Thread: Minilady's Diary... getting back on track

Kenneth Williams springs to mind - its all a bit of a Carry on.

You are doing well cracked the diet and now the smoking

lol I think you're right Trace!

Originally Posted by CD Counsellor

Kenneth Williams springs to mind - its all a bit of a Carry on.

I love those films

You are doing well cracked the diet and now the smoking

The smoking I think will take a little more time!

Originally Posted by Mrs Pink

lol I think you're right Trace!

It's a shame really, I've always felt comfortable voicing my opinions and giving encouragement in the past, and I know that other peoples posts have really helped me succeed in losing weight and facing my food issues. I think after this episode I will limit my postings to my own diary and those that know me.

I love doing what I do, I feel passionately about CD, perhaps I was silly to carry on as I did yesterday, in retrospect I should have read the post, thought silly girl and moved on to another thread, but I didn't. I hope that lots of people on Minimins have read these posts and it's made them sit back and think 'I didn't realise I could do any harm selling on ebay, never thought I could be selling to a diabetic or a child'

Shame about Whiteyfishface though, I'd have quite liked to have counselled her


Tracey
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Day 3

Little confession

Went out with friends this evening, and missed so much but had 2 cigs

What a failure, I blame the fact I was forced to endure bacardi! All was going well until about 11.00pm then I hunted out the nearest smoker and begged for not 1 but 2 cigs Surprisingly only after 2 days the first one tasted nasty, so smoked half then threw it away. The second I had on my way home and took a couple of puffs, felt guilty and threw that away too.

I bought gum this morning and quite liked chewing that, so back on track tomorrow and a restart.

Tracey

Originally Posted by minilady

It's a shame really, I've always felt comfortable voicing my opinions and giving encouragement in the past, and I know that other peoples posts have really helped me succeed in losing weight and facing my food issues. I think after this episode I will limit my postings to my own diary and those that know me.

I love doing what I do, I feel passionately about CD, perhaps I was silly to carry on as I did yesterday, in retrospect I should have read the post, thought silly girl and moved on to another thread, but I didn't. I hope that lots of people on Minimins have read these posts and it's made them sit back and think 'I didn't realise I could do any harm selling on ebay, never thought I could be selling to a diabetic or a child'

Shame about Whiteyfishface though, I'd have quite liked to have counselled her


Tracey
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Hey Tracey

I don't know what happened but I will say this ....... you have a right to have your opinions. I'm not sure about what is being said about the CD and selling it on ebay to a diabetic? Hmm...all I can say is that people need to take responsibility for their own health. I am a diabetic and yes I listen to people's advice but at the end of the day I am responsible and take into consideration all the knowledge I have about my medical condition and make my own decision. Know what I mean?

Tracey, beautiful Tracey.......you are fantastic just the way you are! Just be you...you are great the way you are!

I think people's opinions are people's opinions..... we all have different opinions and personally I like my opinions and thoughts being challenged.

I know all this is none of my business but I just wanted to explain the situation from another point of view. Hope I have not offended you!

Oh, about the smoking.....the first cigarette does taste yuk, doesn't it?

My advice would be to increase exercise, drink lots of water. I had problems sleeping and did not sleep the first two days I quit. After 6 weeks it's so much easier......I recall sitting at the edge of the bed and crying at 3.00 am cause I wanted a cigarette. I just kept saying to myself, 'this is temporary and will not last forever'. I am dreading going through it all again but it is so worth it!

I know you can quit smoking and maintain your weight. Hang in there.....I promise it will get better.

Have a great day!

I know all this is none of my business but I just wanted to explain the situation from another point of view. Hope I have not offended you!

Of course you haven't offended me

Oh, about the smoking.....the first cigarette does taste yuk, doesn't it?

It did, still carried on and puffed a bit more though

My advice would be to increase exercise, drink lots of water. I had problems sleeping and did not sleep the first two days I quit. After 6 weeks it's so much easier......I recall sitting at the edge of the bed and crying at 3.00 am cause I wanted a cigarette. I just kept saying to myself, 'this is temporary and will not last forever'. I am dreading going through it all again but it is so worth it!

I have slept ok, but I do feel like I have a strange edgy energy that I need to burn up. I think you're right about the exercise. I have so got to make time for this, it's difficult I have 4 children and work, seems like any spare time I have I just want to relax. I know these are excuses, will get off my bum. Water I'm ok with, before I dieted I didn't really drink a lot, Now I always start the day with 2 pints, I got in this habit whilst on CD.

