(Big rant!! Bad mood! :-( )
Found out i am pregnant (was planned) so i am over the moon, yeahhh!!!
Can't help but get excited, talk about the future, whats happening with my body, what i will and won't do, eat (my 1st pregnancy i piled on the weight, did no exercise which i think caused me to have a emergency c-section. I am scared to death of giving birth, so talk to my partner about it, how my last birth was painful. and he's like, what u moaning for u had it easy, epidural, you dont feel a thing. Stop goin on about it.
Yes i did feel lots, other wise i wouldn't of had an epidural.
I lost a few stone after giving birth to my first, and am making sure i still go to the gym and not eat everything this time- hes like, o no i can cancel that cost now, the gym no good for u. he hates me going to the gym, he thinks i'm going to meet someone. well tough i'm still going, its healthy and good for us both!
Also the other night fri night is usually pig out night as we like to call it, lol, but i had no take away. i sat down and had the same healthy meal as my lil lad. But had a bar of choc after. He looked at me when i ate it, and said thats disgusing, i can't believe youve eaten all that, thats wrong, so selfish. Yet he had- a 1/2pound cheese burger AND a kebab AND a full choc egg with kit cat AND 1/2 large pork pie.... how bloody rudeee!!!
I got rather upset at this and felt humiliated, disgusted with myself for being such a pig and purged (i no i shouldnt but its only the same as morning sickness?)
so i said why u say that look at what u eaten, hes like, i'm not pregant, so i said ok then will you please not eat it all in front of me. No, thats life! then said its just the same as me getting up for work at 5.30 and you staying in bed all day (7.30 when my lil lad wakes up) He seems to think all i do all day is big fat nothing!
i make his butties for work for him, he never does house work, hes hardly ever bathed lil lad, he doesn't need to hang his clothes up, wash his clothes, put his clothes in the laundry basket, feed lil lad, cook. anything.... he gets up early goes to work (ok he has a physical job) comes home, his tea is on the table. i wash up. i bath and put my lil lad to bed and go to the gym 4 1 hour 4x per week, and he want to take this away from me.
He says its not fair hes worked hard and hes expected to look after baby (who bed time is 7pm), why i go to the gym as sometimes its a class what starts at half 6 so he says he feels rushed to have is tea and is tired. So i go to a later class so baby all tucked up in bed and he can just chill, then he moans he never see's me. But then bloody football is on or something, grrr.
i tell him how i feel and hes like o u dont see it from my point of view out there working all day for you. But i said if u wasnt with me, and you didnt have a child... would you still go to work. YES! u wud be in exactly the same position as u r now- clothes washed, dries etc- only it wudnt be me doing it, it wud be your mum. Where as me EVERYTHING as changed, i don't work i'm a full time mum, i have no car, my bodies changed, i dont go out drinking any more, i dont see firends as as when i want, or go to the gym as much as i like.
Grrr, really annoyed. This is suppose to of been a really happy day. Even this morning he came in with my lil lad and gave me my card and presi, than said right u can stay with you mum now i'm going back downstairs. He didnt chnage him or get him ready... he was still in his bed in a bag.
I sound really selfish and moanin, dont get me rong i am really happy i just think my hormones are all over and hes just not bothered, he even moaning cuz i was quiet, he kept saying whats up so i said i felt sick and tired, and hes like o how can u be tired you dont do anything, you done nothing all day, i said o it must be cuz im early stages, first few months it says u feel really drained... and hes like ooo well, whatever it says on the computer it must be true then. But i do i feel complety exausted... but then i get into the thing of right then we'll stop you going to the gym, grrr.
any way big rant over with... and deep breath. lol
Found out i am pregnant (was planned) so i am over the moon, yeahhh!!!
Can't help but get excited, talk about the future, whats happening with my body, what i will and won't do, eat (my 1st pregnancy i piled on the weight, did no exercise which i think caused me to have a emergency c-section. I am scared to death of giving birth, so talk to my partner about it, how my last birth was painful. and he's like, what u moaning for u had it easy, epidural, you dont feel a thing. Stop goin on about it.
Yes i did feel lots, other wise i wouldn't of had an epidural.
I lost a few stone after giving birth to my first, and am making sure i still go to the gym and not eat everything this time- hes like, o no i can cancel that cost now, the gym no good for u. he hates me going to the gym, he thinks i'm going to meet someone. well tough i'm still going, its healthy and good for us both!
Also the other night fri night is usually pig out night as we like to call it, lol, but i had no take away. i sat down and had the same healthy meal as my lil lad. But had a bar of choc after. He looked at me when i ate it, and said thats disgusing, i can't believe youve eaten all that, thats wrong, so selfish. Yet he had- a 1/2pound cheese burger AND a kebab AND a full choc egg with kit cat AND 1/2 large pork pie.... how bloody rudeee!!!
I got rather upset at this and felt humiliated, disgusted with myself for being such a pig and purged (i no i shouldnt but its only the same as morning sickness?)
so i said why u say that look at what u eaten, hes like, i'm not pregant, so i said ok then will you please not eat it all in front of me. No, thats life! then said its just the same as me getting up for work at 5.30 and you staying in bed all day (7.30 when my lil lad wakes up) He seems to think all i do all day is big fat nothing!
i make his butties for work for him, he never does house work, hes hardly ever bathed lil lad, he doesn't need to hang his clothes up, wash his clothes, put his clothes in the laundry basket, feed lil lad, cook. anything.... he gets up early goes to work (ok he has a physical job) comes home, his tea is on the table. i wash up. i bath and put my lil lad to bed and go to the gym 4 1 hour 4x per week, and he want to take this away from me.
He says its not fair hes worked hard and hes expected to look after baby (who bed time is 7pm), why i go to the gym as sometimes its a class what starts at half 6 so he says he feels rushed to have is tea and is tired. So i go to a later class so baby all tucked up in bed and he can just chill, then he moans he never see's me. But then bloody football is on or something, grrr.
i tell him how i feel and hes like o u dont see it from my point of view out there working all day for you. But i said if u wasnt with me, and you didnt have a child... would you still go to work. YES! u wud be in exactly the same position as u r now- clothes washed, dries etc- only it wudnt be me doing it, it wud be your mum. Where as me EVERYTHING as changed, i don't work i'm a full time mum, i have no car, my bodies changed, i dont go out drinking any more, i dont see firends as as when i want, or go to the gym as much as i like.
Grrr, really annoyed. This is suppose to of been a really happy day. Even this morning he came in with my lil lad and gave me my card and presi, than said right u can stay with you mum now i'm going back downstairs. He didnt chnage him or get him ready... he was still in his bed in a bag.
I sound really selfish and moanin, dont get me rong i am really happy i just think my hormones are all over and hes just not bothered, he even moaning cuz i was quiet, he kept saying whats up so i said i felt sick and tired, and hes like o how can u be tired you dont do anything, you done nothing all day, i said o it must be cuz im early stages, first few months it says u feel really drained... and hes like ooo well, whatever it says on the computer it must be true then. But i do i feel complety exausted... but then i get into the thing of right then we'll stop you going to the gym, grrr.
any way big rant over with... and deep breath. lol
