quarter life crisis
I say that its a quarter life crisis but this is actually recurrent and currently at the tip of the iceberg is that I turn 25 in 8 days.
The last time I felt like this was the beginning of October.
I decided to grab the bull by the horns, take one thing at a time, and started with my weight. I joined SW.
For almost 14 weeks now I have focussed on the plan and the rest of my endless shizz has been put on the back burner.
The weight has started to go in the wrong direction and alas it is once again the end of the world.
My contract finishes in 19 weeks
I hate that I am overweight and cannot comfortably fit into any half decent clothes
I am skint. Always penniless
I am gagging for a holiday
I'm sick of my houseshare and my douchebag housemates
I do nothing in my life to satisfy me or to feel that there is a point. No hobbies, an unreliable friend and just a lazy loafer really.
This all sounds deep and dark, and it doesn't need to. It's very obvious with me how I'm feeling.
My heart is very much attached to my sleeve and thats where it seems to stay.
I know I need to do one thing at a time
I have been looking for jobs- even applied for a couple before christmas
I embarked on SW but things have come to a stand still
I write out rotas, and budgets and god knows what else but still decide to "treat myself" in a desperate moment and buy somethign that I cannot afford
I would try to save, for a holiday or something, but at the minute its hard to make ends meet
I have been looking for a new houseshare and have also been trying to avoid the house/ be a little more layed back about it all
Life really is crap sometimes isnt it lol!!
Mine is same s#*t different day but at least you took the one thing that you can control by the horns first!
Dont give up, a job is a job and you have it for the next 19 weeks, it pays the bills and keeps a roof over your head!
I have realised that the only thing I can control in my life is what I put in my mouth, so far it has been a load of crap but now im not gonna give up! Once you get your head round one thing the others will soon get in line!!
That probably made no sense at all but in my little brain it kinda did! Lol
All im sayibg is dont give up :-) xx
That is so true about controlling what you eat. Its really struck a chord. I need to just stop whining and do it!!!
Thank you for reading my rant. Sometimes you just need to rant. My friends have heard it too many times to take it seriously.
moan whinge whineee
Oh I do like a good moan and its true, sometimes you need fresh ears to hear it :-) im always here if you need a moan lol x
It's the January blues. It's the mid twenties blues and it's the recession blues all in one. Don't give up :) keep plugging away (here's me saying this I should so listen to myself). I believe that things and situations happen for a reason and that everything has a silver lining, we just aren't always sure what that's going to be. I'm going to do something nice for you today, to boost your karmic levels :) x
Isn't is funny (as in "odd" not "hahaha") how a poo week or two in SW can wreck your buzz and make everything else seem pants?
When I read your post I was thinking that if your W/I had gone the way you'd wanted, the rest of the stuff might not have been as bothersome to you. Yeah, you'd still have the same list of problems (and I'm not trying to belittle them in any way), but you'd have that kick-ass vibe going on that would make you more positive overall.
January really is such a sucky month. Spend all of November/December counting down to Christmas and then what? Big wet squib of January is hot on its tails, and all you want is food, and to wear your pjs all day, and to EAT. (think I've shared too much?!)
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