PeacefulJo - a new decade

Hi, I have been a member of MM before but very much lapsed - I can't even remember my user name! I've called myself PeacefulJo as I try very hard to be as peaceful and calm as I can be. I found this forum very useful before so I hope you don't mind me rejoining. I turn 30 in five months time and whilst that isn't "enough time" to get to target, that is certainly where I want to be this on NYE 2015.

It hit me earlier in the year that by the time I reach 30, I will have been fat for more than half of my life. I cannot go on like this. I have been a member of SW for many years, without sustained success. Truth is I am a terrible emotional eater and I self-sabotage like it's going out of fashion...I am my absolute own worst enemy.

I will be as open and honest as I possibly can - at the moment I either don't keep a food diary, or leave things out! I just really need a bit of support to keep going, keep my head focused, and my hands out of the biscuit tin!

Hi Jo !
good luck on your new Journey!
Try to keep a diary , and be honest, and don't forget, i find it really does help writing it all down, good or bad (i have a notebook with me , write it all down, and follow it up on here -so it's legible! )

Hi there..I'm sure you'll be where you want to be this time next year (you're first post is very honest and open and definitely hits a chord with me). Good advice too from Zafira (I've always got best results when I've written everything done..it encourages me to take ownership of it). Looking forward to following your success! Jo.b

Haven't been on to update...as nothing positive to update with! First two days of the new year went terribly; mindless eating all the way. Too much of everything. I know I need to draw the line but my head is such a mess I feel like I've eaten the pen along with everything else...I've always been a "it'll be alright when..." person, so I keep thinking "it'll be alright when..." I get back to work, school, routine, get a food delivery, pack the Christmas things away, hoover, iron...FFS!! It'll be alright when I take control of my stupid eating and my stupid head!!

So far today though I havent had a single thing, so even I haven't messed up so far, right??!!

Hey there. I think we're all struggling to get back into the swing of things (I'm a routine sort of a gal, so give me xmas/new year when I don't even know if it's Friday or Saturday and I go back to my old habits of eating for eating's sake). Don't fall into the trap of not eating tho.. Have a solid breakfast (may be an omelette packed with loads of veggies?). I know when I try to rationalise how I've overeaten the day before by cutting back the next, I end up eating everything but my shoes by mid pm! The secret for me is in the planning.. Try to sit down with a cuppa, some breakfast and plan what you're going to eat today/tomorrow

We're all with you though. For me, I'm struggling as I haven't had a weigh in since xmas eve, I know I've put on (which is ok) but until I get weighed on weds and take ownership of it, I can't seem to draw that line under it.

Roll on next week when normality resumes, I say!

I never thought I would say it but half looking forward to getting back to work when routines can start again! we have xmas- loads of presents and mess....then daughters birthday, more presents and more mess, now today is her party, more presents and mess!
To be honest I have given up tidying & cleaning- place looks like a bomb has hit it, but i have next friday to clean & tidy when daughter is back at school!

I am day 2 of the plan!! (another returner) WE CAN DO IT!
GOOD LUCK!
definatley start recording what you are eating. and fill the fridge with lots of ready prepared veg & fruit so theres always something to grab when you want to eat

Thanks for your replies - need all the help I can get! Well I managed to steer my way around two meals; bran flakes for breakfast and a soup for lunch (I'm not sure it was that SW friendly but as it was full of beans and veg, it is a 100% improvement on what I have been eating lately! I also resisted the bread to go with it) Tea is a small sliver of a pie we have had in the freezer for a while, with a huge pile of veg. I have fruit for in between/tea breaks on the cleaning mission I am just about to start.

I'm already feeling better and more positive just from being more in control. I've also just paid the deposit on our holiday - would you believe it is only 12 weeks until the Easter holidays! So that has given me a big focus; want to be out of the 12's by then....11lbs to go...MORE THAN DO-ABLE!!! In fact my SW class has people who have lost 2st in that space of time...nearly my target.

Have a happy Saturday afternoon and evening everyone; we've got sofa cuddles and movies planned.

PeacefulJo said:

Thanks for your replies - need all the help I can get! Well I managed to steer my way around two meals; bran flakes for breakfast and a soup for lunch (I'm not sure it was that SW friendly but as it was full of beans and veg, it is a 100% improvement on what I have been eating lately! I also resisted the bread to go with it) Tea is a small sliver of a pie we have had in the freezer for a while, with a huge pile of veg. I have fruit for in between/tea breaks on the cleaning mission I am just about to start.

I'm already feeling better and more positive just from being more in control. I've also just paid the deposit on our holiday - would you believe it is only 12 weeks until the Easter holidays! So that has given me a big focus; want to be out of the 12's by then....11lbs to go...MORE THAN DO-ABLE!!! In fact my SW class has people who have lost 2st in that space of time...nearly my target.

Have a happy Saturday afternoon and evening everyone; we've got sofa cuddles and movies planned.

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Well done on being more positive!
Jeez! 12 weeks til easter?! how scary is that?!

You can do it though!
Enjoy your afternoon, sounds cozy!

It is bloody scary isn't it Zafira?! Though as a pre-school worker I always count the distance between each holiday - I think it is seven until February half term! I always get countdowns too which I fit in to run between school holidays...it's a good way to try and focus. I LOVE school holidays...tho at times (especially at Xmas when we are all cooped up in the house on top of each other) I do wish I could have time off when there is nobody else here!

