I'm starting to get really tired of the pressure that I'm putting myself under. If I'm not at the gym working til my joints crack and I pull muscles I feel so guilty! I'm scared stupid of letting go and relaxing in case I gain weight, it's not normally the end of the world for most people but it is for me. Right now I'm thinking I should be at the gym but I feel like pants, I should be able to give myself a day off now and then, why can't I give myself a break???