Rising from the ashes...

[poppyp84]

Hope your getting on ok Pheonix

 

[Phoenix87]

Hi guys! Day 14/28. I changed my weigh day to today, so week 2 and I have lost another 3lbs - so 13lbs in total! A bit disappointed I can't say a stone in 2 weeks lol, but pleased!

This week coming up will be the hardest, I have never made it past week 3 and it's usually because of the mind games that start up. This time is going to be different though. I had a bit of a wobble last night, emotionally, after I found a set of old holiday photos. The fact they were of my ex and I didn't help, but mainly it was that I remember enjoying that holiday but being unhappy that I had put on so much weight before going. I came home determined to lose it and was mortified I had just slipped into the obese BMI category. Within a week I was back out of it and I went on to lose just over 2 stone. How could that same person end up here?!?

I started thinking about a weight when I will feel better and I realised that if I continue to think like that then I will be miserable until I reach near my target! Sticking to this diet I will get there, but on the way there I need to change the way that I think otherwise this will all be pointless. I need to be able to look in the mirror at the weight I am today, the weight I will be in 4 weeks, 4 months etc and say "well done, you're doing great.. you look so much better". I do not need to be at my target to feel better about myself. That started 2 weeks ago when I committed to being 100% and it continues today.

Yes I have a long way to go, but hey I looked in the mirror today and appreciated that my face looks much slimmer than before.. lets see what looks slimmer next week

 

[bob123]

That's a brilliant attitude to have well done you

 

[heatwave74]

You really are in zone! Inspiring well done

 

[Phoenix87]

That's a brilliant attitude to have well done you

You really are in zone! Inspiring well done

Thank you both It feels like things are finally starting to click into place!

I have applied for a few jobs too so fingers and toes crossed that something comes out of that too so I can breathe a little easier. My mind is really in this right now. I have always been 'all or nothing'.. it's just the getting to the stage of being all in that has always taken so long. Now I am there again I'll be damned if I come out of it before I get to where I want to be!

The problem I have had before is that when I come anywhere near a target weight I usually lose focus.. I need to make sure I have other targets to focus on. In fact, to try and make sure that doesn't happen I am going to sit down and think of a list of non weight related targets I want to achieve!

 

[Susie58]

Good planning Phoenix and well done on the loss. Hope something comes from the jobs you have applied for x

 

[Phoenix87]

Good planning Phoenix and well done on the loss. Hope something comes from the jobs you have applied for x

Thanks Susie!

 

[x-Katie-x]

I'm liking your attitude From a personal note we started at about the same weight, though sadly for me not at the same height and though I'm three stone from what I've set as my ideal goal I can appreciate (and do) the difference in the way I look and feel - and I think the bonus for me this time is that though I do appreciate it I also very much want to look and feel even better which then pushes me to keep going at it.

I think what I'm trying to say is enjoy the new you(s) along the journey but at the same time stay aware of your ideal you for the future xx

 

[Phoenix87]

I'm liking your attitude From a personal note we started at about the same weight, though sadly for me not at the same height and though I'm three stone from what I've set as my ideal goal I can appreciate (and do) the difference in the way I look and feel - and I think the bonus for me this time is that though I do appreciate it I also very much want to look and feel even better which then pushes me to keep going at it.

I think what I'm trying to say is enjoy the new you(s) along the journey but at the same time stay aware of your ideal you for the future xx

You are absolutely right. That was the mistake I have made in the past and ended up not getting to goal. I was looking on the Exante site today and ventured into the Forum and someone had posted a link to a site called 'What Will I Look Like' and you can change the settings depending on gender, height and weight and it shows pictures of people who are the same as you - but have reached their target! It's great having real people to base goals on!

 

[Phoenix87]

Now that I am into week 3 the 5 week countdown I have on the fridge (4 weeks 100% 1 week AAM days) is starting to look better. I started this worried that I would fail after week 3 again, but I know now that won't happen. I know I'm not there yet but this time is completely different! I have a friend visiting for the day on the weekend, but she knows that I am doing this and is really supportive so I'm not worried about it.

