Sian's Diary...

[Sian :)]

Hello diary..
I'm afraid YET AGAIN i have been a bad CD'er!
Basically i was told to come off plan and eat healthily whilst i was antibiotics (for me that was an excuse to save some money and eat) I basically proved to myself that I cant eat healthily and that when i'm not on a strict diet i just go crazy! I wasn't as bad as i have been in the past but by no means was i 'eating healthily'. My antibiotics finished yesterday and seeing as I've got food and drinking planned from Friday until Sunday I've decided to carry on as i am until the weekend (being much better than the weekend but still eating low calorie meals) in order to save some shakes.

So i had my WI this morning and i STS this week so i was really happy (very lucky too)
So my aim this week is to stay at this weight up until Friday, eat and drink and be merry ALL weekend (haha) and then back on it starting from Monday 100% serious business!! And then fingers crossed if it all pans out like it is in my head then ill have another STS next week rather than a gain! That wont be bad if i have 2 weeks STS seeing as its 2 weeks with no shakes at all! (the last shake i had was last Wednesday)

I wont list what i'm eating and things these few days now because i'm not really keeping an account of it...

I may write on here again before Monday but if not then i WILL be back on Monday with vengeance!!

Hope everyone is being good and feeling fab while the pounds melt away
Have a great weekend everyone!!!

 

[Sian :)]

You know your out of control when you have chocolate for breakfast

 

[MissieCB]

ummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm you know your jealous when someone tell ya xx

 

[Sian :)]

I dont know how but ive made it to today and stayed the same even though my eating has been terrible these past few days!! I actually wrote down everything that i had to eat yesterday (usually im in denial and i 'forget' about some stuff that ive eaten) and it was disturbing to see it down in words. Basically the healthiest thing i had yesterday was onion in my cheese and onion toastie. Everything else was pure junk!!
Ive written down in my diary at home in bold capital letters on Mondays page
STARTING BACK ON CD 100%.....WEIGHT:-
Fingers crossed i wont put more than around 3lbs on because im only 5lbs away from the 12s so cant risk going too crazy!
As from Monday i need to get back on track!
The things that go through my head are ridiculous though, we have a sandwich van that comes round to work every morning at 10.30 and in a whole year ive only ever had one thing from there which was months ago, it really doesnt bother me, but today because im thinking...'ohh ill be back on CD Monday so i might aswell have a pasty' its ridiculous because i dont usually want them so i dont need them today!! GRRR!!

Anyway have a lovely weekend everyone

 

[Sian :)]

Morning

Right, thats the weekend over and done with, leaving me feeling bloated and huge yet still starving!!
I had a really lovely weekend with friends and didnt hold back where food was concerned, i well and truly made the most of being off plan!! So its only right that i was punished right?! haha
When i weighed on Friday i was 11.9 and this morning i was 11.13..
Arrghhh oh so close to seeing the dreaded 12s again... This means that i really have to knuckle down now and get as far away from the 12s as possible. Im hoping that most of it is water weight and that ill be something like 11.10 by WI on Wednesday as that would only see 1lb gain this week. Wishfull thinking? Will have to wait and see!

So back on it today, Not going to count the days because i always seem to be going back to day 1 anyway haha. Ive had so many distractions lately but the next girly night out i have will be on my birthday 6th April so ive got some time to lose before then! However i do have a baby shower to go to this Friday night, im either going to go and have a ss+ meal OR make up an excuse that i cant go until later and skip the food. We'll see how i feel.

Today's plan
B: Choc mint shake
L : Orange bar
S: Chilli soup (still havent got rid of thats last one so tonight will have to be the dreaded night haha)

Have a fab day everyone and all of us that have been off track, lets get these lbs gone

 

[JussyMC]

Morning

Right, thats the weekend over and done with, leaving me feeling bloated and huge yet still starving!!
I had a really lovely weekend with friends and didnt hold back where food was concerned, i well and truly made the most of being off plan!! So its only right that i was punished right?! haha
When i weighed on Friday i was 11.9 and this morning i was 11.13..
Arrghhh oh so close to seeing the dreaded 12s again... This means that i really have to knuckle down now and get as far away from the 12s as possible. Im hoping that most of it is water weight and that ill be something like 11.10 by WI on Wednesday as that would only see 1lb gain this week. Wishfull thinking? Will have to wait and see!

So back on it today, Not going to count the days because i always seem to be going back to day 1 anyway haha. Ive had so many distractions lately but the next girly night out i have will be on my birthday 6th April so ive got some time to lose before then! However i do have a baby shower to go to this Friday night, im either going to go and have a ss+ meal OR make up an excuse that i cant go until later and skip the food. We'll see how i feel.

