My Diary - I will not give up this time!!
So I start my slim and save journey tomorrow, I'm off to boots in a few hours to weigh in properly but I know I'm around 18 stone at the moment!! :( I'm absolutely disgusted with the way I look and can't look in the mirror without wanting to cry, I normally try to avoid mirrors at all costs but on Saturday I'm going to buy myself a full length one to leave in my bedroom so when I feel like eating or feel like giving up I'm going to look in the mirror and I know then I'll be fine and will want to carry on!!
its getting ridiculous now, for the last 20 years, we have all been going out my Nan's every New Year's Day for a big family dinner and I've never missed one, up until now, I couldn't actually bring myself to go and feel like everyone is staring and judging so I said I was sick and stayed at home all day!! :(
i will never allow myself to miss another New Year's Day with my family.
I have an amazing, very supportive other half who is always trying to make me feel good about myself and supports me in everything I do, we have a beautiful 3 year old daughter together and my goal date is October as she turns 4 on the 26th of October and I can't carry on being a fat mummy!!
i have been on Cambridge, slim and save and weight watchers before so I know how horrible the feeling is when you realise that if you had stuck to the diet the first time you tried you will be at goal weight by now, it's a horrible feeling and I won't be letting myself feel it again!!
my daughter starts nursery this Monday (6th) and it's about a 20 - 25 minute walk and I need to walk it 12 times a week!! I also have my wii fit which I love!! So I know I'll be getting lots of exercise witch I'm hoping will help!!
I will be going to get weighed properly at boots some point today and will update my weight and things then, and then I will be getting weighed every Saturday at boots, so I have just over a week to go until my first weigh in.
i wish every one on this and any other diet all the luck in the world xx