Why oh why am I struggling to eat calories! Thursday 909, Friday 662, Saturday extra fast day 454, Sunday 899, it's supposed to be 1650 on feed days. I'm still not sure if having a small gap between fast and feed day calories is doing me any good but I have my evening meal and really don't feel like anything else. I've had hubby double check my reckoning too. Other than scoff things that I see as bad, cheese (really ******* up my hernia), jam's etc (I don't have that much of a sweet tooth) or going back to alcohol (slippery slope and why I'm here in the first place) I can't seem to do it. It's so infuriating to do well on the fast days and then watch the scales rocket after a feed day of so few calories. Always fighting the being back to square one. This is why I failed last year. The big losses at the beginning of this year are, I am now positively sure, just down to the christmas excess dropping off. And it felt so good at the time.
Fast day today and I've had nothing today other than water and black coffee. Tonights meal has 338 calories and I may have a bag of mini rice cakes afterwards. Tomorrow I will try hard to reach the 1650!!!