Hi Ladies, I hope you're all well this morning. I have something that is now starting to really bother me, it didn't 2 weeks or so ago but it's now getting to the point where it's starting to effect me... As you've all seen, I have a good-sized bump for 21 weeks pregnant - which could be due to a lot of factors. Overweight before pregnancy, I'm very short (5 ft 3), could be down to size of the baby but I don't think it is (tell you why in a moment), lots of fluid etc. Now this is fine, and it didn't bother me at all 2 weeks ago. I was proud of it. Meant the outside world can know I'm pregnant, and of course I'd be happy/proud - I'm more than ecstatic that I'm pregnant. But, during the last two weeks, I have had constant, and I mean CONSTANT comments from people at work, family members etc. Which, at first I admit was really nice. It's nice to be "showing" after all isn't it?
Now though, I'm getting a bit...I wouldn't say "upset" because that would sound too strong...but I'm a bit miffed...paranoid maybe. This past week especially, the same people at work - every single day without fail either say "Hello Fatty", "WHOOOAHH you're SO much bigger today than you were yesterday" (and they say this every day), or "Gosh! You're big!". I never ever thought I'd be one to moan, or complain by people's comments when it came to my pregnant tum. I thought I'd absolutely love it. The same goes with random people coming up to me and touching my belly - didn't think I'd have a problem... But I do
The rational-pregnant side of me is ok with the comments. I know people aren't saying it to be nasty, or anything like that. Plus, I am pregnant and I expect comments at some point about my growing belly. However, the fairly self-concious, chubby girl which is still here is hating all of the comments.
I'm not enjoying them. Like, I sit here and I think, what gives anyone the right to say "Hello fatty" to me? I'd never say that to someone - even the smallest of women who are pregnant - because like most pregant women (not all) - they are probably feeling a little self-concious, or unattractive because their body is undergoing a lot of changes which are out of their control. It's the "Wow, you're SO much bigger than yesterday, today" - which is fine - I will grow! But I get that EVERY day, by the same people and I think, well, I'm growing - yes, but I know for a fact I'm not growing THAT much. I've had the "I reckon you're having a big baby" comments. That doesn't bother me too much, I don't mind having a big baby so long as their healthy but sometimes I wish people would keep their opinions to themselves! At the end of the day, I still have 18 weeks or so of growing to do and comments like this do not help my self-esteem! I even asked the sonographer last Friday after the scan if she thinks I'm having a big baby (wtf?! It doesn't even matter but I felt compelled to ask) and she said no, not at this stage. Apparently my baby is well within the normal range, but she's actually a little smaller than average at the moment. Why did I feel the need to ask though?! As long as my baby is healthy I don't mind how much she weighs. Anyway, I'm rambling now. I feel so bad saying all of this because I don't want people to think I'm not grateful for being pregnant, because I really am, but I'm getting a little tired by all of the "wow you're massive" comments. I'm still a woman with a few little appearance issues.... Has anyone else experienced this?!
xx
