I really hope that this diary will one day have loads of pages and be filled with successes because I'm utterly miserable at the moment, food brings me no comfort whatsoever despite what I might tell myself to excuse myself from whatever plan, diet, lifestyle change etc.
I've always got some excuse up my sleeve and I'm just so fed up, I'm worth more than the way I'm treating myself with rubbish food and no exercise. I've such a huge amount of weight to lose that I'm just going to say 5 stone (still a massive amount to lose, but better than the 9 or 10st I should ideally lose!)
I will look more like me when I've 5 stone gone, I actually don't recognise myself anymore. I used to be feminine and confident now I just feel like a huge big frump and I look a good ten years older than I am. It's gone so bad I'm hiding away from more and more people because of how big I've gotten. In fact, it's the perfect time to start because I don't want to socialize right now or go out for meals etc.
I feel very hesitant to even say "I'm starting in the morning" because I've said it so many times before!