Tonight was my last ever binge eating session, tomorrow is a bright new healthy day for me and I am not going to look back at my past failed attempts.
If anyone asked me why I binge eat, I honestly couldn't give them an answer. When the urge hits all I want to do is eat, eat, eat, eat until I feel sick and then the guilt and disappointment follows soon after!! I'm not even hungry when I seem to be stuffing my face with junk - it's like my brain switches off while I shovel food in my mouth. I don't know why I do it, what triggers it but all I know is that today it stops and I need to fight those urges because I can't go on like this.
I just want to be happy on the inside and outside, at the moment I'm neither. I loathe my appearance and I hate the fact that my clothes are getting tighter every day - my wardrobe is full of clothes I can't get into.
There's so many different diets out there with conflicting messages....points, syns, low carb, 5:2, meal replacements etc etc. I just want to eat healthy food, exercise daily and hopefully lose all this weight and feel better about myself. Easier said than done because I get to a certain point and the binges start and put me off track - it's a vicious cycle and I need to get out of it. I hope with the help of this diary I can stay focused, write down all my food and exercise, and my feelings when the urge to binge hits to try and avoid it.
I am going to do this, I am going to succeed and wear those skinny jeans in the wardrobe which still have the tags on from two years ago!! I know if I lose weight I will be much happier and my confidence might return but it's not going to be an easy journey x
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If anyone asked me why I binge eat, I honestly couldn't give them an answer. When the urge hits all I want to do is eat, eat, eat, eat until I feel sick and then the guilt and disappointment follows soon after!! I'm not even hungry when I seem to be stuffing my face with junk - it's like my brain switches off while I shovel food in my mouth. I don't know why I do it, what triggers it but all I know is that today it stops and I need to fight those urges because I can't go on like this.
I just want to be happy on the inside and outside, at the moment I'm neither. I loathe my appearance and I hate the fact that my clothes are getting tighter every day - my wardrobe is full of clothes I can't get into.
There's so many different diets out there with conflicting messages....points, syns, low carb, 5:2, meal replacements etc etc. I just want to eat healthy food, exercise daily and hopefully lose all this weight and feel better about myself. Easier said than done because I get to a certain point and the binges start and put me off track - it's a vicious cycle and I need to get out of it. I hope with the help of this diary I can stay focused, write down all my food and exercise, and my feelings when the urge to binge hits to try and avoid it.
I am going to do this, I am going to succeed and wear those skinny jeans in the wardrobe which still have the tags on from two years ago!! I know if I lose weight I will be much happier and my confidence might return but it's not going to be an easy journey x
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