Today is the first day of the rest of my life. I want to rant. I want to let it all out. The weight must shift, it has no choice. No more embarrassments, no more invitation turn downs, no more weight related depression. Its time to take my weight in my own hands. Not just by slapping my gut when I look into the mirror with longing, but by actually doing something about it.
So I have my 2 week supply of products, and I'm thinking of pacing them to two shakes earlier in the day; a soup for lunch with porridge for dinner. A least, until I reach the "haloed Ketotic state" I've heard so much about. Then I will re-cap and see if I need to shift things a little. 4 satchets and 4 litres of water a day. Wow. sounds a bit daunting.
Let's see how many days it will take me to get to ketosis.
Now, let's talk about the hunger pangs, real and imagined; every dieter's cross to bear. I know my current euphoric state where I feel no hunger, only happiness at starting CWP will probably last till tomorrow. Then I will officially have to admit to hunger, because I will definitely be hungry. I'm a natural carb-queen, so I know I will. Its time to be mentally prepared. It feels like "labour induction", the type where they pass oxytocin/pitocin drip through your veins, or where they insert some funky tablet at the mouth of the cervix to speed up dilation. Yes, you know you'll be induced, you know it may not last that long, you know it will hurt real bad, but no matter how much you mentally steel yourself, you just can't help wishing it was all over and crying your eyes out with the inevitable pain once the contractions keep coming. The difference is, unlike labour that you can't stop once its started even if you try, there is a possibility of derailing on any diet, even CWP so a lot of strong will is required here.
I need to be strong!!! I can do this!!!
I chose CWP because at various times during my quest for slimness, I've found myself longing for meal replacements so that I'm sure I'm low-carbing, but its been very hard finding anything that can effectively replace meals; this is particularly the case when you lead a hectic busy life style like I do; juggling career and motherhood.
So let's see how I do, I will take this one day at a time. I'm currently size 24 - 26. I never knew there would be a time in my life when I would celebrate being an 18, but if and when I reach size 18, I will definitely reward myself.