Detoxing with SnS
- Thread starter Kira
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If I were in charge of my office I would ban food in the open plan areas! I would also not allow eating at the desk (only drinks)! Not sure I'd be very popular but I'd be sticking to plan more easily!
Day 17 I think. Didn't daily weigh as was barely awake and I've had a huge mug of coffee and that will make a difference to the scale! I've tried that pre and post weighing experiment after water the saddo I am!
Day 17 I think. Didn't daily weigh as was barely awake and I've had a huge mug of coffee and that will make a difference to the scale! I've tried that pre and post weighing experiment after water the saddo I am!
Hi Kira I just found your new diary. I thought your other one had been quiet!
Well done for getting to day 18. I absolutely know what you mean about hoping the new diary will help, as you know I've done the same! I think it's helpful as we can look at this as a fresh start, a new journey to get to goal and stay there. We can learn from our past (I actually just yesterday read through most of my silver section diary) but not have to dwell on it.
I really related (as always!) to you when you said it's amazing how the feeling passes when you crave something. I think I actually totally forgot that, which is how I ballooned to my highest weight ever! But it's good to know. To be honest Kira, at least it sounds like your weight gain has been fun, as in it's through indulging at social events and being in London. That's mentally far more healthy than crazy reclusive binges. So in a weird way somewhat of a positive in there? My office has a no eating at desk policy! We hot desk and they get mice (yuck) so I think that's why. Buy people still bring crappy food in for occasions. Never bothers me though as eating in a office has always seemed unhygienic to me so not appealing, plus I think I'm good at not eating in front of people!
Anyway back to you - keep it up, it is strange that you're not having a huge loss early on, but as you said earlier you know it will work.
Also one other thing. When I read my diary, particularly from this time last year when I was in great shape appearance and exercise wise, but going through awful binge purge extremes, I really didn't realise how many times you urged me to get help. On re reading it all I felt a bit bad as I could feel your worry through the words, and could see how constantly dismissive I was, always acting like it was not a big deal. I also notice you're the one who stuck around as others seemed to stop commenting for one reason or another. Just wanted to say sorry I worried you or didn't act upon the advice readily. It really is quite scary to read it all back.
But fresh starts, fresh diaries, fresh successes here we come. Have a lovely weekend x x
Well done for getting to day 18. I absolutely know what you mean about hoping the new diary will help, as you know I've done the same! I think it's helpful as we can look at this as a fresh start, a new journey to get to goal and stay there. We can learn from our past (I actually just yesterday read through most of my silver section diary) but not have to dwell on it.
I really related (as always!) to you when you said it's amazing how the feeling passes when you crave something. I think I actually totally forgot that, which is how I ballooned to my highest weight ever! But it's good to know. To be honest Kira, at least it sounds like your weight gain has been fun, as in it's through indulging at social events and being in London. That's mentally far more healthy than crazy reclusive binges. So in a weird way somewhat of a positive in there? My office has a no eating at desk policy! We hot desk and they get mice (yuck) so I think that's why. Buy people still bring crappy food in for occasions. Never bothers me though as eating in a office has always seemed unhygienic to me so not appealing, plus I think I'm good at not eating in front of people!
Anyway back to you - keep it up, it is strange that you're not having a huge loss early on, but as you said earlier you know it will work.
Also one other thing. When I read my diary, particularly from this time last year when I was in great shape appearance and exercise wise, but going through awful binge purge extremes, I really didn't realise how many times you urged me to get help. On re reading it all I felt a bit bad as I could feel your worry through the words, and could see how constantly dismissive I was, always acting like it was not a big deal. I also notice you're the one who stuck around as others seemed to stop commenting for one reason or another. Just wanted to say sorry I worried you or didn't act upon the advice readily. It really is quite scary to read it all back.
But fresh starts, fresh diaries, fresh successes here we come. Have a lovely weekend x x
Lovely Lara so good to read your post and it is truly great you are doing so well not just on the diet but the controlling binges and dealing with mental aspect. Ypu are also looking fab in your pics after just 4 weeks though it will be almost 5 weeks by now. I'm glad you've read back you old diary because it can help one reflect and move forward. I should've put a link on my silver section diary (I may try and do that).
Diet up date had blip yesterday I'm ashamed to say but it's done and confess I had fun. Yes it involved more socialising and on one hand it's great but disastrous for dieting. Sigh! So day 21 today and I'm just going to carry on with SnS day although I am having dinner tonight but I'll make it a protein meal with no carbs and alcohol!
Diet up date had blip yesterday I'm ashamed to say but it's done and confess I had fun. Yes it involved more socialising and on one hand it's great but disastrous for dieting. Sigh! So day 21 today and I'm just going to carry on with SnS day although I am having dinner tonight but I'll make it a protein meal with no carbs and alcohol!
Argh!!! Half term got in the way! and half a pound more than when I started this diary thread 
Deflated not defeated (though I'd like bits of me to deflate!). I had agreat time over half term as my DH and youngest DS have been here and I took A few days off. They head back up north today and I'm at work today and all on my own here this weekend.
