I am going to write this through the day so I can keep adding bits to it as I go and then update at the end of the day. I'm feeling good today, very strong and very positive - it's amazing that a bit of weight loss will give me just the boost that I desperately need to continue with this journey and feel good about myself.
Today I've had magic oats and an apple (and a flat white before work); I have tuna and rice for lunch, and then a prawn stir-fry for tea. Pretty healthy and enjoyable! Fingers crossed anyway.
I'm writing my 14 reasons why I love my honey - every year I do this without fail on Valentine's day, and it's a pain to do it but I love him so so so much and it's worth taking time to write out some of the reasons. He's the world to me, I can't imagine my life without him in it. We have the best time together, life is so easy and fun. I just wish I wasn't so tired and in so much pain all the time. Grrrrr. Just booking a restaurant to have lunch with a friend on Wednesday, cannot wait to see her again, she has been such a fabulous friend to me.
I'm feeling shattered today, never know whether this is the MS, or whether it's because my sleep patterns are disturbed because I'm in pain, or just because I'm 50. I tell myself that this doesn't really go on and on, but it has been a while now - time for another shot of caffeine perhaps!!
Getting absolutely loads done today though, and despite everything I haven't been tempted to overeat or anything. I feel very calm on this programme, so that's good. Plus I know I have nice food for dinner, which always helps

I wish so much that I didn't have MS, it's the absolute pits, although it's not soul destroying, I just feel sad about it. Like, I feel 'normal' again and yet here I am with progressive MS, it doesn't seem right to me. I've been feeling strong though, so that's good today.