*crawling back into thread ashamed as hell :'(*
Hi girls! I am so sorry I've been gone for soooooo long!!! Things just kind of got on top of me, and I just wasn't getting the time to come on here
I've just been looking through some posts on here, and wow!!!!!
Kassy - huge huge congratulations on your wedding (photos were gorgeous, you looked stunning!!!) and on the pregnancy!!!
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so happy for you Mrs! How many weeks are you now?
Everyone else, how are you all doing?
Will give you a little update on me! I'm now in my second year of midwifery! Last year was mostly great! Then I ended up having a fall out with two girls I lived with in student halls, who also happened to be my classmates - and they choose to completely ignore me now which has made things very awkward :/ I then got a new flat with my closest friend from class in June this year. Everything was going great, but then she stopped going into uni and placement. I ended up back at home for 5 weeks signed off because of back pain, and the day I got back, she told me she was moving out and was leaving the course. So we haven't really spoken, and I have a new flatmate who moved in last weekend. At the moment I am seriously considering moving back home - as wonderful a job as midwifery is, I'm just not sure if my heart is in it anymore. It's heartbreaking and is the hardest decision I've had to make! Went through a hard few months recently too as my dad was diagnosed with prostate cancer. But he had an operation a couple of weeks ago to remove the prostate and there is no sign of the cancer now
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I'm in tears most days because of everything :'( and I was comfort eating a lot - I came home for the weekend yesterday, and weighed myself today and I am very very ashamed to say my current weight is 14st 10lbs! I just can't believe I've got to this weight and feel disgusted with myself :'( so I've decided to go on a low-carb diet.
Anyhoo that's my update!!
I hope you don't mind me coming back to join the thread? And I will be making this a regular thing because I really need the support at the moment
xxxx