Winklepip's Nine Weeker - 63 days

Discussion in 'CD Weight Loss Diaries' started by Winklepip, 11 July 2014 Social URL.

  1. Winklepip

    Winklepip Member

    Start Weight:
    14st12lb
    Current Weight:
    11st8lb
    Goal Weight:
    10st7lb
    Lost(%):
    3st4lb(22.12%)
    Diet:
    Cambridge
    Hello there! Last year I managed to lose a lot of weight on CWP. It felt ruddy marvellous!
    But a few pounds were gained here and a few there and I can't bring myself to look at the scales. It seems I am not the reformed night binger I thought I was. Because the gains are from "secret" eating, the shame for me is far greater than say, eating too much on holiday. I'm guessing it's about a 20lb gain, but I'm not ready to look yet, so I have no starting point for my stats...
    Thing is, I feel much worse than I did when I was nearly 17 stone :confused: I feel I have failed myself. Despite losing weight on the outside, the battle on the inside really wasn't over, maybe it never will be.
    So I have given myself nine weeks to sort it out and vowed during that time to face up to the fact I'm always going to have a difficult relationship with food. But I'm not buying bigger jeans because of it. My clothes feel awful.
    I'm drawing a line and saying no more to the awful pull to stand in front of the fridge with it's contents all lit up at night and start a *big* cheese, nuts, olives and peanut butter session.
    I realise that I can't eat the bars. I'm not a crazy one for sweet things (only when there is big doses of PMT going on!) but they are so nice to chew. However, they trigger something in me and I recognise this now. They send a solid food message to my brain and I then struggle so badly.
    Minimins helped so much during my weight loss. I read your diaries and posts every night without fail whilst I guzzled my water! You all helped more than you'll ever know :)
    I know what I need to do. So instead of lurking, I'm putting myself on the line now. And whinging a lot too!
    There's a lot of awesome things happening in September and I need my clothes to fit again and regain some confidence. I was supposed to attend a work do tonight but didn't turn up because of the likelihood of photos being taken. I don't want to go back to making excuses again.
    But first, I have to survive a family holiday and then the school hols where my growing kids just eat and eat all day and grow taller and taller (how does that work??!!)
    Day one then, is done. Thank you for reading x
     
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  3. Sophiesophs

    Sophiesophs Full Member

    Start Weight:
    15st3lb
    Current Weight:
    12st7.0lb
    Goal Weight:
    9st7.0lb
    Lost(%):
    2st10lb(17.84%)
    Well done for making the decision to give it another go! And remember we're all stronger than we think......just stay focused on the prize, head down and crack on!! Summer holidays are going to be hard (I know for me they can be stressful! ) but we can do it together! Good luck! X
     
  4. minecraftmum

    minecraftmum Full Member

    Start Weight:
    15st6lb
    Current Weight:
    15st6lb
    Goal Weight:
    13st7lb
    Lost(%):
    0st0lb(0%)
    Diet:
    5 2 lighter life fast
    Its is tough but you know its worth it.xx.

    i think the thing with CD is it takes your brain longer at adjust to the weigh loss than your body takes to lose it.lo.

    keep going hun , your doing just great.xx
     
  5. Winklepip

    Winklepip Member

    Start Weight:
    14st12lb
    Current Weight:
    11st8lb
    Goal Weight:
    10st7lb
    Lost(%):
    3st4lb(22.12%)
    Diet:
    Cambridge
    Thanks! You are right minecraftmum about the brain catching up! I think after I lost my weight, the brain actually packed up and went on a round the world trip! That's a good loss for your first week :)
    And cheers Sophiesophs, yes we are all stronger than we think, we have to just unleash our potential! Your losses are great too!:)
    Day 2, is done.
     
