To health and hapiness
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FunnyFarm
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I'm having the kind of day where I'd want to turn to food but can't, so instead am just sitting in bed crying.
I just wish I could fast forward to next year. This year is just going to be work and suffering just to try to claw myself up to rock bottom. It's the classic thing of everyone around me is getting great jobs, or getting married or having babies and I'm just living in a crappy house, doing a job I hate but might lose and feeling totally on the scrap heap. I'm focusing on losing weight because it seems to be the one thing I can control, I can't see it doing me much good in the grand scheme of things. Worst case scenario is I'll live even longer!
I just wish I could fast forward to next year. This year is just going to be work and suffering just to try to claw myself up to rock bottom. It's the classic thing of everyone around me is getting great jobs, or getting married or having babies and I'm just living in a crappy house, doing a job I hate but might lose and feeling totally on the scrap heap. I'm focusing on losing weight because it seems to be the one thing I can control, I can't see it doing me much good in the grand scheme of things. Worst case scenario is I'll live even longer!
FunnyFarm
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I'm feeling marginally better than yesterday, I had some sleep which seemed to help. Also I measured myself and although it's not even a week since the first measurements, I'm already nearly 3" off my waist. It makes me feel better.
I've got a new office set up and have my mirror next to the laptop. While I'm at work I've been playing with make up and false eyelashes and stuff. I've never been good at eye make up, so figured I might as well get lots of practice in while I'm not going out, and then when I'm thinner and more sociable it'll have even more of an impact. The problem is I'm just really aware of how fat my face looks right now, so it kinda depresses me more.
I'm hoping getting my hair cut and an eyebrow wax tomorrow will help a bit. I'm also thinking about saving up for hair extensions, last time I got close to goal I lost loads of hair and don't want that bald look again! I'm trying to work out if they damage the hair or not, I don't think I'll be keen if they do!
I've also decided on my present to myself at goal, which I'm saving up for at the moment. I'm gonna get the puppy I've been broody for for years. I found a breeder who has a litter due around the time I should be at goal, does all the relevant health tests and tons of early socialisation etc. Hope it works out!
After today I'll have completed a week. Just 20 more of those and I'll be skinny :sigh:
I've got a new office set up and have my mirror next to the laptop. While I'm at work I've been playing with make up and false eyelashes and stuff. I've never been good at eye make up, so figured I might as well get lots of practice in while I'm not going out, and then when I'm thinner and more sociable it'll have even more of an impact. The problem is I'm just really aware of how fat my face looks right now, so it kinda depresses me more.
I'm hoping getting my hair cut and an eyebrow wax tomorrow will help a bit. I'm also thinking about saving up for hair extensions, last time I got close to goal I lost loads of hair and don't want that bald look again! I'm trying to work out if they damage the hair or not, I don't think I'll be keen if they do!
I've also decided on my present to myself at goal, which I'm saving up for at the moment. I'm gonna get the puppy I've been broody for for years. I found a breeder who has a litter due around the time I should be at goal, does all the relevant health tests and tons of early socialisation etc. Hope it works out!
After today I'll have completed a week. Just 20 more of those and I'll be skinny :sigh:
FunnyFarm
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I'm 12 days in and it's starting to become less of an obsession. I'm obsessing with my boyfriend's food though! He's put on weight through convenience eating and comfort eating. I've been browsing ********* for recipes I can make and freeze, so he's always got something. I'm going to make him some breakfast burritos that he just has to put in the microwave with eggs, sausage and peppers in, which should be a good, filling breakfast. I've also been looking at old Lighter life recipes, and going to cook up a load of veggies and split them half into ratatouille and half into vegetable curry, as well as a job lot of bolognese, roast sweet potato and a few bits and bobs.
I'm really looking forward to eating again and being this organised! I might do the 5:2 when I maintain so I only have to cook every other day, I'm so lazy! The eventual plan is to balance it all out so I cook once a week, and only make meals that can be frozen so I can make extra. It seems like the perfect solution to my lack of time issue, I just wish I didn't have to wait 6 months to put it in practice!
