Thread: Countdown to Thirty

Hiya Tylar, been reading your diary now for a few weeks and you're doing really well.

Can totally relate to the eating loads and then having an unexpected loss. I think (despite not being the best mental attitude) that sometimes our bodies need that mass injection of calories and then back on the diet to shake up the metabolism and get loosing again. Stick at it though, Christmas is by far the hardest time of the year and if you can make it through the next couple of weeks you'll be in a good place. x

Thank you tweekedgirl! I agree about needing the injection of calories every so often It feels good to be able to balance it better, to stop it days before weigh in rather than let it roll on too.

Weigh in last week was after celebrations with friends pre-Xmas, and I maintained. I weighed in last night and put on 2lbs for over Christmas (and I moderately indulged, more than moderately with the choc chip cookies we baked, never feeling deprived, but again, cut out snacking and back to control for the final two days for weigh in).

December's overall result is -7.5lbs, and I am happy to start the new year at 15st6lbs rather than the 18st I was approaching back in April (or the 16st9.5lbs the first week of Oct!). Here's to 2013 and losing my 5st4lbs to achieve my goal! If every month were reasonable like December I'd hit target in October. Happy new years everyone, here's to our dreams

Feeling a bit apathetic this week, which I suppose is better than destructive. I think it would be easier if I was getting out the house and joining my partner/kids for walks, but I'm stuck in doing an essay I got an extension on, topic: Obesity as an increasing health problem if the 21st century, health and health care issues. ARGH! can you believe I binged on biscuits while working on it yesterday? Felt so sick with myself I was actually sick, then had a pampering bath and my meals were all healthy so should work out okay.

Today is also my last day being 28. Tomorrow night, per my request, we'll be going to Frankie and Benny's for my birthday (25% off on Mondays!!), but it is night before weigh in and I'd usually be fasting by then. I'll feel like more of a failure if there's a gain as I'll have had 9 days since last weigh in, rather than 7. I plan to enjoy myself moderately, perhaps share a starter and have a respective main choice.

I'm about to get out if bed and start my idle work again, I think I'll take a portion of my lighter choice sausages out if the freezer for a brunch later with egg and tomatoes. My 65kcal bread isn't in, so I'll see if the stuff my partner's bought the kids is at least under 100. Then I'll include loads of super free food later on.

As my birthday is on the 7th, and it's also my essay deadline, the 8th of January is like my New Year's Day. Will get back in the Xtrainer, incorporate the wii for fun now - Just Dance 4 arrived yesterday, I put Gangnam Style on it, that and the others look more intense than the first Just Dance. I also have wood floor now so my Wii fit may work more accurately.

Pumped for this week, I just have to sit still all day on my lap top, lol. No wonder my Mom got huge during medical school, between reading writing and being a Mon there's not much time and when you get it you want to shut off. Here's to 4 weeks if freedom before the next semester, 4 weeks to getting active again and planning how to not get behind to the point where my work closes in and consumes all my time.

Just hoping haven't gained this week, I always feel anxious!

I must up my game when I'm worried, WI this morning and I lost 3 lbs over a week with New Years and birthday celebration. Quite happy about it. Will incorporate exercise back in this week, have already started by doing just dance with my daughters the past few days - Time Warp is good on the old arms.

Tried the Chicken Cheese Pie thing from the SW recipe forum tonight - really meaty, glad I was sensible with the portion guesstimate. Big party/buffet at my house this weekend to celebrate my birthday/divorce, so need to be faultless as possible all other days and may consider fasting after breakfast Monday. We'll see. A few girls from group are all between 2-6 lbs to hit new numbers, I'm 4 and they're encouraging me to aim to enter a new number with them. I really do have an amazing group



xxxx

Woke up this morning with cramping this morning, which soon spread to my back and made my morning very unbearable and wet as I always immerse in a warm bath when these pains start. Last time was 10 days ago and was exceptional from all other episodes - I actually cried and called NHS direct. I've had these pains intermittently over 4 years. I called to ask my GP Mom back in California last summer, she said classic gallstones (after I went into symptom details). GP here suggested indigestion. Don't think I complained enough.

Went back to GPs today, exhausted from the trauma of the pain (my 7 and 5 year old daughters sorted themselves out for school/toasts etc they were stars - 3 yr old son had crashed my bath!!!), by the time my pain subsided I had enough to bun my hair, clear my mascara stained eyes and get some sweats on - a mess. Doctor was really kind, I was nice but firm about my convictions and stopped putting the normal I'm okay wall up when he examined my abdominal/digestive region. I'm getting referred for a scan, yay! Thought I'd have to battle it out to get taken seriously, so very pleased. The thought of the pain again gives me anxiety

As exhausted as I was from the pain this morning, I was very unfocused. Are choc birthday cake I'd avoided (1/4 large cupcake, MFP says 880 kcals?), a bag of popcorn, southern fried chicken wrap with mayo and half portion of tortilla chips at hungry horse. My friend and I spent 2+ hours walking around town and my girls and I played Just Dance 4 for 6 songs. Very mixed day :/

Back in it tomorrow!

sounds like you are reaching your goals.

