atchonblimp21
Full Member
After a 2 month break, I joined again last week, as I really want to lose my last stone. I'm battling with what I think is depression at the mo...(can't face going to doctors) I have a social phobia and don't like talking to people about stuff like this, absolutely hate it. anyways. I joined but haven't been sticking to it, well I did for the first few days but gave up. I didn't weigh In this week. It's been hard this week to stick to a normal diet too, as my uncle died recently and his funeral was today. I think I've been comfort eating due to this and other things. I keep tying to get back to normal, but I keep binging to the point that I want to throw the food up because i don't want it in me, but then I can't seem to be able to make myself throw up. which is probaly for the best, but means I've put on a few pounds and feel horrible for it. The thing is I don't really ever want the food or even feel hungry at all during the day, I'm just eating at my normal times because that's what i'm supposed to do and then binging and snacking all day long.
I hope now the funeral is over I can get my eating sorted out, just feel that I've lost all my reasons to lose weight. I think it's part of depression, because I have nothing to look forward to, nothing that can bring me joy and I just want to stay at home and sleep all the time and I'm tired all the time. while constantly battling with myself about needing to lose weight because I'm ugly and fat.
I feel like I'm losing my mind here
Anyways just needed to get that out
I hope now the funeral is over I can get my eating sorted out, just feel that I've lost all my reasons to lose weight. I think it's part of depression, because I have nothing to look forward to, nothing that can bring me joy and I just want to stay at home and sleep all the time and I'm tired all the time. while constantly battling with myself about needing to lose weight because I'm ugly and fat.
I feel like I'm losing my mind here
Anyways just needed to get that out