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Almost Half Way - A reflection on how I'm changing (including pictures)

Pink!

Silver Member
S: 16st1lb C: 13st3lb G: 10st0lb BMI: 31.8 Loss: 2st12lb(17.78%)
#1
I've lost 2 stone so far, maybe 2 and a half, I've about another 4 to go. This site has been a massive resource for support! There are some fabulous people that have been real inspirations, and I hope to be the same to someone else if I can.

I wrote a list of why I wanted to lose weight when I first started my diary on here; I've just written a short (well it was supposed to be) reflection on the changes I've been feeling in myself so far.


Start Weight: 16 (and a bit) stone.



Why I’m losing the weight.
· I want to be slim by graduation. I don’t want to lumber across the stage in a huge tent of a gown that gets rucked up around the shelf of my arse. I want to look good in the photos so that I can put them on display and be proud of what I’ve achieved.
· I don’t want to worry about fitting through the gaps between chairs in cafes.
· I don’t want to worry that my top is clinging to my flab when I sit down.
· I don’t want to keep on wearing holes into the inner-thigh sections of my jeans.
· I don’t want to always be the sweatiest and most out of breath person in the class after walking up the stairs or across the campus to the class room.
· I don’t want my knees to ache just because I’ve gone for a walk.
· I want to be able to walk into any shop and know that it’s possible to buy clothes without having to worry that they won’t go up to a big enough size.
· I don’t want to have a heart attack at 30 or get diabetes.
· I don’t want to be the fattest person in the group all of the time.
· I don’t want to worry that people in the street are gossiping about me, or that kids are going to shout mean things to me.
· Because when I was reading a story to a 4 year old and said ‘Bunny had a fat tummy’ he said ‘Like yours Emma’.
· I don’t want to feel guilty for buying a chocolate bar and therefore have to buy a load of other stuff to try and cover up the fact that the fatty is buying chocolate.
· I don’t want to be embarrassed on the bus if someone sits next to me; I don’t want to have to press myself right up to the wall so that they can fit on the other seat.
· I don’t want to be breathless and Darth-Vadering into my asthma pump just because I had to walk fast to reach the bus stop in time.

After having lost 2 stone:


Changes I’ve noticed so far:

· I’m not completely knackered and breathing too hard to talk after just climbing one flight of stairs. I used to be so embarrassed if I had to go to a class upstairs and arrive out of breath (especially if it was the sexy lecturers class), so I used to get to uni 20 minutes early so that I could stand in the corridor upstairs and catch my breath.

· I can walk farther and longer and not feel exhausted. I can walk faster too, that’s one of the first things that my little (well, I say little...) brother noticed, he’s about a foot taller than me, and most of that is leg; I used to struggle to keep up with him if we walked to town, and I’d not be able to talk as we were walking; but within a couple of weeks of going to the gym and losing weight I was able to walk at his speed and talk to him at the same time. In fact I now notice that I’m able to walk a lot faster than my mum, who has just gained some weight and is struggling with the same things that I used to.

· I don’t get sweaty just walking to the shops. Damp forehead after a 3 minute walk to the shops? No thank you, not anymore! I don’t mind getting sweaty if I’ve done a 30 minute power-walk around the lake, that means I’m burning calories, but jus constant sweating from not really doing anything? Bah so-long pal!

· I fit in the seats in the lecture halls at uni!!! It was always so embarrassing if someone sat next to me and they had to squeeze in next to my thighs! Now I can sit between two people and not have to hold myself tightly in and worry the whole way through the lecture that they’re getting squashed because of me. I haven’t tested this on the bus yet, but I imagine that it’d be the same sort of feeling.

· Now when people look at me in the street I don’t feel like they’re looking at me in disgust, I sometimes even like to imagine that they might be checking me out a little bit, but that could be mostly wishful thinking.

· I can shop in normal shops!!! I can go into Primark and buy things and be reasonably sure that they’re going to fit (even though we all know that Primark sizes are a tad dodgy at the best of times). Shopping has become this new exciting thing, full of possibilities (and paving the road to debt I’m sure, but hey, that’s why I’m sticking to Primark).