I'm still a victim of wishing my life away.. I mean why can't I transport myself to the end of the 5 weeks already? But at the same time I am enjoying waking up having completed another day instead of regretting my choices the night before - which was the story of my life a couple of weeks ago!

 

[x-Katie-x]

You are absolutely right. That was the mistake I have made in the past and ended up not getting to goal. I was looking on the Exante site today and ventured into the Forum and someone had posted a link to a site called 'What Will I Look Like' and you can change the settings depending on gender, height and weight and it shows pictures of people who are the same as you - but have reached their target! It's great having real people to base goals on!

I've not seen that section, I'll have to check it out x

 

[Miss Mac]

Well done pheonix!!
What an excellent positive attitude and im sure you will make it

 

[Sleek_Chick]

You are doing great Phoenix! Keep going!

 

[goose]

Hiya hun you are doing fab. Im like you... Tend to loSe the plot the nearer i get to goal!!! I was 9st 6 and past few weeks on n off, weighed in 10at 8 this morning and ill continue to creep up if i don't get a grip of things!! You are doing so well. Keep going xx

 

[Missmoss]

Hey there, I hope you doing ok. Well done you on getting past the 3 week point! (I've done well to get past day 3 lol) love reading your posts, so motivating! Keep at it xx

 

[Phoenix87]

I've not seen that section, I'll have to check it out x

Here's the link to the site: What will I look like?

Well done pheonix!!
What an excellent positive attitude and im sure you will make it

Thanks Miss Mac, I'm hoping that having a record of me feeling so positive and determined will help if any wobbles come along!

 

[Phoenix87]

You are doing great Phoenix! Keep going!

Thanks Sleek_Chick! Still a long way to go but it has become so much easier now!

Hiya hun you are doing fab. Im like you... Tend to loSe the plot the nearer i get to goal!!! I was 9st 6 and past few weeks on n off, weighed in 10at 8 this morning and ill continue to creep up if i don't get a grip of things!! You are doing so well. Keep going xx

Hi Goose, to be honest I haven't been near goal in a long time, lol, but I know what you mean. My biggest regret is not getting a grip on things sooner and letting things creep up.. so you're a step ahead of that by taking action and you sound determined. Good luck!

 

[Phoenix87]

Hey there, I hope you doing ok. Well done you on getting past the 3 week point! (I've done well to get past day 3 lol) love reading your posts, so motivating! Keep at it xx

Hi Missmoss, I honestly do think that getting past day 3 is more of an achievement that getting to the end of week 3.. I know that sounds silly but the number of times I started and didn't get past them. Once I am into the swing of it, like now, and it becomes a routine I find that I can cope with it. Previously a social event has come up around this point and I have thought "well I'm coping fine, I'm sure evening / day / weekend won't hurt and I will get back to it"..... but I never have and part of that is the mind games of those first few days!

 

[Phoenix87]

I haven't been around for a couple of days, but I am still being good and 100% I started working on a list of things to work towards to keep my focus (and I plan on getting back to doing that). One of the things was learning to drive (better late than never, haha). So I am currently working towards sorting that out.

My sleeping pattern is completely messed up at the moment and I have found that being tired has really increased my tendency to think of food.. and bad food! While it isn't great being in the middle of thoughts like that I have found it has actually been easier to talk myself out of say ordering a takeaway than it is when I have thoughts of a chicken salad! The main thought that keeps me on track is the idea of being in this position again.. another 'new / final' start.. another failed attempt.. and that is enough to remain determined.

I am tired of feeling sorry for myself and as if I have no control. If I want to eat and lose the weight slower I can, but I have chosen to do this. Therefore, quote for today: Suck it up.. and one day you won't have to suck it in!

 

[x-Katie-x]

You're doing brilliantly Phoenix and you should be very proud of yourself, fab idea having a list of things to focus on - best of luck with the driving x