Long time lurker loosing it one stone at a time
I am a long term lurker but have finally decided to stop hiding and join up to share my journey. I first discovered the site back in 2011 when I started a diet called SureSlim, a VLCD that worked around eating three meals a day, six hours apart, and drinking nothing but water. The amounts were very restrictive and all in all I was miserable on that diet. I then went on to SW, and did sooo much better, losing 2st in as many months.
In Jan 2012 I was down from 28st to just under 24st but alas lost motivation and came off the diet. So I'm now back to the heaviest I've been, 28st 8lb (although probably lighter than this time last week as I've been back on SW for a week now). I've only just plucked up the courage to weigh myself this morning :o
I knew my weight would be high, I have been binge eating for months now. In recent months, it's got harder and harder for me to walk my dogs for any decent amount of time. This is a massive motivation for me atm as those girls mean the world to me and I desperately miss meandering around the woods for hours at a time with them like I used to do. Nowadays, I need to sit down after about 20 minutes walking which is just horrific for a 26 year old woman. I have also broken our bed :o just through sitting on the edge of it, which is just awful, it was relatively new and now we're on a mattress on the floor while we save up for a new divan.
I want to be a mummy one day, desperately, and this is simply NEVER going to happen if I don't get myself to a healthy weight. A good friend of mine had a beautiful baby daughter last year, and spending any amount of time with them, although lovely, really breaks me. My OH is 34 and starting to really think about becoming a parent, and it's not something that we can even think about atm. He is largeish too, but much slimmer and fitter than I am; he would be at his ideal weight if he lost about 3st, while I on the other hand...
I'm sure I don't need to list all the hundreds of other horrible things that go hand in hand with being this overweight, but each month it seems life is becoming more and more restrictive for me. We were in hospital the other day (OH had a minor operation) and the waiting room chairs had arms, meaning I was uncomfortable for hours; at one point I even considered leaving him there and just sitting in the car, which is terrible.
We are booked on a flight in early January and while I should be looking forward to our holiday (visiting parents in France) I am dreading it. I don't want to go through the embarrassment of needing an extension seatbelt, having people staring at me and spilling over on to the seat next to me. All of these things make life dismal and depressing and scary, and I'm really really fed up with it.
I have been in denial for too long about how much my weight affects my life, my health and those around me. I will be taking things one stone at a time as I cannot begin to imagine being 15st lighter, in fact I don't even have a target weight as I have no idea what a healthy size is for me. I know BMI gives a fair indication but I suppose a size 12/14 would feel 'right' for my frame.
Getting down to 20st would be life changing, so for now, although I know I'll be still be obese at that weight, that is my target. I think loosing 8st is enough to be getting on with anyway :p
Thanks for reading x
Re: Long time lurker loosing it one stone at a time
Hello Freya :) could have written a lot of that myself! I was 28st when I started, got down to about 21.7 then ive spent 2 years yoyoing! I am going for out of the 20s too, we can do this!
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