You're more than welcome love, if you ever need any help or anything please ask. You are so not the only one but there is always an alternative.
I was the same as you when I started and felt almost deprived. Instead of going cold turkey I synned the crisps I wanted, then would limit how many syns I was willing to spend on them. Now, 10 months in they actually make me feel pretty ill if I eat too many. My body isnt used to the rubbish they contain, where as I can eat SW alternatives as much as I want and Im fine.
We do it when we are alone because there is nobody to judge us. Its only our own will power to stop us. Just remember how much it means to you. Could you also maybe make your own little 'treat box'. I have one which contains things like- freddos, fudge bars, hot choc, french fries, quavers- things that are less than 5 syns basically so I know if I want a treat, even if I have had my syns for the day, and not COMPLETELY blow it. And its something thats all for me, rather than other people can have whatever they want and its me missing out.
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