Today's plan
B: Choc mint shake
L : Orange bar
S: Chilli soup (still havent got rid of thats last one so tonight will have to be the dreaded night haha)

Have a fab day everyone and all of us that have been off track, lets get these lbs gone

Come on!!! Love that we are climbing back on the wagon together- you'll def lose most if not all that water weight by Wednesday... No worries.

I am 100% and so glad for it... Felt rank after the indulgence at weekend. Blerrrrrg. We can do this and we will!

I'm thinking I am gonna give myself another 3 weeks to get to pretty much goal.... just before my skiing hols.... Need to be good till then!

Keep strong Hun- here we come ketosis! Xx

 

[Sian :)]

Come on!!! Love that we are climbing back on the wagon together- you'll def lose most if not all that water weight by Wednesday... No worries.

I am 100% and so glad for it... Felt rank after the indulgence at weekend. Blerrrrrg. We can do this and we will!

I'm thinking I am gonna give myself another 3 weeks to get to pretty much goal.... just before my skiing hols.... Need to be good till then!

Keep strong Hun- here we come ketosis! Xx

I love your positive attitude chick..Unfortunately ive completely lost my mojo. Really need to get it back. Its my WI day tomorrow so im thinking fresh week, fresh start. And hopefully the gain ill have will keep my butt into gear. Sorry we havent started together but i will be joining you on the road to skinny as from tomorrow xx

 

[Sian :)]

I cant do it
Ive completely lost my mojo and any will power i might have had has gone with it
After my weekend bender i was so bloated and sick of food sunday night that i was so ready to get straight back on it yesterday, i got through yesterday fine, id had 2 shakes by 6pm and was going to have a shower, have my last shake and jump into bed (shattered after hardly any sleep at the weekend). Then my sister said that the girls were all going out for food so i didnt even hesitate to say yes, i wasnt even mega mega hungry but i just wanted to go out and socialise. I didnt even try and choose a healthy meal. And yet again lastnight i went to bed feeling sick and bloated and horrible.
Today was going to be a fresh start...i had my shake this morning and felt good. I went up to town on my lunchbreak to return some shoes and yet again i had NO willpower to walk passed 'Greggs'. I had absolutely no reason to even go in there. Id basically decided as i was walking to town that i was going to have 'lunch' and not the shake kind. Im a mess...im starting to feel crappy again and id got to feel really good about myself in the last 2 weeks and was starting to have a few compliments about my weightloss and now i feel horrible again!
DEFINITELY going to try that little bit harder tomorrow. Its WI day tomorrow so im going to try and do 7 days 100% SS until next Wednesday to see if i can shift what ive put on which i think will b around 5lbs.

Sorry for the moan! And sorry for always cheating and not being able to stick to it... I really feel like i keep letting myself down but then i never seem to learn from it.

Tomorrow is another day...

 

[MissieCB]

Hey babes dnt worry it's so easy done xxx

Just WI tomorrow for the reason it will kick u up the arse to stick to it longer xxx that's what I do after a blow out xxxx

I'm finding it hard even though I'm going away on Sunday xxxxx

 

[Sian :)]

Hey babes dnt worry it's so easy done xxx

Just WI tomorrow for the reason it will kick u up the arse to stick to it longer xxx that's what I do after a blow out xxxx

I'm finding it hard even though I'm going away on Sunday xxxxx

You were right chick, WI this morning was the kick up the butt i needed. Now im back on it and im going to do atleast 7days 100%, something that ive only ever done once. Never managed more than 7 days.

Im going to do it this time. Im trying to think of some motivational things to do to keep me on track. Little treats and things and charts to cross off... anything to maybe help keep me going.

Aww you can soo do it until Sunday, just take each day at a time! It will be worth it just to get those extra few lbs off.

How are you feeling today?? x

 

[MissieCB]

I'm feeling good just can't wait to get away from england for awhile xxx

Dreading the old bikini looooool zx

Any ideas on holiday reads????

Sometimes it best to just face it and get on those scales xxx

 

[Sian :)]

Morning!!
WI day today and luckily for me i have stayed the same since Monday so it leaves me at 11.13.
VERY VERY lucky not to have gone back into the 12s considering what ive eaten since Monday.
Anyway that sees me with a gain of 4lbs...Obviously im gutted but it was expected.

Im setting myself a challenge of 7 days 100%. Ive only ever done 7 days 100% once and it nearly killed me, i need to learn that im going to have to stick at this longer if i want the results and not have the little treats ive been having. I need to go back to basics.