  6. minecraftmum

    minecraftmum Full Member

    Start Weight:
    15st6lb
    Current Weight:
    15st6lb
    Goal Weight:
    13st7lb
    Lost(%):
    0st0lb(0%)
    Diet:
    5 2 lighter life fast

    thankyou.x. good luck.xx
     
  7. Winklepip

    Winklepip Member

    Start Weight:
    14st12lb
    Current Weight:
    11st8lb
    Goal Weight:
    10st7lb
    Lost(%):
    3st4lb(22.12%)
    Diet:
    Cambridge
    Well the family holiday was a failure in terms of staying focused!
    However, I got back on the horse and I'm 100%, glugging back the water and on track. I still can't face a weigh in.
    TOTM been and gone for this month though, so that will help for another three weeks.
    Keep going everyone.
     
  8. minecraftmum

    minecraftmum Full Member

    Start Weight:
    15st6lb
    Current Weight:
    15st6lb
    Goal Weight:
    13st7lb
    Lost(%):
    0st0lb(0%)
    Diet:
    5 2 lighter life fast
    Well done for getting straight back to it.xx onwards and downwards now hun.xx

    try and make yourself WI as at least you will have the boost from the great losses you will get.xx

    keep up the great work.xx
     
  9. Winklepip

    Winklepip Member

    Start Weight:
    14st12lb
    Current Weight:
    11st8lb
    Goal Weight:
    10st7lb
    Lost(%):
    3st4lb(22.12%)
    Diet:
    Cambridge
    Thanks MCM - I feel all "melty" today so something is happening ha ha! Aiming to WI before weekend! xxx:)
     
  10. Winklepip

    Winklepip Member

    Start Weight:
    14st12lb
    Current Weight:
    11st8lb
    Goal Weight:
    10st7lb
    Lost(%):
    3st4lb(22.12%)
    Diet:
    Cambridge
    Hello ketosis ! I do love a pink ketostick!!!:D
     
  11. Willpowerwoman!

    Willpowerwoman! Silver Member

    Ooh well done for getting into ketosis and I hope your 9 weeks fly by got you with success :)

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  12. Winklepip

    Winklepip Member

    Start Weight:
    14st12lb
    Current Weight:
    11st8lb
    Goal Weight:
    10st7lb
    Lost(%):
    3st4lb(22.12%)
    Diet:
    Cambridge
    Thank you Willpowerwoman! - please send some my way!! Today has been pretty much spot on but previously I just don't know what I've been thinking in order to sabotage myself so badly -AGAIN!!!!! :( Why?Why?Why? I will keep going tomorrow and set some mini goals.

    Goal 1 - To get through a whole day without stuffing "a bit of" XYZ in my mush. Just products, water and lotsa coffee.
    Goal 2 - To get back into raging Ketosis! (has to be raging!)
    Goal 3 - To be ready to weigh myself
    Goal 4 - To complete ONE week 100%

    That will do for now!:)
     
  13. Willpowerwoman!

    Willpowerwoman! Silver Member

    Good plan! :)

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  14. Winklepip

    Winklepip Member

    Start Weight:
    14st12lb
    Current Weight:
    11st8lb
    Goal Weight:
    10st7lb
    Lost(%):
    3st4lb(22.12%)
    Diet:
    Cambridge
    I did it despite being a total stress pants of a day.
    Grrr. I had 0% Greek Yoghurt (you know the one) as a meal and soooo much fizzy water.
    There is no peanut butter in the house, so I'm happy about that. And for once, that *isn't* because I've eaten it!! :D Lightbulb moment - stop buying it!!
    Colouring my hair and painting my nails whilst I read through Minimins and keep very focused. I wish I had the mindset I had this time last year.
    I am going to have a very serious think as to how I can harness it once again. I hope everyone is battling on and winning xxx
     