This past week consisted of my divorce/birthday party. The cake was the biggest hurdle (well, that and playing "Never have I" with alcohol enthusiasts), it was very gorgeous, moist, light cream sandwiched thickly between its layers with proper thick American buttercream icing. I had more than I should have, I struggle when I manage to get my American favorites here at home. Otherwise, I thought I'd been average/maintain mode pre-party. Sunday, all I wanted were carbs as I recovered, though in moderation. Monday was close to fasting because I was so upset I saw a gain on Sunday.

Tuesday morning: 1/2 lbs lost. Thank Goodness, I didn't lose my losing streak.

This week I am attempting to be on it more than I have done in ages. I was asked in group what I would do and I happened to say I would use my cross trainer 5x this week. Today I did 40 min on it and my food was on par - however, a member in my SW groups FB page mentioned a weetabix/muller yoghurt muffic recipe, with a suggestion of using a cherry yoghurt with some almond essence. Excited I had all ingredients on hand I had them mixed, cooked and on a plate ready to eat within 30 min The recipe made 6 tiny muffins and I had one with half a pot of yoghurt, was lovely.

Feeling optimistic. Been really in control this week. Yesterday I had to fast from 9:40 until 4pm for an x ray at the hospital (no gall stones so no idea what causes the horrendous abdominal pain that wakes me in the night!), so when I got home I was the most ravenous as I'd been all week. Snacked on grapes to tide me over, but with daughter's beavers to attend and my partner rushing our son to hospital in between for huge raised patches of skin we'd never seen before (allergic reaction), we didn't eat until after 8 - I've been good at not eating late. Nearly 11 hours with nothing but grapes I was harder to satisfy, so had a homemade latte (thank you Bodum milk frother!) and a rocky road hifi. Took the biscuits and a chocolate bar out too, and placed them with my partner's latte!

Wii Fit shows me at about -3lbs down since Tuesday. I want to beat my biggest loss which I think was -5lbs. If I can lose 5.5 I'll get my 2 1/2 stone award. Treated myself to brown bread with three bacon medallions folded between with brown sauce. Will graze on super free as I'm having a meal at Wetherspoon's tonight for my partner's sister's 30th. If I behave as planned I'll have the 5 bean chilli and some vodkas with orange cordial

Really feel on track. I may cook a big healthy fry up Monday and then fast until Tuesday morning's weigh in for that extra boost. We'll see. I know it's something I perhaps shouldn't do every week, there's much mixed advice, but I feel we probably naturally had food patterns like this historically due to restricted food access. Fingers crossed!

Feeling a bit disheartened. I felt I was really on track this week. Went out for my partner's sister's 30th, had a preplanned meal, didn't quite finish it but not taking that into account my calorie intake (foodwise) was 1,041 calories.

Sunday morning I totted up the alcohol I had drank. I had allowed myself one strawberry & lime cider as a treat, otherwise kept to diet drink & vodka (1 single, 3 doubles), as well as a three shots in rounds I was buying. 929 calories of alcohol alone. Now this kept my daily total under 2,000 and as last check my BMR was about 1,850 (though will have descreased with weight loss).

After I posted on Saturday I went on too do an hour on my Crosstrainer/bike, 10 minutes bike and 50 minutes Xtrainer. So I know I burnt plenty of calories before drinking.

Sunday morning my Wii Fit said I'd put on 9lbs!!!! Obviously I know this cannot be right, so I eat and live as normal Sunday (okay, we had a 2 hour family walk with flask of tomato soup that I shunned - so no lunch), but after my McDs breakfast wrap and my gammon/pineapple/small portion-actifry-frylight roast potatoes/packet of steamed veg (1100 calories for the whole day), Sunday night my Wii Fit got very confused by the fact I was -7lbs by evening.

Went on this morning, down since last evening, but not back to what I was Saturday morning yet. Only had a quick 20 min on Xtrainer as I had to be out early with kids, but I wanted to smash my record and I won't now. I've just been so good with my numbers this week and the increased intake of exercise, it doesn't make sense. 385 calories (1/2 porridge, bacon, sausage) for breakfast this morning and I'm fasting until weigh in tomorrow morning.

