i want it so much but can't get my head right ... whyy !?!
I have always struggled with my weight but I have been a lot happier than what I am now. Being taller than most in school I was always 'bigger' than friends and called fat - even though I look back at pictures now and I was far from it! Now though, I really am fat! Single parents, 3 children .. have very little time to myself, father don't see kids at all. seriously lack in motivation to start exercising every day. even though I hate the way I look. Even though I have always been bigger than most - I have before felt comfortable in my own skin - now I'm far from feeling comfortable. Don't have a specific size I want to get to I just want to start feeling comfortable again. To do that I do need to lose at least 4-5 stone. I'm just sabotaging my own good work though by having binge days, it's like all I think about is food, what can I eat, i'll eat anything - for no reason at all and as for exercising in my living room, half the time I don't even entertain the thought. I will add I do walk a lot, as I don't drive - if it wasn't for my walking I would be hell of a lot bigger. How do you keep positive & motivated really... it's easy to say I've done it so any1 can do it - how do you get your mind right. I'm such an over thinker, I think constantly about things which don't even need fretting over. I'm constantly stressing or worrying over something. more often than not it's affording to get things for the kids etc. any help, advice, messages would be greatly received and appreciate- need to speak to some people other than my family - who although are good as gold - are not the people I need to give me my motivation etc.