#GymBunny
#gymrat
Hello all (any) readers and welcome to my diary.
I’m new to Exante but not to dieting or VLCDs unfortunately. Spent much of my adult life fretting about my weight while getting steadily bigger. Realised that WW and SW and all those sorts of diets just aren't for me and that brute determination and removal of food was the only way I could do it. So after many years of failing I shed a load of weight on SnS and was so much happier. Spent 6 days out of 7 in the gym and loved how muscular I was getting. The excess skin let me down though and so I decided that I would need surgery. That was a thought at the time and no action taken as I fell pregnant. No excuses, I felt sick every waking hour for 20 weeks and sincerely, the only thing that would stop the sickness was eating - and carbs at that! When I finally stopped feeling sick, the habit was there and I’m a true binge eater when not in the zone. I binged for the remainder of the pregnancy and ended at 18.5 stone!
I went back to SnS and lost 8 stone in 8 months. Gyming it again and eating normally and actually quite a lot as my gym sessions allowed it. A good mix of low carb, high protein with some enjoyment mixed in. A good 80/20 split. I was literally living the dream and thinking about surgery.
Then disaster (to me) my new job meant longer hours and less flexibility so I lost 4 of the 6 gym sessions. Then I injured my shoulder which took me out for the rest. I love the gym so much I hadn’t realised and slowly (quite quickly actually) became down and started eating. Binge eating. Four months solid. Given the volume I was eating it’s amazing I’ve only put on 2 stone but it’s there and after being thin (apart from the loose skin) it feels terrible. I’m back on VLCD but Exante this time as tried SnS restarts so many times I just needed a mental change. So here I am.
I’m now back at the gym 4 days a week as that is all work will allow. Sunday is a double class so could count as 5 and the others are heavy weight lifting sessions. I have four packs on those days. A conscious, planned decision - for fuel and nothing else.
My surgery will go ahead once I have got down to my ideal weight plus another 7lbs. So aiming for 9 stone which should also allow for fluctaution back up when returning to ‘normal’.
I started this Monday and first weigh in will be Monday morning. I didn’t weigh at the start as I just wanted to get on with it as the decision had been made. This morning I weighed in at 11s 4.2lbs. If I’m that weight on Monday then that is fine as I know I must have been higher before I started as I binge ate to the end - partially why the decision was so abrupt - just got sick of it all.
Anyway, sorry, long intro but wanted it all down for my own reflections.
I’ve been reading all the diaries in the last few days and many are inspiring. Seems like a quiet forum but if that’s the case, I’ll just ramble alone and at varying intervals.
Thanks for reading if you got this far. If not, thanks for scrolling to the end
Off to the gym now. Back and biceps tonight - whoop!
I’m new to Exante but not to dieting or VLCDs unfortunately. Spent much of my adult life fretting about my weight while getting steadily bigger. Realised that WW and SW and all those sorts of diets just aren't for me and that brute determination and removal of food was the only way I could do it. So after many years of failing I shed a load of weight on SnS and was so much happier. Spent 6 days out of 7 in the gym and loved how muscular I was getting. The excess skin let me down though and so I decided that I would need surgery. That was a thought at the time and no action taken as I fell pregnant. No excuses, I felt sick every waking hour for 20 weeks and sincerely, the only thing that would stop the sickness was eating - and carbs at that! When I finally stopped feeling sick, the habit was there and I’m a true binge eater when not in the zone. I binged for the remainder of the pregnancy and ended at 18.5 stone!
I went back to SnS and lost 8 stone in 8 months. Gyming it again and eating normally and actually quite a lot as my gym sessions allowed it. A good mix of low carb, high protein with some enjoyment mixed in. A good 80/20 split. I was literally living the dream and thinking about surgery.
Then disaster (to me) my new job meant longer hours and less flexibility so I lost 4 of the 6 gym sessions. Then I injured my shoulder which took me out for the rest. I love the gym so much I hadn’t realised and slowly (quite quickly actually) became down and started eating. Binge eating. Four months solid. Given the volume I was eating it’s amazing I’ve only put on 2 stone but it’s there and after being thin (apart from the loose skin) it feels terrible. I’m back on VLCD but Exante this time as tried SnS restarts so many times I just needed a mental change. So here I am.
I’m now back at the gym 4 days a week as that is all work will allow. Sunday is a double class so could count as 5 and the others are heavy weight lifting sessions. I have four packs on those days. A conscious, planned decision - for fuel and nothing else.
My surgery will go ahead once I have got down to my ideal weight plus another 7lbs. So aiming for 9 stone which should also allow for fluctaution back up when returning to ‘normal’.
I started this Monday and first weigh in will be Monday morning. I didn’t weigh at the start as I just wanted to get on with it as the decision had been made. This morning I weighed in at 11s 4.2lbs. If I’m that weight on Monday then that is fine as I know I must have been higher before I started as I binge ate to the end - partially why the decision was so abrupt - just got sick of it all.
Anyway, sorry, long intro but wanted it all down for my own reflections.
I’ve been reading all the diaries in the last few days and many are inspiring. Seems like a quiet forum but if that’s the case, I’ll just ramble alone and at varying intervals.
Thanks for reading if you got this far. If not, thanks for scrolling to the end
Off to the gym now. Back and biceps tonight - whoop!