Ohh dear. Am feeling a bit **** this morning!
Food diary:
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Breakfast was same old FF yog and fruit.
I was starving by the evening as I hadn't had a proper lunch (snacked throughout the day on two bananas, a mullerlight, a frube (2 syns) some cherries and some cold homemade soup I'd brought with me) so was grateful that there was a Nandos near the cinema when I was hungry!
Had a 1/4 chicken and took the skin off (free) (literally free, actually- used my stamp card as the new ones cheekily ALREADY expire at the end of the month! I think the 26th!) and had it with spicy rice (2.5 syns and a swift change to EE as Red was clearly out of the window again!) which meant the whole meal came to £2 something
had finished my soup just before getting to Nandos so count that as my superfree. I still wasn't really full after that though :/ I could have eaten a whole chicken probably!
We had some time to waste before going to the cinema so stayed in Nandos. I was stillll hungry. I told my friend I was debating popping to sainsbury's to get some bits to nosh on in the cinema when she brought out a packet of sweets :| uhoh. So yeah. I polished a good quarter of the bag off!
they were maoam mix balls or something, no idea how many syns but there was this moment where I wasn't going to bother and wasn't tempted by them... Then she said "Just try one, they're so nice!" and they really didn't look nice! But I was hungry and stupid, so I tried one and ate like 20 :'( idiot! Obviously it didn't cure my hunger either. She also INSISTED I take the rest of the pack home fklejlkjhgjklfh so I'll have to give them to Gerard (he'll love them, haha) but MUST remember to take them out of my bag or horrible things could happen later!
At the cinema I had my Special K chewy delight.
No idea how many syns those sweets were but had only had 4.5 other ones in the day so doubt they could have been over 10 syns? I hope not!! Again, I won't be counting any freed up syns for today as part of my weekly syns :/
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We saw '
I give it a year' which was pretty bizarre really- it made me think all sorts about my current relationship, as it's very much an anti-marriage kind of film about two love birds who shack up after 7 months and then deeply regret it but try to stick it out. They kept going on about how little things about one another piss them off and I was thinking- oh dear, that's me already! Which made me feel pretty guilty. It had plenty of laugh out loud moments but it did all seem a bit forced- a couple of sub-characters in particular really got on my nerves- particularly the brother who just seemed to spend his whole screen time spilling out the most awkward conversation ever, it was almost slapstic and I didn't like HIM as an actor/character, but some of the lines were quite good! I'd probably give it a 6/10, it was definitely watchable but the script felt quite OTT and yet they were trying to make it more down to earth in the way it was directed, so that kinda clashed in my eyes. No regrets seeing it but I wouldn't see it again (though OMG the lead actress MUST be annorexic :| I've seen her in plenty of things and she's never been so skinny! You could see her ribcage through her back in one shot! Though she is REALLY pretty and obvs I envy her
but she looked REALLY fragile...) and I DID laugh my way through a lot of it, but my friend looked pretty bored.
I got home at around 11.30pm and Gerard was already asleep. We'd had a late night messing around and had been up until 3am, then woken by the builders working on our next door neighbour (attached)'s roof at 9.30am... arghh. Anyway, I got home and went straight to bed with him but was tossing and turning until 3am again. I should have taken sleeping pills as I've been sleeping ***** for a couple of weeks now but part of me just thinks if I stick it out I'll fall asleep, stubborn!
So then the cat woke us up with his cute (not so cute after 5 hours sleep!) bridging thing and meowing like mad. Gerard got up as he'd been asleep since 10pm and went to feed the cat. I couldn't get back to sleep :/ so I went downstairs 20 minutes later to find Gerard not here! That NEVER happens, he never just spontaneously leaves the house! He doesn't have friends so he is literally always at home unless he goes to the cinema on his own or to see his parents who live an hour's drive away. So it must mean he's gone out to get me something Valentines related
which is cute. He's been gone an hour though!
I did sort of remind him quite aggressively that things have changed since last year! Last year I'd only been dating him for 4 months or something and I'm a present-a-phobe so didn't want him to get me anything (presents embarrass me) but he did so well over xmas
(cookery book I wanted, huge bottle of my favourite perfume, this beautiful heart shaped stone thing he'd seen me admiring in a store, etc) that I told him I was turning the Valentines switch on and wanted spoiling
LOL. Obviously the pressure is on as nothing would get him in the car at 8am otherwise! He's probably spent most of that time trying to park outside again as it's a horrible place to park on the main road
I still didn't make him pancakes so will be making SW banoffee ones later for him I think. I've always hated Valentines day so don't exactly have high hopes as we have nothing planned, but I might drag him to see Moulin Rouge at the cinema as it's a fave of mine and on especially for Valentines!
Anyway, I feel **** this morning because I've put SO much effort in to the plan this week, a couple of sweetie slip ups but a lot of exercise, attempting Red days, etc- and I've GAINED a pound! I had a sly weigh in on Monday and had lost two, meaning I'd lost the * week pound and one extra, but now I've gained it again! So I've LITERALLY lost 1 pound in two weeks, which when you're as heavy as me and new to SW as me- SUCKS!!!
I can't believe it
I was really thinking I'd lose LOADS to make up for * week where I'd still put a lot of effort into the plan. The prior weeks I'd lost 4 pounds and 5 pounds for a month and wanted to be about 10 pounds lighter by now because of all the exercise! flghldkjfhkdh!!! :cry:
Oh well. I'm not going to give myself an excuse to have a valentines day binge, but I'm not sold on these friggin red and green days which I've been trying so hard to do recently! I worked off around 4000 calories last week AND was on plan, so why oh why did I get a plus 1?