I finally got around to registering with a GP here and was told my BMI was just over - he may as well have said you are fat and he!d be right! Funny at 9st maintained for a number of months and I thought that was fat but right now I'd love be to 9st as 10st for me is really obese especially because I'm short.
enough waffling I need to catch up with you all and get on with day 1 again.
Deflated not defeated (though I'd like bits of me to deflate!). I had agreat time over half term as my DH and youngest DS have been here and I took A few days off. They head back up north today and I'm at work today and all on my own here this weekend.
I finally got around to registering with a GP here and was told my BMI was just over - he may as well have said you are fat and he!d be right! Funny at 9st maintained for a number of months and I thought that was fat but right now I'd love be to 9st as 10st for me is really obese especially because I'm short.
enough waffling I need to catch up with you all and get on with day 1 again.
You sound like you have the right attitude: not dwelling, but motivated to make a change. It's kind of sad when we look back and see how much we should have appreciated being a certain size or weight. Like you, I was as you know never satisfied even when I was incredibly fit, active and had a lovely slim body! We really are our own harshest critics right? The goals we set should be as much about fixing that as they are about losing the weight.
Glad you enjoyed the half term x
Glad you enjoyed the half term x
Welcome Honey-J! We've about the same amount to lose?
Update from yeaterday. Stuck to water all day 1 pack at lunch then came evening nd found myself having pizza!? Why? I don't know why I didn't just choose a salad?' Firn D's and family gone so I m now on my own so can't blme distractions only my own lack of willpower.
Today, a good day so far because I had another plan .......shopping! The intention is to entice myself to stick to plan knowing I've got a wardrobe full of clothes (close than really need me to be 11-14 less than I am to look good.
This is is what I bought: 2 jumpers from Jigsaw, one raglan/fitted boat neck jumper and a fitted dark purple and navy one.
1 silk off white and black silk top with fine knitted back to it, many jumper from Gant (for my day preppy look) 1 top from mAison Scotch black and a copper colour sleeve, a Michael kors zip cardigan with gold studding on shoulders and inside pockets (these are both for the festive season really, both in sale. And finally a nice pair of loungewear top and bottoms though bottoms are a s14! Top I managed to squire into a 10!
A few pounds lighter though not the kind of pounds I really want to lose!
Im pack on the packs! Boy, I'd love to get through November - a full 30 days. Let's see.
Update from yeaterday. Stuck to water all day 1 pack at lunch then came evening nd found myself having pizza!? Why? I don't know why I didn't just choose a salad?' Firn D's and family gone so I m now on my own so can't blme distractions only my own lack of willpower.
Today, a good day so far because I had another plan .......shopping! The intention is to entice myself to stick to plan knowing I've got a wardrobe full of clothes (close than really need me to be 11-14 less than I am to look good.
This is is what I bought: 2 jumpers from Jigsaw, one raglan/fitted boat neck jumper and a fitted dark purple and navy one.
1 silk off white and black silk top with fine knitted back to it, many jumper from Gant (for my day preppy look) 1 top from mAison Scotch black and a copper colour sleeve, a Michael kors zip cardigan with gold studding on shoulders and inside pockets (these are both for the festive season really, both in sale. And finally a nice pair of loungewear top and bottoms though bottoms are a s14! Top I managed to squire into a 10!
A few pounds lighter though not the kind of pounds I really want to lose!
Im pack on the packs! Boy, I'd love to get through November - a full 30 days. Let's see.
I'm not t cony enough so do photo links though I should learn and it would distract me from food thoughts! Actually been ok today and I tensing on early night too tucked in bed with iPad!
I'm renting a flat close to to City. I'm about 15-20 mins door to desk as I didn't want a long commute given I have to head back north alternative weekends. so far so good though I am missing my youngest and DH a little more than usual as they've been here all week - hence two reasons for the shopping spree!
yes, 30 days can't be that hard? I've certainly done it before, in fact I've done around 60 days solid in the past so really no reason I can't do it again. I'm going to start keeping a handwritten journal which I've done in the past and it did help.
I'M fed up with being fed up with myself so everything has to be drastic to get me going.
I'm renting a flat close to to City. I'm about 15-20 mins door to desk as I didn't want a long commute given I have to head back north alternative weekends. so far so good though I am missing my youngest and DH a little more than usual as they've been here all week - hence two reasons for the shopping spree!
yes, 30 days can't be that hard? I've certainly done it before, in fact I've done around 60 days solid in the past so really no reason I can't do it again. I'm going to start keeping a handwritten journal which I've done in the past and it did help.
I'M fed up with being fed up with myself so everything has to be drastic to get me going.
Morning kira yes I have 1stone 6 lbs to lose by Next month thats my first goal though I'd break it down into stages first.
You say you've done 60 days solid maybe first just aim for 5 days solid then build up. I didn't start yesterday I couldn't face it. Hoping today will be my starting point. X
You say you've done 60 days solid maybe first just aim for 5 days solid then build up. I didn't start yesterday I couldn't face it.
Hoping today will be my starting point. X
