Maintenance Day 30
After feeling pretty good about myself and my eating at the end of the day yesterday, there was still no change on the scales this morning and I felt really miserable. Perhaps I need to do as Daisy and BL suggest and weigh less? I headed out to do a few chores and it was damn freeeeeeeezing!! Was so glad I had taken a cup of coffee with me, it took ages to defrost the car. My bottle of water that I keep in there was frozen solid!!!!! Got home and made the usual porridge with banana and bits. Had actually come very close to just having a pack instead, but really need to see a week through. The panic was just immense. I then settled down to have a good read of a book which is a rare treat for me whilst waiting for the hire company to collect the fridge. After that was sorted, I ended up having a small nap... another fabulous treat
Then the great inner debate on "am I really hungry enough to eat lunch????" So I ended up having water, then more water, then even more water. This filled me up quite nicely so had a kids sized banana at about 4pm. Headed off to class just before 6.
It was just the best thing to be back, and to have the support of group and LLC again. Amazingly on his scales I am only up 1/2lb since my last WI a month ago so taking Xmas into account this isnt that bad, and perhaps I have been stressing for nothing? He was really happy with me and that alone made me feel great. Loads of my RTM group were there and a few people who were refocussing in January, so compared to most of my group who are back on packs for a while after Xmas I suppose I didn't do too badly. What was wonderful was the fact we all realised we were refocussing and stopping things in their tracks, and hearing everyones stories you see how far we have all com since this time last year. It really is so inspirational. Just the security of group and being able to chat made me feel much better. Dinner was the midnight breakfast, some 190g sliced lean ham, 1 egg scrambled on wholewheat toast, 90g baked beans, 1 grilled tomato and 75g root veg "chips". Have ended up leaving some of the egg on toast and some of the ham. Nice to see that for a change my stomach is smaller than my eyes!!! If I am hungry later I will have the last bit of ham. Pud I am not sure yet, but possibly some yoghurt and sugar free jelly. Or perhaps some apple compote.
A small sense of relief, but still want to get down to my happy weight on the home scales. The security blanket of going to class is awesome and I am excited at the thought of going back next week.
I also forgot to mention last night, that I have finally taken the bull by the horns so to speak, and have signed up to do a 4 week class in Burlesque Dancing. Something I have always wanted to do. Really looking forward to it and first class is this Saturday - not sure how I will be able to dance in heels but hey, good excercise, and hopefully a chance to meet a few single ladies who might want to go out on the town. This might also help with a bit of body confidence, because my feelings towards the flabby belly have still not gone. I also noticed that my legs are all saggy now too!!!
I am looking forward to summer and dreding it in equal quantity- all those skimpy clothes.
So thats the news for the day..... more tomorrow, and still no bloody snow in London, although at least they have been gritting - really looking foward to a snow day if poss!!!
Jez
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