Through a culmination of events in the past week, and my boyfriend/friend being somewhere at the centre of them, I became incredibly stressed. I put on almost 8lbs after loosing 6lbs the week before:break_diet: .I feel that being in this particular relationship is not helping, so here I am day one trying to get back into programme and hopefully will be lighter not just in terms of weight but of the added angst provided by my boyfriend. Strangely enough he could be very supportive. However in other ways this was balanced with constant stress, being mildly bipolar meant I had alot of moods to contend with and although this would not be the norm with every person who is bipolar it was with him, he was'nt taking his meds and was drinking too often, invading my privacy and calling in the middle of the night as though it was quite okay to get me out of bed at 3 am just because he wanted a chat! My self esteem was suffering badly and there was little or no love and affection, yet he still clings on to me- it is difficult to cut all ties so I will limit contact for my own sake and for his because the only person he is having a relationship with is himself and he needs to face up to that. I have decided that if I am going to sucessfully complete lighter life that I have to go it alone, that kind of support I can do without. Lighter life is helping me refocus on myself and my needs. The drawback- if any when you are a single gal it gets kinda lonely:cry:but guess I just have to work at keeping myself busy. Love to hear from anyone in a similar position. Feel slightly guilty for talking like this- but its the truth unfortunately. :wave_cry: Anyway time will tell!
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