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Life is cool these days innit (Bar the magazine trying to mess up your mood that is)
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I've been sat here close to tears reading this thread. I only looked in on it out of nosiness and what I got was a wake up call. As much as I tell myself that losing the weight does not guarantee happiness; as much as I can say the words 'I'll still be me just a slimmer me' I dont think its ever truly sunk in that I have other issues to deal with -issues that have lead me to this point.
I've also been relying almost entirely on LT to 'cure' me.
I've fallen off the wagon again and was going to steer clear of minimins because I feel that I've not only let myself down but also everyone here who have been amazingly supportive and encouraging. All day I'v felt so cr4p thinking 'will I ever get going again? How am I going to do this properly? How can I go on Minimins and encourage others when I am so weak myself?'
The last time I broke Medea asked me to look at why I did it -and I had a quick peek, then ran off scared. Let's gloss over actual issues and call it 'comfort eating' kind of thing. Seeing how honest Mike has been (and thank you thank you thank you Mike!!!) and how close he came to losing it all -to jepardising his true happiness -DESPITE HAVING LOST EXCESS WEIGHT- has really left me quite shaken.
I have to stop playing with my meds (depression & social anxiety/panic attacks bla). I need to go back to CBT and focus on my mental health as seriously as I do on my physical health. I feel so ashamed and embarrassed and more than a little petrified right now because there are doors I dont really want re-opened here. But I want to learn from Mike's experience and not come close to rock bottom -I want to side step the breakdown and TRULY sort myself out.
I have a beautiful life. I have a beautiful and wonderful family and I want to enjoy them as much as I can -whatever weight I am. Also -sorry for the giant post.
Thank you mike -and I wish you all the very best.
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Hi I dont know you Blackrose, but I just wanted to thank you for having the courage and upfrontness to post this. Been there and back again with depression. For a long time, too long. I used to always think that my wieght made me unhappy, but it never was. CBT, meds and my long suffering hubb have brought me back from the brink. I am now truely happy. Still have my bad days and moments of worry. But I am getting there every day. Thankyou Mike for posting this and for your openness. And thankyou too Blackrose for the same.
I am also pleased to say I got a call from the editor of Real People last night who apologised for the article and how it was "adjusted".
They offered to print a retraction but no point as it is fish and chip wrappers next week!
I am pleased though that they have offered to treat us to a weekend at Centre Parcs to apologise so happy with that and intend to take them up on it!!!!! Mike