straight talking : LeaE jely wobble
Well well well here I am again
Im stating a new diary as my last one was like 2 years ago and so much has happened since then but hey ho
I have just completed y first week on CD and wasnt going to bother with a diary but figure it helped me so much and i met some amazing ppl and it was just all part of the diet really so figured i woud do it again
Im Lea and im now 30 yes im the big 30 and well big I am
I weighed in last sunday at 21st.2lbs and I was gutte but not sprised as i have eaten my way through stress and even though iknew i was i just kept on munching through the week ! Just call me the very hungry catapillar !!!
I have two girls ages 10 and 7 and a partner who lives with me hes 29
I started last week as i felt pants im fat uncomy and i sruggle to bend down
my feet are tired and hurt and im suffering lots of aches and pains that are all weight related
I have no clothes that fit as i refuse to buy them as they look awful and well to be frank im sick of being fat spesh as i know i feel so much better lighter plus in my job you stand infront of a mirror 24/7 so can u imagine how soul destroying that it
anyways im sure if u read my diary u will find out more about me if i bore you im sorry but this is for me as i get a bit obcessive on cd so have to get it off my cheast
week ones done anyway and my loss was 12lbs and 8 inch from under my boobs x pretty cool hey x i do love cd
spk soon my frank diary xxx
i look forward to a very long and emotional journey xx
- Rep Power
What a fabulous incentive losing 12lbs this week Lea!
Well done and best of luck on your journey.
Ty mini it was nice but hoping not to sound ungrateful I won't be feeling any happier until I'm over 2 stone down x I think I wait to see the 19s and then I feel I can go for it x hope your doing well x
Leaaaaaaa! So nice to see you on here! Do you remember me? How are you getting on? X
Ps what an amazing weight loss! Well done!
Hey there, good to see you back. Huge congrats on your loss. How are you getting on this week? I
12 lbs is a fab weight loss you should be proud ,
Are you a hairdresser ,? I'm 1 myself and know about standing I front of a mirror all day it's horrid.
Your all ready nearly halfway there till your 1st goal of 2stone , keep up the good work xxxxx
And won't ur be nice to go into any shop and not but clothes from the "plus size " section xx
Hello Lea, I remember you from before and enjoyed reading your diary, I think you inspired a lot of people then with your posts and the photos....
Although, I'm not doing a VLCD (no judging, it's just not for everyone, dieting choice is such a personal thing IMHO ) I like reading a variety of different weight loss diaries for inspiration,motivation and ideas !!
Welcome back !!
Course I remember you x the ppl who kept me going last time is the reason I'm back on here now although I must admit facing the shame of starting all over again was a bit off putting but never one to shy away from the truth I just figured sod it x so here I am x how are u anyhow x
Well I'm just on a night shift as I juggle my own job along side hair and beauty ATM until I'm established x yesterday I was on a course from 9-3 and on a night shift from 8.30 till 7.30 this morning x but on a plus not far too busy to even consider cheating
I have stuck to plan 100% although I'm a bit fed up will busting for the loo every 5 mins ! I did however dip my pee at work and was lovely to see that nice purple colour shining bright x
My uniform is still tight and I'm still feeling really heavy however the prospect of feeling better in a few weeks is keeping me positive x
Yes I am a hairdresser and I love it however I work in a skin covered in mirrors so no escaping my oversized bulges x when I leave the house I think yeah that's fine your covering your fat fine today and then when I'm working I catch a glimpse of myself and think mmmmmm u failed I can still see every lump bump and wobbly bit !!!!!!
I must admit I am a little annoyed with myself and I'm refusing to make excuses about having to start again so although 12lbs loss is great I'm not happy x I know that sounds selfish moody and radic but I'm not going to lie x I'm so annoyed at seeing them scales I don't think I will be feeling happy about my losses for a long long time x
Ty all who have popped in to say hi and hope to see u around soon xxx
Just woke up after my night shift and being awake 24hrs well I say just woke up but I'm weeing every 5mins so haven't had sleep straight through x
Warning over share !! Also I have finally gone to the loo for a number two and it's like tar I'm calling it tarpoo ooohhhhhh I don't miss this one bit x well the start of week 2 is going fine I'm drinking drinking and well drinking x had a bit of a negative blow this am from a member of staff who was asking about my diet and who's response was 'are u going to actually stick to it this time' FFS I did 5 and half month last time and lost 6 stone and I only came off it because I was rushed into hospital for an emergency op mmmmm I wouldn't mind but she's fat and can't stick to anything ! Ggggrrrrrr I kept my cool anyways and said 'who knows, who cares it's my body' I obviously do care but ***** why are ppl so negative !
Anyway I'm in the bath now and it's what has promoted me to post x laying in the bath makes me feel fat ! My belly doesn't even go under the water and I can see my wobbly bits in all it's glory and I hate them x I hate how fat I am I hate feeling heavy when I go up the stairs I hate having no clothes I hate thinking that my fat is all that ppl see of me and if they describe me it's one of the first adjectives they would use x I hate that the little old lady at work thinks I'm pregnant and to save her embarrassment and mine I just play along with it omg !!!!!!! I hate that my bf has me like this and that he can't possibly look at me and find me attractive and that I know I'm the fattest gf he's had ! I hate that I'm the fattest person at work and at college and in all my groups actually ! And most of all I hate that this list shows I hate myself ! And I think that's the worst position you can be in but..... Ever the optimist I love that I can use all these bad feelings to give me the strength to carry on x
I love cd x I love no planning I love that hardly anyone else who has copied me can't stick to it and I bloody can ! I love the fast weight loss I love seeing my consultant I love getting my smaller clothes back and I love when I can see a change xxxxx
Oh nooooooo confirmation of deep ketosis is here ! The dreaded period ! And it's only week 2 !
I don't do totm I have the implant but when on Cambridge god dam it makes up for it x omg ongoing omg scarlet niagra falls has come to South Yorkshire !!!!!
Ooohhhhhh this usually lasts 6-8 weeks and I usually grin it out for that long then have a ss + meal to stop it but I don't want to !!!!!!!
Well let's see how well my will power can be tested
Living proof my body fights tooth and nail to avoid losing weight ! God dam my genetically adopted body !
I love your honesty- to be honest you are not alone I have felt every sentiment that you have and totally get the bath thing!! I can't even do underwater swimming anymore my goddam body just floats. So madam you are on it and from what I have read in the past that you are 100% committed. You will do well. Hope your health doesn't get in the way ( hope that didn't come across rude).
Give over rude ! Nothing's seen as too rude on my point only the truth I'm afraid x I can't cope with ppl talking bull and not being honest glorifying a very hard diet to be something it's not x u know I love cd but I'm not going to say it's all a miracle I find easy x it has it's ups and it has it's downs the stuff your body and mind go through while on this diet is untrue and it's because of cd last time that I learnt how my body works x which now said is another plus
If your honestly saying I'm not alone and you feel just like me then I'm sending you a hug x it's so crappy feeling like that about yourself but ..... At least it will get better hey x and Ty I'm glad at least one person can stomach my honesty and over shares however I'm still considering 'tarpoo' a little bit over the top for my honesty lol
Well night shift done so that's them over for the week and now to battle on with hairdressing x I'm shattered now so off to bed
I'm still 100% ss I'm still peeing every 10mins and I'm still fat but ..... I'm still plodding on x x good night my dear diary good night fellow cd friends x think drink !!!!
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