I know you can quit smoking and maintain your weight. Hang in there.....I promise it will get better.

I hope so

Have a great day![/quote]

Thanks Michelle you're a sweetie

I hope you're feeling ok today, keep yourself busy. Has he tried to contact you again?

Take care and throw those cigs away, you don't need them or him.

Tracey
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Originally Posted by minilady

It's a shame really, I've always felt comfortable voicing my opinions and giving encouragement in the past, and I know that other peoples posts have really helped me succeed in losing weight and facing my food issues. I think after this episode I will limit my postings to my own diary and those that know me.

Don't you dare It's good to see people stand up for their beliefs so passionately. How boring would this forum be if we just bowed down all the time when we feel strongly about something. And besides, it was the perfect opportunity to explain the reasons why people shouldn't sell on ebay.

Many people will just assume that CDCs are against it because they may lose customers. Hopefully it's given lots of folk a better understanding of the reasons.

Originally Posted by minilady

Day 3

Little confession

Went out with friends this evening, and missed so much but had 2 cigs

What a failure,

I have a new phrase Instead of saying "I failed" say "that was interesting, I wonder why I chose to do that".

Surprisingly only after 2 days the first one tasted nasty, so smoked half then threw it away. The second I had on my way home and took a couple of puffs, felt guilty and threw that away too.

Isn't it amazing how even when one tastes nasty we feel we must try another (just to be sure) Done it many times myself. I would think 'I just need one, then I'll be okay'. Of course, it was my addiction talking because I knew that one really equalled ten...and then another 20 a day (for me that is)

I became such an expert in restarting that I knew I had to have at least 5 before I would enjoy it again, so would struggle through the first 4, just to get that good feeling again. Then, of course, I still had 5 left in the packet. What a waste to throw them away Might aswell smoke them all and be done with it. And hey....there I was finding myself back buying another 20

I bought gum this morning and quite liked chewing that, so back on track tomorrow and a restart.

That's good I didn't like the gum. Didn't mind chewing it for a moment, but hated having to just keep it still by my gum I was allergic to the patches, but didn't mind the inhaler thingy.

Best of luck with this week Tracey. It's hard, but hey, you can do hard things

Originally Posted by KD

Don't you dare It's good to see people stand up for their beliefs so passionately. How boring would this forum be if we just bowed down all the time when we feel strongly about something. And besides, it was the perfect opportunity to explain the reasons why people shouldn't sell on ebay.

Many people will just assume that CDCs are against it because they may lose customers. Hopefully it's given lots of folk a better understanding of the reasons.

I hope it has highlighted the situation, there will always be people who feel they have no responsibilities towards others, unfortunately that seems to be more and more the case But even if it makes just 1 person think again about selling their old packs on Ebay, then a good job done I say



I have a new phrase Instead of saying "I failed" say "that was interesting, I wonder why I chose to do that".

Sounds a lot more positive than failed

Isn't it amazing how even when one tastes nasty we feel we must try another (just to be sure) Done it many times myself. I would think 'I just need one, then I'll be okay'. Of course, it was my addiction talking because I knew that one really equalled ten...and then another 20 a day (for me that is)

It is so so similar to the food addiction. That's why panic mode has set in again. To help with the food addiction I upped the smoking. Now I want to give up smoking the last thing I want to do is replace it with food again!

I became such an expert in restarting that I knew I had to have at least 5 before I would enjoy it again, so would struggle through the first 4, just to get that good feeling again. Then, of course, I still had 5 left in the packet. What a waste to throw them away Might aswell smoke them all and be done with it. And hey....there I was finding myself back buying another 20

Me too, I think I have actively tried to give up smoking about 5 times in the 10 years (I've smoked for 27 years) You have just writtenexactly what I have always done


Not this time though KD, I have learnt a lot about myself and my addictive nature, all thanks to losing my weight and finding Minimins and of course you. I feel better prepared for battle this time

That's good I didn't like the gum. Didn't mind chewing it for a moment, but hated having to just keep it still by my gum I was allergic to the patches, but didn't mind the inhaler thingy.


I have never tried the patches. I think the gum is the way to go for me, that way I am keeping my mouth occupied and hopefully wont put too much food in it The inhalator is good also as of course I have now managed to get a great Dot Cotton Mouth, so must not let that slip

Best of luck with this week Tracey. It's hard, but hey, you can do hard things

Thanks KD

Tracey
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How are you going?

