dear diary............. week 1 in the fat club house :/

wow, ive never wrote a diary before, feel silly, but another member suggested this to me, so here it goes. ok so ive been on weight watchers on and off. when I stick to it, its brilliant and I enjoy it. just need to get my brain in gear. the last time I went was around 3 weeks ago, and I lost 6lb... yay, great.. go me...... NOT. the past 3 weeks, ive been different places, ate out a lot, diet gone completely out the window. IM AN IDIOT. but I really need to do this. im a single working mother of 1, my son relies on me to be there for him and I love him so much (im currently getting quite weepy).. (feeling even more silly). surely this should be enough to change my ways. I have no self control!!! my mum has recently been diagnosed with type 2 diabeties, theres a chance I could if I don't make changes. I have around 10 stone to loose , it aint going to loose itself. I have to do this.

and I will.

im going to do this. and its me who has to do this. it aint going to be easy. I need self belief and self confidence (also my mouth stapled shut and my hands bound). I have been bullied all my life. I don't want to be bullied no more. it hurts. I can ignore them or use comedy/sarcasm against them all i want but it still hurts. but at the end of the day, I give a great big middle finger up to the bullies. because my health, my son and my mother are more important. i'll do it for those reasons not for bullies.

so this is going to be my fresh start, week 1 back in the fat club, week 1 to the rest of my new healthier (maybe with the odd bad day) life. im going to try and post in my diary at least once a week. even If I am the only 1 who reads this and im actually talking to myself, I don't care, its made me feel a lot better jus getting a load of my chest.

wishing everyone else good luck with their journey. be good and be healthy.

XX

hi thanks for your reply. it is very much a vicious circle, I eat when im upset, usually about my weight and so the circle goes on lol. thankyou for your advice, I do stress about it a lot. I think your doing the right thing by just keeping at it. well done for being positive. healthy and happy is my goal. I wish you well with yours

when I read about slimming world I found the whole sins etc really confusing. which is why I went for ww. with ww, your given a daily point allowance based on your height, age, weight. on top of your daily points you also get a weekly allowance of 49 points, that most people use as treats or alcohol. or just an extra biscuit a day. you have to point all your food, usually helps to keep a journal. fruit and veg have 0 points so you don't count them. you can basically eat what you like (preferably healthy) as long as you don't exceed your points allowance. you get books like a shopping guide which tells you what points are in different supermarket foods, branded foods. and you get an eating out guide which tells you how many points in different foods on menus from places like pizza hut, costa, nandos etc or basic indian/Chinese quisine. I find it really easy when I follow it.

I will keep on writing. xx

oh right. didn't realise it was similar. yeh the weekly allowance is pretty good. I may have to try yoga xx

Hey hey!!

Congrats on starting your diary! Like Evie said, you've got really good reasons for losing weight, and they're positive ones too which is definitely important You sound like a brilliant mummy too

I've just started SW, partially because I'm vegan and SW caters to it a little better, I feel. But SW and WW - from a total novice point of view - don't sound too dissimilar; no points for veg and a point system for little extras Love the little extras!! Haha!

Another good de stressing exercise is just plain ol' walking. It's also free, fits around you and you can take your little boy with you too Any exercise is good as a stress reliever but make sure you take it easy at first and work your way up. You want to enjoy it, not dread it

Have a great start to the week!

Bron