kimberleycandukan
Silver Member
I say that its a quarter life crisis but this is actually recurrent and currently at the tip of the iceberg is that I turn 25 in 8 days.
The last time I felt like this was the beginning of October.
I decided to grab the bull by the horns, take one thing at a time, and started with my weight. I joined SW.
For almost 14 weeks now I have focussed on the plan and the rest of my endless shizz has been put on the back burner.
The weight has started to go in the wrong direction and alas it is once again the end of the world.
My contract finishes in 19 weeks
I hate that I am overweight and cannot comfortably fit into any half decent clothes
I am skint. Always penniless
I am gagging for a holiday
I'm sick of my houseshare and my douchebag housemates
I do nothing in my life to satisfy me or to feel that there is a point. No hobbies, an unreliable friend and just a lazy loafer really.
This all sounds deep and dark, and it doesn't need to. It's very obvious with me how I'm feeling.
My heart is very much attached to my sleeve and thats where it seems to stay.
I know I need to do one thing at a time
I have been looking for jobs- even applied for a couple before christmas
I embarked on SW but things have come to a stand still
I write out rotas, and budgets and god knows what else but still decide to "treat myself" in a desperate moment and buy somethign that I cannot afford
I would try to save, for a holiday or something, but at the minute its hard to make ends meet
I have been looking for a new houseshare and have also been trying to avoid the house/ be a little more layed back about it all
BLAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
The last time I felt like this was the beginning of October.
I decided to grab the bull by the horns, take one thing at a time, and started with my weight. I joined SW.
For almost 14 weeks now I have focussed on the plan and the rest of my endless shizz has been put on the back burner.
The weight has started to go in the wrong direction and alas it is once again the end of the world.
My contract finishes in 19 weeks
I hate that I am overweight and cannot comfortably fit into any half decent clothes
I am skint. Always penniless
I am gagging for a holiday
I'm sick of my houseshare and my douchebag housemates
I do nothing in my life to satisfy me or to feel that there is a point. No hobbies, an unreliable friend and just a lazy loafer really.
This all sounds deep and dark, and it doesn't need to. It's very obvious with me how I'm feeling.
My heart is very much attached to my sleeve and thats where it seems to stay.
I know I need to do one thing at a time
I have been looking for jobs- even applied for a couple before christmas
I embarked on SW but things have come to a stand still
I write out rotas, and budgets and god knows what else but still decide to "treat myself" in a desperate moment and buy somethign that I cannot afford
I would try to save, for a holiday or something, but at the minute its hard to make ends meet
I have been looking for a new houseshare and have also been trying to avoid the house/ be a little more layed back about it all
BLAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA