xx Lotties second 28 day challenge xx

[lottie_2015]

Starting Thursday excited for this as it's the last one
I had a baked potato with tuna & cheese salad & a mocha whilst out today, and a pot of endame beans with humous this evening. Tmo i'm going out again for lunch. Not actually enjoying the food tbh am too stressed & just want to crack on with my next challenge. Will stick to low carb tmo & get a chicken salad or similar, my shakes will be delivered tmo so all set for Thursday x

 

[Queen Bizzle]

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[lottie_2015]

lol wicked well i went out for my bday lunch yesterday & ordered a chicken salad but couldnt eat it, too stressed due to the bloody ex. baby gummed the cucumber & tomato & my friends ate the chicken lol. was nice to see my two best friends, even though because they're male & i got accused of going on a "lunch date" by my ex which spoiled it a bit. was a bit of a rubbish birthday, v tired & reflective of my past year. lastnight i had my 2nd fave food - a cheese & onion pasty after baby was in bed. day 1 of my second challenge today, this morning i put on my "fat jeans" which are comfy size 10's that i usually wear for totm - and they fit perfectly & am wearing them now! they didnt fit 3 weeks ago so thats cheered me up my shakes arrived today - and i only forgot to add the bogof discount code when i ordered!!! so have only got half the amount i wanted. have got extra soups & pancakes which i dont like so i'm just gonna have to force them down on week 2! oh well. happy to be back on the diet, excited for next weigh day already x

 

[lottie_2015]

oh, have to add - my ex's face when he came to see the baby today & i answered the door in my jeans & hoody was a picture and he couldn't help commenting. am childish i know to get a bit of smug satisfaction out of that - but meh, i did have little internal smirk haha. he's been trying to get me to give him another chance - the 100th, and lastnight i told him its truly over because i cant forgive him & dont trust him. its like that song by the beautiful south - had a little time.

 

[lottie_2015]

Day one done, choc mint shake, breakfast eggs & a toffee caramel shake, 2l of black tea 2l of squash & a coke zero. chilled out at home with baby today, it was nice, he noticed the birds singing outside today for the 1st time & was mesmerised lol. got a face pack on about to get into a bubble bath with a candle on & then into bed with baby for 10.30 for his dreamfeed & hopefully I will sleep cos am knackered lol x

 

[Queen Bizzle]

Good for you lovely! Sounds like you're mind is strong diet and love life wise x

 

[lottie_2015]

cheers bizzle. am feeling abit sad ya know that horrible end of relationship (in this case marriage) gutting feeling but on the flip side am happier in general & my little boy is settled. and am so looking forward to clothes shopping and a night on it when i get to my final goal! how u doin, what day are u on now?xx

 

[Queen Bizzle]

Sorry to hear that lottie break ups are horrible no matter what. Least you have this end shopping and overall happiness goal to keep you focussed. I can't wait to buy clothes. I make clothes myself but everything is always too small as I use basic patterns! I don't want to spend the time making something to fit to my body if I'm just going to slim down. On day 9 now, got a family weekend so will be some drinking and eating real food. Gonna be Staying in ketosis and just filling myself up on lean zero carb meats xx

 

[lottie_2015]

Day 2 done, had sausage & breakfast eggs for brekky & lunch, and just having a tc shake now. My 3 older kids are down for the weekend & bonus that their dad was going Bristol this weekend so he dropped them off & is picking them up sunday - thats 400 miles i didnt have to drive this weekend. winning the house is full of kids food & they dont stop eating lol. i'm lucky it doesnt bother me anymore I would rather just get to size quick than delay it x

 

[lottie_2015]

day 3, a tc shake, a veg soup & ham soup, lots of tea & exante squash. v upset today if i saw my ex right now think i would actually out him which isnt a good way to feel atall. am trying 2 find somewhere 2 get away & stay for while tmo so may not have wifi to honk x

 

[Queen Bizzle]

Good luck lottie, hope you find the space you need. Take care xx

 