It's a good test to work on his diet though, he doesn't have much weight to lose and is pretty active so mistakes here and there won't be as disastrous as they will with me!
I'm really looking forward to eating again and being this organised! I might do the 5:2 when I maintain so I only have to cook every other day, I'm so lazy! The eventual plan is to balance it all out so I cook once a week, and only make meals that can be frozen so I can make extra. It seems like the perfect solution to my lack of time issue, I just wish I didn't have to wait 6 months to put it in practice!
It's a good test to work on his diet though, he doesn't have much weight to lose and is pretty active so mistakes here and there won't be as disastrous as they will with me!
FunnyFarm
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After today I've done 2 whole weeks, and I was 14:12 this morning, which is 8lbs from when I weighed on Sunday! I could get used to that.
Off for microdermabrasion today (never had it before, I'm nervous) and ordered a load of make up yesterday. I feel excited about doing positive things for myself, and it makes me feel more motivated.
I'm in my size 16s (a wee bit tight, I won't class myself as 'in them' until they're a bit loose) and feeling motivated and excited about being slim. I'm really, really, REALLY hoping to be 12 stone by Paris. 1st of April, I can't wait! Obviously I'll have to, that's how time works.
Off for microdermabrasion today (never had it before, I'm nervous) and ordered a load of make up yesterday. I feel excited about doing positive things for myself, and it makes me feel more motivated.
I'm in my size 16s (a wee bit tight, I won't class myself as 'in them' until they're a bit loose) and feeling motivated and excited about being slim. I'm really, really, REALLY hoping to be 12 stone by Paris. 1st of April, I can't wait! Obviously I'll have to, that's how time works.
FunnyFarm
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Microdermabrasion wasn't painful, yay! I've got two more sessions, and then they have a deal where you pay £90 for 6 sessions and they mix up the treatments depending on what you need. Definitely going to go for that, I could have nice skin! On the plus side, when a nurse who specialises in skin care and cosmetic treatments remarks on how much younger you look, that has to be a good thing!
So, week two (almost) officially done now. The boyfriend is getting an official valuation on his house today, and potentially getting a promotion at work so things are kind of looking good. I think by the end of 2014 my life will be looking much, much more positive.
So, week two (almost) officially done now. The boyfriend is getting an official valuation on his house today, and potentially getting a promotion at work so things are kind of looking good. I think by the end of 2014 my life will be looking much, much more positive.
FunnyFarm
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I was poorly yesterday so had a planned SS+ day. I made sure it was something I wouldn't enjoy (half a can of tuna is not my idea of comfort food) so it would just be to keep me going and replace what my dodgy tummy had cost me. I seem to have put on half a pound from it, which is likely to be water retention because tuna is salty. I consumed the same amount of calories as usual. Tomorrow is official weigh in day, so hopefully it'll be gone by then. I'm hoping for 14:10, because that's the weight I thought I'd be when I got the scales (but very wasn't!) so it'll mean I'm on at square one.
Keeping up the water today, and considering doing an exercise video when I'm used to reduced calories more. I might just continue doing a few exercises in the house, and ease into it that way.
Keeping up the water today, and considering doing an exercise video when I'm used to reduced calories more. I might just continue doing a few exercises in the house, and ease into it that way.
FunnyFarm
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I haven't updated this in 2 weeks apparently!
Little to report. I'm bumbling along, 5 weeks down now.
Not great losses, but losses nonetheless. I'm currently in the annoying stages of having my size 16s falling off me, and my size 14s being too tight. Very annoying! I'm wondering if I'll be in my 12s by Paris? It seems possible!
Little to report. I'm bumbling along, 5 weeks down now.
Not great losses, but losses nonetheless. I'm currently in the annoying stages of having my size 16s falling off me, and my size 14s being too tight. Very annoying! I'm wondering if I'll be in my 12s by Paris? It seems possible!