I think being back so close to the 12s has given me a right kick up the butt and everyone in work know that i WI on Wednesday so theyll be asking me the results today and ill have to tell them which wont be a good feeling. Maybe thats what i need. I got too confident when i was losing every week.

Anyway. Have a good day everyone! x

 

[Sian :)]

I'm feeling good just can't wait to get away from england for awhile xxx

Dreading the old bikini looooool zx

Any ideas on holiday reads????

Sometimes it best to just face it and get on those scales xxx

Ye itll be lush, where are you going to?
Umm i dont tend to read to be honest, I like to read magazines etc rather than books. I like autobiographies tho.

Youll have a great time, how long are you going for? x

 

[JussyMC]

You were right chick, WI this morning was the kick up the butt i needed. Now im back on it and im going to do atleast 7days 100%, something that ive only ever done once. Never managed more than 7 days.

Im going to do it this time. Im trying to think of some motivational things to do to keep me on track. Little treats and things and charts to cross off... anything to maybe help keep me going.

Aww you can soo do it until Sunday, just take each day at a time! It will be worth it just to get those extra few lbs off.

How are you feeling today?? x

Hi honey- glad you had that kick you needed.... I had that too and am now on day 3 of 100% after biiiig weekend indulgence. Good news is I've lost what I put on and more already! So keep on at at.... By Sunday you'll be feeling amazing again and ready for a fresh new 100% week!

Gooood luck! Xxx

 

[Sian :)]

Hi honey- glad you had that kick you needed.... I had that too and am now on day 3 of 100% after biiiig weekend indulgence. Good news is I've lost what I put on and more already! So keep on at at.... By Sunday you'll be feeling amazing again and ready for a fresh new 100% week!

Gooood luck! Xxx

Ohh thats good then chick you must be chuffed.
Im hoping by next Wednesday i will have lost the 4lbs so ill be back on track then.
I love food so much, it sounds stupid but i do.
Eventhough i know i HAVE to do it today, im still thinking about food. I wont give in today but its just so hard! x

 

[MissieCB]

yayy your so positive you can do this..............once you get the beginning off you will be well away xxx

 

[Sian :)]

Yesterday went fine...
I had my shake at 8.30 and then my bar at 2pm and 3.5l of water. When i got home i had a loooong hot bath but i decided i was really hungry (i think its the thought that ive STILL got that chilli soup to have, bleuugh!!) So i made 2 scrambled eggs and put a tiny bit of chicken and spring onion in with it, it was sooo yummy but it didnt fill me one bit, so seeing as my brother had cooked waaay to many oven chips i bloody scoffed some of them aswell and then my mother was having dairy milk so i had 3 chunks of that too So decided that i wasnt in the right frame of mind to do it and im not wasting shakes this week so ill just eat in moderation and start fresh on monday...
BUT....
I weighed this morning and i was 2lbs down..which shows that i had some water weight and that has now given me the drive to keep going. Its funny, seeing the scales going up doesnt motivate me at all to carry on, it just makes me want to eat more, whereas seeing the scales come down i just want to carry on. So ive said to myself that i want to lose another 3lbs by next Wed to make it a 5lbs loss and get me back on track. That will take me to 11.8 again so ill be well on my way to the 10s (if everything goes to plan - i seem to always run away with myself)


Todays plan
B: Choc shake (I had way too much water in it so wasnt very tasty - i was in a rush )
L: Lemon bar
S: Chilli soup (I WILL be having that tonight, ive put it off enough now!!)

Have a good day!

 

[Sian :)]

yayy your so positive you can do this..............once you get the beginning off you will be well away xxx

Thanks chick, not doing very well to be honest but im plodding along

Im not a cat person at all but ur avatar is sooo cute x

 

[MissieCB]

Awww thanks it makes me giggle xxx I love cats xx

 

[Sian :)]

I know i shouldnt weigh daily because more often than not they don't say what i want them to say which drives me to binge BUUUT this morning i weighed in at 11.9 and i was 11.13 on Wednesday so now i am back to what i was pre-antibiotics week off AND pre-weekend away with the girls so i am well and truly back in the game
So i am sooo able to have a big loss this week if i just stick at it...hoping for 6lbs altogether by next Wed, i will be happy with that which means that only another 2lbs in 5 days which should be do-able aslong as my body cooperates. I am buzzing this morning because i thought it would take longer to lose it, it must have all been water weight and bloat.
Im doing SS+ this week lastnight i had scrammbled eggs with onion (can anyone tell me if im actually allowed onions on ss+, i dont even know) and a small side salad. Was lovely. I think im addicted to scrambled eggs. But i might do a SS day today because im dying to get rid of my last chilli soup, i think tonights the night!!

Have a good day everyone! x