[lottie_2015]

day 4 done had tc shake, a veg soup & a tomato soup. they weren't as bad as i remembered them. i drank my 2l rhis morning but been driving most of the day so havent drank as much as usual. me & baby sharing a single bed tonigt - its a good job i'm a lot smaller now lol. staying at my cousins who i havent seen for years in wales & going down the housing tmo morning. as they say... if all else fails, go to wales.... lol x

 

[lottie_2015]

so i really did go to wales - am right in the deepest darkest depths of uncivilisation in the centre of wales in a womens refuge. not quite sure how I feel but am on day 5 so not gna think about anything else. need to go explore & find somewhere with scales for thursday cos i forgot to pack mine x

 

[lottie_2015]

day 6 done, am loving the soups, i didnt think i liked them but they're nice, like cup-a-soups, had mushroom for breakfast. its a communal kitchen here theres a massive kitchen with 4 sinks & kettles, 3 cookers ect, its pretty good! theres 1 other person here atm with a baby boy 6 days younger than mine which is nice. our room is ok, just trying to get him used to his travel cot he's a bit unsettled & sas in my single bed from 2.30am this morning. yesterday i went for a walk!!! sounds silly but a big step for me theres loads of hills here so am gonna do a 1 hour hill walk every morning. only problem is i'm so tired am dead on my feet with not much/broken sleep & i dont sit down all day as it is apart from his naps... but think walking up hill is really good for toning the bum & backs of legs so rly wanna do it! its the week before totm so am craving meat like i always do! might get a tin of mackerel if i do my walk tmo. hope everyones good x

 

[lottie_2015]

urgh baby woke up at 5.30 this morning, so i didnt go for a walk! but my WA lady drove me round the town, its pretty & a good 25 min uphill walk to a really nice lake with a playpark, so have adjusted plan to be a long circuit every day at 3.30, to be back for 5 for baby's tea. is the only time i can do it between his naps & bottles & meals now he's on solids. it'll work well cos he gets abit grumpy in the afternoon so will be good for him & he can have a catnap in the pram.i collected a big dark towell & blanket & covered the window, it has made it pretty dark so hoping he'll sleep longer tmo, hope so i could use some decent sleep! am gna weigh in the morning then not for 2 weeks cos is totm on monday so will prob have a bit of water retention so dont wanna discourage myself. 22 days to go, 22 days to tone up doing 90 minute uphill walks with the pram... exciting oh also saw u get free swimming here if you're on income support!! so gonna see if there's a creche, or find a sitter, and walk every day and do swimming on my up days x

 

[lottie_2015]

So according to these scales i'm down 3lb, wish i had packed my scales lol but am gonna go with these. am happy with that cos is totm on monday, also i ate so little on my 2 food days & no packs & i don't think i came out of ketosis. No weighing for 2 weeks now! x

 

[lottie_2015]

oh & baby slept til 6am in his own cot without waking in the night hopefully it stays that way again now, he's such a good sleeper normally am not used to broken nights!

 

[lottie_2015]

i went for my 1st long walk today! 3.15 til 5pm hated it at the beginning but enjoyed it towards the end & feel good for it, and achey lol. same again tmo! x

 

[Queen Bizzle]

3lbs is still a loss and a good loss well done for your walking, remember exercise can make you retain more water in the short term for muscle repair but is helping you burn fat in the long run hope you and the baba are ok xx

 

[lottie_2015]

thanks i read ur diary the other day its brill! i found it really hard to diet working late shifts in a pub, espesh after work drinks - espesh when youve been bought a few, always seemed a shame to waste them! i had a proper look at these scales this morning, theyre not digital theyre the dial kind & were set a coulple of lbs over so i spent ages turning the knob to get it level & am actually 9st11, which seems right, also yesterday i weighed after a litre of water & my morning shake, broke my weigh in habits lol. hoping to be 9st 7lb a week on thursday, fingers crossed! x