So, a pic of me popped up on FB today, from a family occasion. It's at a crap angle, I am sitting on a squashy couch, and all I can see is my lardy thighs and muffin top (pretty big muffin at that). I can't say anything to my relation, cos there are others in it, and I'll just sound silly. And I realise that other people don't see the same flaws that I see myself, that they probably just see happy family pic.
But I am gutted. To me the pic shows what I have still to lose, not the 2 stone I've already lost. I never normally get upset by pics, I won't like them or think they're unflattering, but I don't get upset as such. Today I want to cry.
It got me thinking, there are loads of worse pictures of me, when I am much bigger. So, why is this one so bad? I think it's cos I've put so much effort in to dressing nicely, and I remember thinking that I didn't look too bad that day, I've lost a couple of dress sizes, and then I see that I haven't done as well as I think.
Did anyone else find that they felt more self-conscious after losing some weight than before they even started?
(I'll get over it, I'm just in a huff for now)