Hi again folks!
Thought I'd do a holiday diary. Bit more time on my hands at the moment and besides, I'm bringing Tracey's diary down with my long rambling 'deep and meaningfuls'
So I thought I would do the 'deep and meaningfuls' on this thread until the school term start again anyway.
We were discussing Addictive Desires (AD)
Look here for the first installment
http://www.minimins.com/cambridge-di...begins-13.html (New Me, New Diary! Maintenance Begins)
Okay, so things aren't quite as easy as just accepting the desire. For one thing, how do you know it's an AD, not a genuine need for food?
When I finished with Cambridge, I joined WLR so that I could find out what was 'normal' eating. I needed to know portion sizes, types of foods, balance of the food groups. That doesn't mean that I always ate a normal amount, but I could identify what was normal and what wasn't. I may look back on the days food and think
Yep...a pretty 'normal' day there or
Think I overdid it a tad there
Blimey!!! That was no where near normal!!!
But at least I gradually understood what 'normal' was.
With this knowledge, I could then work out my patterns of eating, what my body needed, and what was AD.
I did many other steps before I really identified my AD, mainly because I didn't realise that AD existed. I thought it was more to do with my body needing more because I was addicted. I was trying to stop the desire as the desire inevitably led to eating.. Some of the steps helped, some didn't. A lot of trial and error there. Always trying to balance it with Intuitive Eating, but without throwing my common sense out of the window. Guess I intuitively want to use my common sense
I did a lot of research in those days. The internet, friends, strangers. I'd 'meet' people on various forums and wouldn't exchange email address unless they answered my 100 questions on weight, what they eat, how much exercise they do, if they've ever had an eating disorder etc I needed to seek out the 'normal' people. Find what they were doing and attempt to emulate them. I now know the eating habits of many concert pianists, webdesigners and teachers
It's taken time for me to get it all in order but once I identified my chatterbox as my AD, I found I could take one huge step forward. Possibly the answer that will keep me going for life.
I'll add more later about this later, and some general stuff about life in Karionland. Feel free to ask questions