! I have spent the day hiding upstairs from the temptation in the kitchen so my pedometer thinks I have died due to complete inactivity!
After some long hard thinking at the weekend i have to accept I am no longer fitting into my size 18 'fat' clothes and I have 2 choices - bite the bullet and buy some clothes in size 20 or 22, whichever I actually am (given the extent of the squeezing into the 18s I suspect I would have to go all the way up to a 22), or get the weight off and fast.
I am worried that I have become a serial dieter and I am worried that my children will start to pick up on my bad food habits, associations and yo-yo-ing so I really feel that if it doesn't work this time then I have to accept that my size is my size and learn to accept that as I don't want to expose my children to repeated failed dieting. Also, I don't think it does anything for my confidence as I have wardrobes full of cheap clothes from sizes 12-18 and have never invested in clothes I love as I am always chasing the next size down. I have no size 18 tops, 1 pair of jeans, 1 pair of work trousers and 1 work skirt so I feel ultra-repetative and frumpy.
I went back to weightwatchers on Tuesday and weighed in at 14st12.5, which is my highest ever and is only a few pounds short of my weight just before I gave birth to the twins, in all honesty I looked way better 35 weeks pregnant with twins than i do now.
I really want this to work and I want to get my self-confidence back. My children are 5,5, and 2 so I don't want my weight to hold them back. I hate being around the other mums so avoid taking the kids to parties as I feel a wreck (and I have no clothes!)
I am much more confident at work as I am a teacher so I am a bit larger than life at work - I have no idea how I can be so confident in the classroom when I am totally devoid of any confidence out of it.
My marriage suffers as I find myself totally repulsive so I am sure my poor husband would love some of my confidence to return.
I know I can make weightwatchers work and I hope I can use this diary and forum to keep me on track. I am quite excited about my next weigh in on Tuesday as I hope it will confirm that I can do it and give me my first step on a long journey.
I have been good this week but hopefully not too good to make my body do anything crazy. I haven't used any weeklies yet and hope not to need to use many, if any, but I have been quite a lot under my 32 dailies each day so far. I just don't want to replace naughty snacks with ww bars and things as I want to break the habit so I have been using meals and the odd pack of quavers.
I have been using my pedometer and have quite a few activity points built up but, again, won't use those. I don't think my pedometer is set up right as I have it on average stride and find trying to change it too much hassle. If i am not using the points then it doesn't matter but just gives me a bit of inspiration to 'move more' so I have been more active at work this week.
I had been feeling great until last night, when i just suddenly turned then shock horror TOTM arrived this morning so I am battling the mega munchies and bloating today. The twins are having their birthday party tomorrow and have invited their whole class. We are catering it ourselves so my kitchen is full of very tempting, naughty food so not the best timing for uncontrollable munchies! I must resist!!!
we have a department meeting after work on Monday so i plan to take all the leftover food and cake into work and deposit it there so hopefully a double winner that I can get rid of all the temptation and make all my work colleagues fatter so I will look thinner!
Anyway, best stop warblingn on to myself on here and go do something useful! I have spent the day hiding upstairs from the temptation in the kitchen so my pedometer thinks I have died due to complete inactivity!
We're of the same height, a similar weight and have a similar goal at the same time, yayyy!! Like you I've done this before, lost the weight and then put it all back on, but not this time I am so determined. So I hope I can help give you motivation and encouragement and this time next year we'll be laughing!
