Sorry about being missing in action!
Really need to keep my diary going no matter what

But despite all my meal prep I still haven’t stuck with things and went off the rails food wise again

I think it’s habits with my job…
I know all the places I can stop , get food and coffees and I do even if I’ve took food into work !
I need work to put me back into an artic lorry instead of my 18 ton rigid again … I did a month in the artic a for 4 weeks before Xmas and because I didn’t know where I could park near shops in one of those coz they’re so bloody big

I had to take my packed lunch and that was all I had until I got home ! And I’d lost approx 10 lbs in those 4 weeks!


In reality I think I just need to be disciplined which is proving to be really hard atm, I’m just so tempted by all the crap food and mindlessly buy it and eat it

Along with I keep stopping to buy cigarettes and come out with a ton of food as well

I have some disposable e cigarettes which are nice but can’t seem to stick with those either
I need to as a a pack of 20 cigarettes are almost £11 !!
God, I could save some money there!
To put it bluntly, I am despairing with myself atm with my lack of self control
But , I shall try again!
Something will “click” again at some point surely??
I will try and post daily again even if I have to do a post and edit it throughout the day as to how things are going….
I have another oddbox of fruit and veg too turned up Friday, don’t want to let that go to waste again!


here we go again!