I started CD in 2006 and done well losing well over 2 stone getting to my ideal weight. I was happy with myself and has so much more confidence, then it all went horribly wrong. I started to put the weight back on xmas 2006 and have just continued the downward spiral unable to stop myself. I am now 2 stone plus heavier and cant get back into the diet. Everyday I say I am starting, last about 3 days and I eat, this has now been going on for a year and I feel such a failure. Why cant I do it, I have a wardrobe full of clothes some still with labels that I bought when I lost first time and I still cant get the motivation to do this. I cry myself to sleep every night because I am so angry and upset but still I cant stick to it. WHY am I doing this.