Shangri-la
Full Member
I have a severe form of BED. The only way that I have kept some element of control is by restricting my binges to once per week. It just means that I am not losing weight at all!. It could be a lot worse because with what I am doing, technically, I could be so much heavier. I have had BED all my life but it was exacerbated after doing several cycles of total food replacement diets between 2008-2010. I did every TFR diet going!!
Yesterday, everything started off as a normal healthy slimming world day and I had my allocated syns with Breakfast, Dinner and supper. Then it all went wrong after 7pm - 12am as usual.
My blowout consisted of - 2weetabix with milk and sugar, 4 slices of white toast with full butter and jam, 2 cadbury caramel bars, 4 packets of variety flavour crisps, 1/2 box of jaffa cakes, one big bag of microwavebale popcorn and other things that I just cannot remember consuming but know that i ate more!!. I feel so humiliated.
How is that for what is called a real blowout!!. I am mortified but have been doing it for years to the extent that the kids start shouting " Oh no, mum is on a binge", hide all the food as we'll have no goodies left in the house"!!!. I get so angry with them. My hubby is away for two weeks otherwise, if he seen me, he would go mad.
After theses binges, I am always so ill the next day, not sick but offensive wind, gas, feeling sick etc. Sometimes they run on for about 3 days!!. I am so depressed and at the end of my tether. The urge to binge is so overwhelming that I never care about anyone else in the house but myself when i need a binge!!
Does anyone have any suggestions for binge eating disorder??. Please and thank you in advance!. I know that this is not a site for disordered eating but everyone is just so friendly on here. I just dont want to end up on meds for my type 2 diabetes but if i cannot stop, this is where i am headed. weight is the least of my issues. Thank you so much again.xx
Yesterday, everything started off as a normal healthy slimming world day and I had my allocated syns with Breakfast, Dinner and supper. Then it all went wrong after 7pm - 12am as usual.
My blowout consisted of - 2weetabix with milk and sugar, 4 slices of white toast with full butter and jam, 2 cadbury caramel bars, 4 packets of variety flavour crisps, 1/2 box of jaffa cakes, one big bag of microwavebale popcorn and other things that I just cannot remember consuming but know that i ate more!!. I feel so humiliated.
How is that for what is called a real blowout!!. I am mortified but have been doing it for years to the extent that the kids start shouting " Oh no, mum is on a binge", hide all the food as we'll have no goodies left in the house"!!!. I get so angry with them. My hubby is away for two weeks otherwise, if he seen me, he would go mad.
After theses binges, I am always so ill the next day, not sick but offensive wind, gas, feeling sick etc. Sometimes they run on for about 3 days!!. I am so depressed and at the end of my tether. The urge to binge is so overwhelming that I never care about anyone else in the house but myself when i need a binge!!
Does anyone have any suggestions for binge eating disorder??. Please and thank you in advance!. I know that this is not a site for disordered eating but everyone is just so friendly on here. I just dont want to end up on meds for my type 2 diabetes but if i cannot stop, this is where i am headed. weight is the least of my issues. Thank you so much again.xx