A women watching her weight in Wales
Well I am now in week four of this diet, I was ok the first few weeks but am starting to struggle so thought I would post a diary in the hope that not only do I find it easier if I'm writing it all down but hopefully will get some support from you guys out there too (((PLEASE)))
Bit of background, I did quite successfully on Lighterlife a few years ago but came off it and straight back to my old eating habits, was on it for four months in total and this time plan on not stopping until I am finished and all the weight has gone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
It was too easy to say, well I'm still 14 stone so it's more difficult for me to exercise, etc, I also have asthma and am guilty of using this as an excuse not to work out.
I'm hoping that if I lose the weight that I will want to exercise, want to eat healthier as I will know what it has been like to live for so long, big and unhappy!
I look at myself some days and I know that all anyone else see's is the happy go lucky exterior I present to the world, why is it that very few people see through this exterior.
My best friend regularly comments on how she wishes that she were as confident as I am and that she envies me. This is a women who gives talks to large groups and happily sits in meetings with management for her organisation and who envies me??? I just don't get it, I sometimes wish she could actually see the real me, the one who is terrified to eat in public because I'm convinced that people will stare at me and make fun of my weight, the one who would sit in the car to eat chocolate and then hide the wrappers so that no one would know.
I still have pieces of fudge in a bag from 4 weeks ago before I started the diet because I was ashamed to admit to my partner that I had bought it.
Any way I digress, I have been on step 2 as my BMI was 44.1, I've now got it down to 40.3 and need to think about whether or not to go to ss, my consultant has only ever been on step 2 and is encouraging me to do the same however, I find I struggle to eat all 3 shakes and eat a meal too, maybe because I was on lighterlife, I constantly feel like I am cheating and I would almost prefer to have that strict guideline that SS brings with it.
For example my consultant said that she allows herself some diet drinks on step 2, so what do I do, drink about litre a day of diet coke! Am really thinking that no choice would be the best choice for me right now.
I enjoy having my chicken in an evening but am such a fussy eater that that is about all I'm eating lol, have started to think that I would happily never see another chicken in my life!!!!
I was really motivated when I started and even had Christmas dinner so that I wouldn't feel cheated in December lol, I need to find that motivation again otherwise this is going to be a very long few months with me desperate to cheat.
I suppose my weight loss this week hasn't helped as I only lost 2 lbs and never cheated (well apart from the diet coke) but there is an evil little voice in my head saying, you could have done that with a normal diet, the reason I chose Cambridge was definitely for the quick weight loss amongst other things and I just need to keep reminding myself that while I only lost 2 lb this week I have lost 22lb in 4 weeks, that would not have happened any other way.
Sorry for rambling but would love to hear from anyone who would like to join me along my journey.
Start day 18st 5lbs
week 1-4 18 st 5 - 16 st 11 = 22 lb loss
week 5-8 16 st 11 - 15 st 9 = 16 lb loss
week 9-12 15 st 9 - 14 st 10 = 13 lb loss
week 13 14st 6 = 4lb loss week 14 14st 4 = 2lb loss not too bad considering went to step 2 after being very ill
Well got a cold today so been feeling bleugh but have spent the day cuddled in bed so hopefully will get a little better tomorrow.
trying to be more optimistic about my ability to do this diet, at times I am totally convinced I can do this and I'm going to be skinny and healthy and then I have terrible self doubt and think it's just too hard.
Keep telling myself though that as ling as I don't cheat today the tomorrows can take care of themselves.
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Start Date: 5th November 2013
Start Weight: 13st13.6lb
Current Weight: 13st3.2lb
Goal Weight: 9st7.0lb
Goal Date: 20th March 2013
Start BMI: 29.7
Current BMI: 28.2
Goal BMI: 20.2
Total Weight Loss: 0st10.4lb
Weight to Lose: 3st10.2lb
% Lost 5.32%
I have a cold too, it definitely makes will power much more of a struggle! You can do it - just take it an hour at a time xx
cars can be a nightmare.
If you can't afford it I think the sensible thing would be to be honest with your CDC - would she accept a cheque and only cash it when you're next paid? Xx
Cambridge Weight Plan started 1st November 2013
10lbs down; 60lbs to go!
Thanks for the hug puzzles, I've been following step2 so first of all will go down to ss I think so will save a little been thinking of doing it anyway.
Then think I may have to swallow my pride and ask my mum if she'll loan me a little money til pay day.
I've at least stopped crying now and one way or another it'll work out.
Well the weekend's been ok I guess, still no cheating but went to a friends for a dinner party yesterday, she had laid on a salad so I took a little chicken and was able to sit with everyone without feeling left out. Weigh in tomorrow, I'm just praying that I have done better than last week.
Awe so sorry about your dilemma ... But well done you on the weight loss so far!!!
I too am a little welsh lady trying to lose weight for the second time!! Back on it today... Doing step 2 at the mo, as it worked well last time, I have a works do on the 5th dec so really want to see how much I can lose in that time, I lost a stone and a half in 6 weeks the last time, with a few cheats inbetween... This diet isn't easy but it works!!! Good luck and I hope all works out xxx
Thanks Avamum, good luck and nice to hear someone else is on step 2, was beginning to think I was the only one lol.
Let me know how your first week goes, you'll look fabulous for your works do. x
Well weighed in again yesterdayband another 3 lbs off, I know I should be happy with that but after only 2 the week before have decided that I am going to give SSH a go as my bmi now under 40, yay.
Well done on the bm I and doing as... No sure I'm ready for that though!!! Your really doing well xx
Just read my post and god I sound drunk... Bloody predictive text!! Lol hope you understood it....
Diet is going great, I think... Had a weigh today and down 5lbs...Yey!!! Dress came today too and it's lovely but a bit tight, so I need at least 7-10lbs off to feel comfy!!
I'm sort of looking forward to my do but, nervous about getting to my goal weight for the night!!!
I had a chat with my cdc about maybe having a sort of night off, and I did this last time and tbh I only put 2lb on over a weekend and lost it by the Tuesday, but again I'm on step 2 and food is in the equation so I just need to eat some carbs and protein the night before and then just my meal out and few glasses of wine! I know it's not ideal but it's the way I need to keep sane!!! Lol
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