I've been away for a while and am going to rejoin my group in Saturday. I fell off the wagon in November due to some horrendous family issues and I'm back to my original starting weight.
I'm really nervous about this rejoin - not going to group as they're fab - but nervous that I won't be able to see the journey through. I am so unhappy about my weight and I cannot remember what it feels like to feel good about myself. I want to succeed so badly but I never seem to get to where I want to be.
To top off the negative feelings, my husband has booked a summer holiday with a huge group of his family. There are two girls going who despise me (I have no idea why) and the thought of having to wear a swimsuit in front of them makes me want to cry. Part of me wants to use that feeling to spur me on but, as usual, the negative thoughts win!
Sorry for the rant - just feeling really low