I hope you are well!

Yep, he tried to contact me......I am just ignoring him, as far as I am concerned we are over and there is no reason to contact me. I know that sounds harsh!

Originally Posted by help6363

How are you going?

I hope you are well!

I'm good thanks

Yep, he tried to contact me......I am just ignoring him, as far as I am concerned we are over and there is no reason to contact me. I know that sounds harsh!

It dosent sound harsh, sounds very sensible to me!

No smoking is going ok I had a blip on Friday, but since then I haven't had another Still craving every few seconds but finding the gum a god send! I have it in my mouth constantly and have promised myself only to take it out when something healthy is on my plate, not for feel good foods. At this moment it's working

I've been thinking a lot about exercise and thanks to a prompt from Blond Logic have started a teeny exercise regime, am planning to upgrade it weekly.

I saw today a lady rollerblading along the sea front, she was moderately overweight and probably in her 50's. I thought she was great and what a fun way to exercise, so am thinking of buying some blades. This idea went down well with the kids too and they want to rollerblade with me

Feeling pretty fed up I've bought a packet of cigs and managed to smoke 8 in the last 5 hours

Had a stressful day, due to being harrassed by text, and then having a blazing row over the phone This all involves my daughter who witnessed a fight and has agreed to talk to the police to give a statement, I know the victim personally and his wife is bombarding me with texts wanting to know more and more, she can't seem to understand that there is no more to tell, she feels my daughter is holding back and now wants my daughters mobile number to harrass her further

I phoned her to tell her no way was I going to give out the number and that My daughter is still willing to talk to police and tell them all she knows, apparently this isn't enough

I've also found out that this man made inappropriate suggestions to my daughter on this night, she didn't want to tell me as she knew I'd be angry. I mentioned his comments to his wife over the phone and her reaction was that he was drunk Drunk or not I'd be disgusted if my hubby did anything like that!

So with all the frustratration I've smoked and eaten a packet of chocolate digestives

Feeling pretty stupid right now, but know I'll smoke the rest of the packet, also feeling a great urge to eat. Probably everything seems worse as hubby is working away plus the fact I haven't told him about what's going on, firstly I don't want him to worry and secondly I think he may pop round and pay them a visit if he knew.

Oh Tracey . I'm sorry I wasn't around last night to give you a virtual hug

What a todo eh. My eldest witnessed a fight and now has to give evidence in court. He went yesterday but ended up sitting there all day, then it was ajourned just before he was called up He wasn't happy.

No harassment though thank goodness.

Shame about the fags, but I do understand. So what about today? Hopefully no plans to make a small blip into a big one I hope?

Originally Posted by KD

Oh Tracey . I'm sorry I wasn't around last night to give you a virtual hug

Thank you that's really sweet of you I felt a lot better just typing it out.

What a todo eh. My eldest witnessed a fight and now has to give evidence in court. He went yesterday but ended up sitting there all day, then it was ajourned just before he was called up He wasn't happy.

How frustrating for him!

No harassment though thank goodness.

I think I may have put a stop to this now, after my phone call to her last night. I haven't received any further txts and also saw her this morning and she made a quick detour, so hopefully that should be the end of it. Just hoping Kim dosent bump into them.

Shame about the fags, but I do understand. So what about today? Hopefully no plans to make a small blip into a big one I hope?

mmmmm today I bought some more. But have this afternoon felt tingling in my gums, first signs of another infection My mouth had cleared up considerably but one day of smoking has started it off again! So I'm typing this chewing on my gum

Tracey
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Chewing on the gum hasn't lasted long Have bought yet another packet More has been happening with this silly fight night episode, it transpires that the 'victim' has lied in his account to the police Police rang today and my daughter gave a brief account of events over the phone, which don't tally with the victims! Not sure what's going to happn now


I read a thread yesterday which mentioned judding, I have heard this mentioned before but have never really understood what it was or bothered to look into it. However, the thread I read gave a brief account of it and I realised that I have been doing my own version of this to maintain. So I decided to read more about it. I was a little concerned at how I have been maintaining, but have kept telling myself everything is fine as I am actually staying at the same weight, but still a little voice was asking me if it was healthy in the long term.

I still have more reading to do and have messaged an experienced judder who has been very helpful.

Not sure if this is definately the road I want to take, but am feeling that it seems to be a route I've taken for myself anyway, so maybe at this moment in time it may be beneficial to follow the proper guidelines on judding andsee how I go.

Tracey
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