tangerine12
Full Member
Hi everyone.
I joined here many years ago so not a newbie but yes I AM still FAT.
At this point in my life I am the heaviest and the laziest I have ever been. I'm at a point now where the less I do the less I want to do and I have literally turned into a slob. Horrifyingly my 3 year old is also picking up my bad habits and is turning slob like spending her time watching endless videos on YouTube. So I decided things need to change.
I'm 37 soon to be 38 and I weigh 18stone 7lbs. My day consists of waking at 7am getting dressed and sitting in front of my PC(I work from home most days) and sit there til 4pm upon which I still sit there watching tv until it's time to collect little one from nursery. During my sedentary day I EAT EAT EAT breakfast rolls packets....Yes packets of biscuits, cakes, chocolate and basically anything I can get my hands on. I no longer have a walk to the train station or office and back again and have become more sedentary than ever. The fact I don't need to commute and have a lunch hour at home is a gift and I should utilise that time more effectively. So this I plan to do with the help of a very expensive gym membership in a very swanky gym which costs a whopping £130 a month - So for that price I damn well intend to spend as much time as possible there. I also got my 3 year old a gym membership there too so she can, at an early age, understand fitness and hopefully when she's older, choose to hit the gym in her free time. When I told my other half I was joining the gym the tirade of rolling eyes and put downs began. It's a waste of money..he said, you'll never stick to it....he said...I don't know Why you do these things....he said. I felt like punching him right in the face as he sucked the life right out of me in those 30 seconds of him voicing his disapproval. He was not supportive in any way which is why I call him a mood hoover as I was no longer excited about my new gym membership and felt like he is more than likely right and spent a sleepless night questioning this and you know when you can't sleep and your mind is in overdrive....by time I drifted off I thought of things like...what would happen if there was a fire??? Who cam save an almost 19stone woman from a gulf of flames or what if I was being attacked....how would I run away when I barely even walk these days. But I have been here so many times before. These thoughts have been in my head before but still....here I am....AGAIN!!!
So this is where I hope to keep a log. So I can look back and reflect on my achievements and my failures and hope that in 3 months time, when I'm reflecting, that I haven't wasted the cost of a luxury holiday in the Mediterranean on gym.
I'm giving the gym membership 3 months. So I think think this is a good measurement of what I want to achieve in that time:
* drop 2 stone
* see a reduction on my double chin, which there is just no hiding AT ALL any more
* spend some quality time with my daughter
* get up off my far a**e and actually do something
* finally be proud of myself for achieving something for me and my daughter
* gain the support of my other half and finally be able to say IN YOUR FACE!!!!
Gym membership starts 10th September...until then I will enjoy my annual leave and will return then probably 19stone something haha!
I joined here many years ago so not a newbie but yes I AM still FAT.
At this point in my life I am the heaviest and the laziest I have ever been. I'm at a point now where the less I do the less I want to do and I have literally turned into a slob. Horrifyingly my 3 year old is also picking up my bad habits and is turning slob like spending her time watching endless videos on YouTube. So I decided things need to change.
I'm 37 soon to be 38 and I weigh 18stone 7lbs. My day consists of waking at 7am getting dressed and sitting in front of my PC(I work from home most days) and sit there til 4pm upon which I still sit there watching tv until it's time to collect little one from nursery. During my sedentary day I EAT EAT EAT breakfast rolls packets....Yes packets of biscuits, cakes, chocolate and basically anything I can get my hands on. I no longer have a walk to the train station or office and back again and have become more sedentary than ever. The fact I don't need to commute and have a lunch hour at home is a gift and I should utilise that time more effectively. So this I plan to do with the help of a very expensive gym membership in a very swanky gym which costs a whopping £130 a month - So for that price I damn well intend to spend as much time as possible there. I also got my 3 year old a gym membership there too so she can, at an early age, understand fitness and hopefully when she's older, choose to hit the gym in her free time. When I told my other half I was joining the gym the tirade of rolling eyes and put downs began. It's a waste of money..he said, you'll never stick to it....he said...I don't know Why you do these things....he said. I felt like punching him right in the face as he sucked the life right out of me in those 30 seconds of him voicing his disapproval. He was not supportive in any way which is why I call him a mood hoover as I was no longer excited about my new gym membership and felt like he is more than likely right and spent a sleepless night questioning this and you know when you can't sleep and your mind is in overdrive....by time I drifted off I thought of things like...what would happen if there was a fire??? Who cam save an almost 19stone woman from a gulf of flames or what if I was being attacked....how would I run away when I barely even walk these days. But I have been here so many times before. These thoughts have been in my head before but still....here I am....AGAIN!!!
So this is where I hope to keep a log. So I can look back and reflect on my achievements and my failures and hope that in 3 months time, when I'm reflecting, that I haven't wasted the cost of a luxury holiday in the Mediterranean on gym.
I'm giving the gym membership 3 months. So I think think this is a good measurement of what I want to achieve in that time:
* drop 2 stone
* see a reduction on my double chin, which there is just no hiding AT ALL any more
* spend some quality time with my daughter
* get up off my far a**e and actually do something
* finally be proud of myself for achieving something for me and my daughter
* gain the support of my other half and finally be able to say IN YOUR FACE!!!!
Gym membership starts 10th September...until then I will enjoy my annual leave and will return then probably 19stone something haha!