  15. Winklepip

    Winklepip Member

    Start Weight:
    14st12lb
    Current Weight:
    11st8lb
    Goal Weight:
    10st7lb
    Lost(%):
    3st4lb(22.12%)
    Diet:
    Cambridge
    Huzzah and hello to August! Faced the scales late on during yesterday and they said...drum roll: 12 stone bang on :mad: I screamed a bit and felt a surge of determination.
    Today 3lb less and a pink stick.
    Doing lots of mind workouts ie. strengthening the "no thanks" mental response whilst lounging around between running back and forth to the loo.
    I have left August free of any social events other than coffee, so I don't even have to negotiate anything at all. It's a bit of a grim prospect, but I need to do this!!!
    Wishing everyone an awesome month ahead xx

    Pounds lost on this journey to return to goal weight:

    :D:D:D
     
  16. Willpowerwoman!

    Willpowerwoman! Silver Member

    If you can do it on a bad day winkle you can send do it on an average one :)

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  17. Winklepip

    Winklepip Member

    Start Weight:
    14st12lb
    Current Weight:
    11st8lb
    Goal Weight:
    10st7lb
    Lost(%):
    3st4lb(22.12%)
    Diet:
    Cambridge
    Willpowerwoman! Wise words indeed. Thank you xxx
    Feeling good and the ketosis is raging!
    Another pound gone and surrounded by food today.
    I went to an artisan deli type place today and was drooling everywhere (bibworthy) Made a lot of mmm's and ahhh's, but left trumphantly with an empty bag and an empty stomach!

    Pounds lost on this journey to return to goal weight:

    :D:D:D:D
     
  18. Willpowerwoman!

    Willpowerwoman! Silver Member

    Fab YOU should be called willpower woman!!! :)

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  19. Winklepip

    Winklepip Member

    Start Weight:
    14st12lb
    Current Weight:
    11st8lb
    Goal Weight:
    10st7lb
    Lost(%):
    3st4lb(22.12%)
    Diet:
    Cambridge
    Ha ha! Not sure about that WPW!:D I know that the olives and me will be reunited one day ;) Just not too many, not too often!
    Feeling good today at seeing 11st 8lb on the scales and working through a big fat To Do list.
    Spent some time yesterday looking through photographs (ranging from 17st to 10st!!) and thinking about how I *perceived* myself to look at the time.
    Aiming for a stonkingly productive Monday!!

    Pounds lost on this journey to return to goal weight:

    :D:D:D:D:D:D
     
  20. Winklepip

    Winklepip Member

    Start Weight:
    14st12lb
    Current Weight:
    11st8lb
    Goal Weight:
    10st7lb
    Lost(%):
    3st4lb(22.12%)
    Diet:
    Cambridge
    Ok so today I'm having a wobble (not just my tummy, upper arms etc!) and having to work hard to hang in there:confused:
    But, I'm staying strong and thinking about the autumn ahead and being able to button up the old favourite coats again.
    Something Martha on the diaries section said is really sticking at the forefront of my mind and helping so much is to choose myself over the food.
    So simple, but they are always the best :) Things like that make Minimins so utterly great.
    There are five weeks left now. Well, 36 days to be precise! I wonder if I can get back to 10.7 ???
    I agreed to have my photo taken last night at an event instead of avoiding being seen, which is, I reckon, a step in the right direction (though I have yet to see the picture ha ha!!)
    Have a good, positive day everyone. Keep going xx
     
  21. Winklepip

    Winklepip Member

    Start Weight:
    14st12lb
    Current Weight:
    11st8lb
    Goal Weight:
    10st7lb
    Lost(%):
    3st4lb(22.12%)
    Diet:
    Cambridge
    Still hanging in there.
    Today the scales said 11st 6 3/4lb:eek: It's my standard hungry week (week 3 of cycle sees me ravenous,sure you needed to know haha), so I'm going a bit crazy truth be told!
    Cooking all day for kids and shopping when not cooking!! The boys have huge appetites.
    Hope everyone is doing well. It's flipping hard some days! xx

    Pounds lost on this journey to return to goal weight:

    :D:D:D:D:D:D:D .... and a quarter!
     

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