LucyNewMum
Silver Member
hi wasnt sure where to post this, but i am really struggling with losing weight atm. i'll try not to bore you for too long, but i started at 16st 10lbs last june, am not 13 stone. but the last month, maybe a bit longer i have been in constant binge mode. i have stayed the same weight as ive been forcing myself to eat very little when i have the willpower.
i want to point out how badly i have been binging-
starting eating at 11am, it is now 12.30. in that hour and a half i have eaten:
slice of toast
ham sandwich
1/2 giant bag of crisps
6 chocolate biscuits
tortilla pizza (tortilla with tomatoe puree, ham and cheese)
another handful of crisps
ANOTHER tortilla pizza
i feel sick but i still want to eat! i was almost in tears last night because i was eating and eating (and drinking), and i was angry for eating but i still wanted it. right now i could go back in the kitchen and eat more! its sick. i have gone weeks eating well and exercising, but once i eat i binge ridiculously (making the most of it i suppose)
im sorry to rant, just feeling a bit hopeless. im not stupid (well..), i know that im the only person who puts food in my mouth. i know if i want to be slim i cant eat like this, but its like i dont care in the moment, and that the food is more important. reading this back i sound like a crazy person. anyway just wanted to get it off my chest
i want to point out how badly i have been binging-
starting eating at 11am, it is now 12.30. in that hour and a half i have eaten:
slice of toast
ham sandwich
1/2 giant bag of crisps
6 chocolate biscuits
tortilla pizza (tortilla with tomatoe puree, ham and cheese)
another handful of crisps
ANOTHER tortilla pizza
i feel sick but i still want to eat! i was almost in tears last night because i was eating and eating (and drinking), and i was angry for eating but i still wanted it. right now i could go back in the kitchen and eat more! its sick. i have gone weeks eating well and exercising, but once i eat i binge ridiculously (making the most of it i suppose)
im sorry to rant, just feeling a bit hopeless. im not stupid (well..), i know that im the only person who puts food in my mouth. i know if i want to be slim i cant eat like this, but its like i dont care in the moment, and that the food is more important. reading this back i sound like a crazy person. anyway just wanted to get it off my chest