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Okay. So I'm sniffling. I'm having a good cry, because I have cried less this year than any other year in my life.
I don;t like my life at the moment - and if there's one thing I have learned not just this year, but over the last 5 years, if you don't like something, you can change it.
My problem is that getting to goal wasn't quite what I thought it would be. I was still too focused on the food when I got there 'Oh the things I can eat when I get to such and such a week', I thought to myself. 'I'll never eat badly again!' I thought.
Well - we all know what happened, I was one of the victims of the sugarcrack fairy - or to put it another way - I allowed myself a hit of sugar too early in the game and totally lost all control.
I have regularly been eating over 10 chocolate bars a day. At one point I was purging, but in order to break the cycle, I put a stop to that bit - alas, that means that until you can get rid of the bingeing, you put on weight. It's nothing drastic, I'm not fat, but I have tipped over into overweight by half a stone or so.
So I kind of want to say 'AND IT STOPS HERE' but drawing a line like that has never worked for me, too many voices all at once jumping in and saying 'not this again, you never succeed' - and that's a pattern of behaviour I never want to return to.
So. I am keeping it simple. Back to the food diary, back to the thought records (even though my chatterbox just sighed dramatically and pulled a face) and back to just plain giving myself some good food and nt fixating on it too much. I know I have to veto anything with sugar in it, but how is that a hardship? I am already in a good place with so many other things I thought would never be okay taht I'm sure I can eventually turn the odd sugary thing into an occasional think I do participate in. Just not this week!
Maybe I'm just on the accelerated learning course, maybe I'm just doing what some people do after they finish management - but I think I can get back where I was. I'd like to be 10st 4 again and eating normally.
So. Sarah. By the end of November I will be 10st 4 and eating 3 nutritious meals a day with the odd snack. By balancing exercise and eating choices you will be able to maintain this weight.
The blog's back up.
Oh - this is going to sound really weird, but comments and advice tend to make me react quite negatively. It's my thing - hope that's okay with you guys (yes of course I ask myself why!)
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