Morning all. I had a lovely evening last night, still got some nibbles left over from last night, generally just chocolate and doughnuts (krispy kreme) as the saying goes eyes are bigger than the tummy, so going to finish what I can today, but do SP meals to combat that all. Hopefully if its not to cold, take the children for a walk round the park, then play at the park at the end. Its just over 1km so a small start but its better than nothing, but I might do more when I get home later, once the kids go to bed. Anything can happen in a day right.
I've recently been told I'm strong a lot lately. Although I do agree most of the time, sometimes I still feel the need to break down and cry etc. I think as women, we have to be wonder woman most of the time. If its not to look after our families, but to do things for others and we put ourselves on the back seat. I do need to vent once in a blue moon, as this whole situation I'm in is new, and its something I don't wish for anyone. I think that was why I'm trying to take control of things I can physical do, like loose weight and go to college to improve my life. Although if I put on weight this week I wouldn't be surprised, I did enjoy myself which is sometimes what I need and it made me feel somewhat human to go out and be with my OH and do things which normal couples do. We rarely go out due to my insecurities about my weight, which I guess might be the same as some of you when you first started your journey. Mine are will I be in the way if I sit there, will I fit in the chair, what will people think of my weight. There are some really narrow minded people out there and some can be damn right rude. Last one was just after Christmas when I first started my diet and I was going into subway for a salad as it was 3pm and I hadn't had lunch. Some man just said to his mate, bet she's going there for a snack. I suspect there has been others since, but since I generally have my daughter with me I focus on what I need to do and get the jobs in hand done, although she loves shopping and would shop all day! Rant over, sorry for my ramblings.