This is my 3rd new diary on here, but it will be my last! I am SICK of binging and gaining the weight I lost. I am SICK of being this weight (around 13st 5lbs, BMI 28 ish) and I want to learn to love myself, get fit and healthy and get back down to a healthier weight. I've lost a stone with Weight Watchers, but having been a member since February it's taken me a very long time to lose that weight. I was cheating week after week, binging, not tracking everything, gaining weight etc. Then from July I seemed to get my head back in the game and lost the 14lbs, but in the past few weeks the binging has reared its ugly head again. I had an assessment with an eating disorder nurse who told me she thought I wasn't eating enough on weight watchers which was causing me to binge. The past week I've been off WW and been eating when I felt hungry. I did not deprive myself of anything and STILL I binged which leads me to believe it's an emotional issue, not because my body is starving.
I've always felt satisfied food wise on WW as you really can have what you fancy and still lose weight provided you stick to your points. I am returning and I am determined to be successful and get to my goal weight of 10 stone. It's going to be a struggle to overcome the little devil sitting on my shoulder telling me to binge, but I know I can do it if I really put my mind to it.
I've been watching a lot of Obese- a year to save my life and Fat- the fight of my life. If people can lose 10 stone through willpower and hard work then I can definitely lose 3st 5lbs! That is NOTHING compared to what those people have lost in 1 year!
I need to sort this out NOW before I end up 30 stone.
I deserve to be healthy and happy! My time is now.