And then, something good happened. I weighed in on Sunday. The scales were slightly lower. I told myself its just a normal variation. Then I weighed myself again today morning. And what do you know, I had not put back the weight. Which means I have probably actually lost it. My weight is 182 lbs today. Which, my lovelies, is a 1.7 lbs loss, literally overnight. More than what I saw all of last week. It made my day. I was told by my consultant earlier on in the program to weigh myself only once a week, on weigh-in day. But I find that hard to follow. For me, I need to weigh myself everyday. Because if my weight is not on my mind everyday I tend to slip up. In the past year I have put on around 15 lbs. And I know where I went wrong. I indulged in feel-good emotional binging. I was in denial. I have been in denial about every icrecream, every few bars of chocolate, every jar of Nutella (that's right ladies, guilty of being a Nutella-phile). One more doesn't matter, I would tell myself. But it did, unfortunately. Every indulgence mattered. And the worst, I stopped weighing myself. If the weighing scales didn't reprimand me, I found it easier to continue to be in denial. In December all my clothes started feeling tight. I would be late to work everyday, because I was rejecting at least five to six pairs of clothes (too tight, can't button, makes me look hideous) before I would be able to settle on something half-way decent. Till I realised that i was fitting into the same 6-7 pairs of clothes. I finally had to kick myself out of denial and step on to my arch nemesis- the weighing scales. I literally cried when I saw my weight. I spent another few weeks wallowing in self-pity and then decided to take action. All I really needed to do was to take control of my life and my weight. Which also meant I had to get up on those scales EVERY SINGLE DAY. So, I make allowances for a deviation of around 2 lbs. I don't let myself get too excited or despondent if I see a couple of pounds here or there. But it keeps me on track. Last Saturday was my official third week weigh-in day. My weight was 183.7 lbs, a 9.2 lbs loss since I started and a 1.3 lbs loss for the third week. I was disappointed as you all know. I cribbed enough about it here.
I really like reading your posts. I have the same need to weigh and also felt like I should stop. Reading this I realise that I also need this daily to keep me in check. The last time I stopped weighing I woke up 5 years later and 5 stone heavier. I am no longer going to give myself a hard time about it.
Can you send me half if your 1.7lbs? I really need to see the scales move at some point this week.
Technically, my fourth weeks ends tomorrow. But Saturday is my official weigh-in day with my consultant. My weight today is 81.9 kgs (180.2 lbs) which puts my loss for the fourth week at 1.6 kgs (3.5 lbs). I am thrilled, especially after last week. I know I am not going to achieve my over ambitious target of 78 kgs (171.6 lbs) on March 1. But I am happy. These past four weeks have been quite a journey. It really has been the best of times and worst of times (Sorry Dickens, but the words really work here.) It has been hard emotionally and socially. But there have been so many good things that have happened. And I have decided to list some of them down. These will keep me going for the next four weeks. How my life has changed in four weeks: 1. I have lost 5.8 kgs (12.7 lbs) 2. I have not indulged in emotional eating. On bad days, I've sucked it up and had some water. 3. I have been completely headache free. As a frequent sufferer, this has been such a blessing for me. 4. I have been more cheerful and optimistic about life in general. 5. I have lost inches and am now fitting better in the clothes that I haven't been able to wear in the past one year. 6. I have spent lovely evenings with friends just chatting, without relying on alcohol and food as a crutch. 7. I am feeling more confident at work. 8. Nothing seems impossible. Here's to the next four weeks.
Made me smile this morning, especially number 8!! That's my outlook on life. So great to hear all of the great things that are happening. What's funny is the more you focus on them, the more positive things happen. Virtuous circle! Just think where you'll be in another 4 weeks!!
What about you?