Didn't quite fast after breakfast yesterday, allowed myself a mint hifi, three thickesh slices of ham sandwich meat and a handful of grapes - early afternoon.

Weighed in at group this morning, 3.5 loss, that was 15st2.5lbs down to 14st13lbs. So nice to see 14st again, havent seen that since I was 20 odd weeks pregnant with my 3 year old son. Although another person also lost 3.5, 2 people lost 4lbs and one lost 5lbs - I was the sole SOTW, yay! Very happy for everyone and hope those who lost bigger keep up the momentum and get SOTW in the near future.

So I said in group that I want to smash my record of 5lbs weight loss, we're not allowed to pick half numbers, so I said I am aiming to 6lbs off. Secretly, I would like to lose 9lbs, which I did in June 2011 through strict 1200 a day calorie countring and three forty minute sessions on a cross trainer. However, when I lost 9lbs it was my kickstart week of dieting - but I did eat plenty of crap in that 1200 calorie limit so this week I am cutting out carbs, no sweets, no potatoes, rice, bread or starchy veg. I will at least double my exercise. I must get at least the 6lbs I mentioned and really really want the 9lbs so I better show it.

My Mom didn't seem thrilled with the idea and said it was too much, she is a GP, so I won't be too hard on myself if I don't get such a higher number - however, if I did, I would get my 2 1/2 stone and 3 stone award in the session! Potentially SOTW and lesser chance of my first SOTM (which would be a hard feat in January, esp with last weeks measly 1/2 lbs weight loss!). That'd be four awards, it'd be a dream, the only concern is that I wouldn't want it to seem like the Tylar show or to cause resentment in class. However, I will use this ideal as a motivator to keep on track!

Today has started well enough, 40 minutes on my Xtrainer down, and breakfast was as such:



I put two triangles of laughing cow into my scrambled eggs, and ate all chunky bits of my tomato which I normally don't. I feel stuffed, esp. now that I have downed my luke-warm green tea. Still optimistic for the week.

On another note, we're having another taster week at group next week and I keep thinking about what to make for it. I for sure want to do the SW cinammon rolls as I did last time.

Going to get on with some house tidying, walk into town, etc. I want another workout before a late lunch. Dinner will be snackin on healthy stuff as I am out of town for a meeting with the volunteering I do. I will bring my own food and bags of green tea.

xx Ty xx

Having a crisis in myself, randomly teared up. Just a bunch of little things piling up. I feel trapped in my life.


I think I am gonna take it easy today, stick to the food plan but allow myself a cry and recoup, clean my face and carry on.

A bit confused with this week. I have been extra good, removed carbs from my diet (just for this week) as much as possible. I have felt more tired than normal because of this, but didn't this let scupper my plans. This morning I am only showing a 1 lbs loss and it's 5 days in. My highest caloric day was 1226 calories and whilst I haven't done as much as the week before dure to lack of energy, I still have used my cross trainer some and kept myself busy in town and at home. I am estimating my weight loss will show as 3lbs on Tuesday, though I foolishly said I would aim for 6. I thought this would be easier as I could have meals out and get 5 off, several meals out and get 4 off. But I eat as above and get 1 off in 5 days, when I've had no chocolate, no crisps, minimum carbs, no tea (other than green) or coffee! No potatoes, rice, pasta or sugary good :/

I really think this is an odd result.

**edit to add that I might mention I was so busy Friday morning it was lunchtime before breakfast and I wasn't too hungry nor motivated to cook so I made a cheese (20kcal) and pepperoni (25kcal) wrap in a slice of ham (36kcal). Was quite chuffed for the enjoyment of 81kcals, though it wasn't the healthiest! I would have snacks of raspberries or healthy plain cooked lean meats to tide me over between two big meals and all was put into calorie count**

Well, night before weigh in... Reduced intake on Monday as usual. I went through my fitness pal to tally up my intake for the week and averaged 860kcals a day for this past week. Only exercised for 100 min though and still only showed a 1 lbs weight loss this morning. I usually drop an extra pound after my post Breakfast Monday fast until after weigh in so 3 is the max I'll lose. Disappointed still as I've cheated and lost more.

Going to have an excess intake day tomorrow to boost me back up and then be as I normally would be after tomorrow. Chinese out with friends Thursday and a meal out on Saturday with the child in care I volunteer to befriend, her choice of venue. Plenty of times to enjoy myself and be 100% otherwise. I'll have lost 10lbs if I'm lucky this month. Better off than on, I suppose!

Well, I lost 3.5lbs this morning. The SotW lost 4.5lbs, however, I did get SotM!! and my 2 1/2 stone award!! Very happy bunny today.