I know what you mean...normally if i have 2 weeks off then we have been away or something.....but 2 weeks mainly in the house! ready to get back to work!

7 weeks till half term?!?

I am sure when i was younger the terms were longer lol!

Yep it is seven weeks yesterday, based on schools breaking up on 21st Feb. I think they did tend to last for longer when we were younger but when you work in a school/pre-school, you are counting the minutes! I usually manage to keep positive until the halfway point, and then I really, really long for another break. There is no way I could work in a nursery and anyone who does has my upmost respect!

Just making a start on dinner...must admit to feeling hungry, but better overall. Popped out earlier and whilst I was out my husband and son ate the remaining chocolate...phew!

Certainly seems my 14 yr old daughter has way too many holidays, and too soon too....sure i didn't have as many lol

Finally a good day, with some exercise and food planning thrown in. I've just filled my cupboards with loads of fruit & veg, and I've also just put some chicken in to marinade and make a korma with tomorrow night, from the SW sauces mini-book.

Feels really good to be able to say that I have had a good day - husband cooking a sausage meat pie using sausage meat from joes sausages - don't know what the general feeling towards the company is on here, but I'm happy to syn them as free meat & won't give them up in a hurry!

Well done on the good day!
I've heard of Joes sausages before, but never tried them, heard they're meant to be good though and ''syn free'' ?

Ah, my first weigh in of the year ticked - 2lbs off!! Pleased with that, well worth pulling myself back on to the horse.

Now though comes the come-down from that high of losing...how the hell do I get through this week? I don't mean to be negative, I'm not looking for excuses to crack or freaking out but this week has so much to throw at me....

Thursday : takeaway for brother's 21st

Friday: Nothing planned so I'll be trying to keep as low syn & low carb as possible

Saturday: A while ago a group of us, three couples, decided to do a 'Come Dine With Me' type thing as a cheaper way of celebrating the six birthdays. As it is my husbands birthday next week, the first turn goes to us on Saturday. I'm making a lasagne using free mince but that's where my low syn ideas run out.

Sunday: The Big One. My grandad is 80. Huge afternoon tea party booked at local hotel. I've already paid £20 for my seat. Very seriously considering eating before I go, then just drinking tea & hoping nobody notices I'm not really eating. A loss means more than the money.

Monday: lunch out, which I can probably control a bit more, or even get out of altogether.

How the hell do I navigate this minefield?

First challenge just around the corner....Indian! Ordered plain rice, lamb rogan josh and will have one spoonful of husband's korma...no bread. Argh! Just got next Wednesday's weigh in in my mind, to the point where I can see the scales!

Successfully negotiated last night's hazards, only had half of the lamb rogan in the end, just polished off the rest of it with a huge bowl of Batchelor's Mild Curry savoury rice...blinkin yummy.

Felt really good to not give in to the takeaway just because it was there, at a family gathering - the old me would've had probably 70 syns or so.

Whilst I am in a positive mood, I think it's time for some goal-setting.

I'm currently 12st 9lbs so I have a nice round 10 to get off to get me into the next number, those lovely 11's, a place I haven't been to for far too many years. In seven week's time, the plumber (my lovely nickname for hubby, guess his job!) and I are going to a flash hotel for a weekend away with friends, which includes a dinner-dance. I'll need a new dress, shoes, the lot, and really want to look as good as possible. Getting that 10lbs off is my initial goal; if I don't achieve it, then I am not going to beat myself up, as long as I have achieved something. But I really do want to give it my very best shot.

Today is a low syn day - although I had two biscuits at work. Gah.

Breakfast: Porridge with A choice milk

Mid-Morning - 2 rich teas 5syns

Lunch - leftover Rogan curry - 3.5syns Mild Curry rice - 1syn


Haven't overly decided on dinner yet but we have a lot of veg to use up so it may well be cheesy mash with loads of veg.

The whole 'take it one day at a time' idea really seems to be working at the moment...roll on tomorrow...it's our CDWM and the plumber has decided to re-takeover the dinner plans but they're still reasonably SW friendly - lamb tangine from the Hairy Dieters book.

Hope everyone has a good weekend.

Its great when you have something to aim for! GOOD LUCK with those 10 pounds!

I have a school reunion middle of march so hoping to be in the 9s for then! completely doable I think!

rogan josh only 7 syns!??! thats worth knowing!

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Here is a link to where I got my Indian information from - really all you are 'paying' for is the lamb; rogan josh sauces are heavily tomato, onion and spice based, so there is no cream and so on like with a korma.

Not overly 'feeling' it today - will be honest as usual and say that I had a monumental bust-up with the plumber last night; at my wits end with him and his behaviour, and I did end up eating the very end of my son's milkybar block, no doubt I went over my syns but the positives were that I didn't eat anything else, and have just had my usual porridge today. We are still going ahead with our CDWM tonight, albeit with not actually speaking to each other yet this morning! He's done a morrocan lamb slow cooker thing, with all the fat removed, so I'll be able to stay reasonably within syns provided I stay away from the cheesecake! As I say I'm not really in the mood for eating much today - just hope we can sort things out. I have noticed a shift in my reactions when I'm upset - I'm not over-eating as much as I used to, so that is a really big change for the better.

Happy Saturday everyone.

I couldn't access this link- is it cos i dont have enough posts??

whats CDWM ??

but thats good about your reactions to emotions! hope you can sort it out with the plumber!