· I don’t feel like I need pink hair and facial piercings. I’ve got brown hair! Brown! And I actually feel pretty good about it. It used to be before that my pink hair defined me; it was like my safety blanket, it made people notice me, but (I felt at least) that it stopped people really seeing me. I’ve also taken a few of my extraneous piercings out; my lip nose and septum are actually a part of my face now, but the ear stretch and eyebrow piercing just used to help me feel like I was cool, that I fitted in, that I was hardcore, and therefore it didn’t matter that I was fat, and actually the only reason that I haven’t taken my scaffold, nipples or collarbone piercings out is because they cost me too much money to waste! You can actually see that I changed my hair colour accoding to when I lost each stone, from pink to pink and black/brown, and then to pink and light brown, and then to all over brown.

· I’m feeling all of these changes after losing only 2 stones, I’ve got another 4 to go, how on earth will I feel then??? I know I’m going to waver, and there will be weeks or months where I mess this up, put weight back on. But what I really don’t want to do is to lose it all and then after six months pile it back on again. I keep on saying, ‘it’s a change for life, do it in a way that’s sustainable’ but is it really? Someone on here mentioned that once you’re fat, your body keeps on believing that you’re fat. You can lose all of the weight, but to your body you’re supposed to be a fatty, so it’ll always be easier for us to put it back on, she said ‘I’m a fat person in a thin person’s body.’ That’s true, we can lose the weight now, but we’re always going to have to eat and exercise like we’re still fat to keep it off. This is a lifelong war, we can win the battle, hell, we can win it again and again, year after year, but what is it we have to do win the war completely? I wish I had some fantastic excuse for why I was/am fat, I wish I could blame it on my mum setting a bad example, or have some medical condition that means I put on weight no matter what I do, but at the end of the day, I’m my own person, and after a certain point there are no excuses. You have to just realise that you’ve done this to yourself because you ate too much and couldn’t be arsed to get up off of the sofa, or out of bed.

· I think it was on Miami Ink that a woman said: ‘Being overweight means that there are a thousand little humiliations every day, from being the hottest, sweatiest person in the room, to not fitting in a chair that has arms on,’ (or something along those lines). She was totally right! Losing weight is like wiping these humiliations from the chalk board, you can see the dust on the board where they used to be, but you can also feel the dust on your hands and use it to help you take a grip on your future.


I didn't even look at the old list before writing the new one, but looking at them now, I seem to have at least partially achieved a few of my goals, which feels pretty damn good actually.

Happy New Year!!!
xxx
 
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S: 18st1lb C: 13st9lb G: 11st0lb BMI: 29.9 Loss: 4st6lb(24.51%)
#2
Wow, well done you. Looking good and its only gonna get better. Happy New Year and heres to a new you in 2011!
 

miss-tri

Full Member
S: 11st8lb C: 11st8lb G: 8st0lb Loss: 0st0lb(0%)
#3
You look great! just keep at it hun! guys will definetly be checking you out soon, itl be them with the wishful thinking not you.. ;D good luck!
 

Lynn_

On A Mission!
S: 17st9lb C: 10st9lb G: 10st7lb BMI: 23.3 Loss: 7st0lb(39.68%)
#4
Thats a fabulous post Pink, and you look amazing now. I just loved your before and after pics! Wow, you look so good, you must be thrilled.

You will have a fabulous 2011, this is your year. I know you will do it :)
 

elm

Gold Member
S: 316.4lb C: 241.2lb G: 137lb BMI: 40.1 Loss: 75.2lb(23.77%)
#5
You look so good! Well done, love!
 
S: 19st10lb C: 19st10lb G: 11st0lb BMI: 44.5 Loss: 0st0lb(0%)
#6
Its amazing that losing two stone can really change how you look and feel. You look wonderful, good luck with the rest of your journey x
 

-Tally-

Silver Member
#8
Wow, you look fab!! Ditto to what one poster said above, two stone has changed your appearance dramatically, very inspirational! Thanks for sharing :)
 

Pink!

Silver Member
S: 16st1lb C: 13st3lb G: 10st0lb BMI: 31.8 Loss: 2st12lb(17.78%)
#9
Thanks guys! Still a long way to go, but I'm getting there, mostly thanks to all of the support I've been getting on here.
xx
 
S: 12st9lb C: 11st10lb G: 10st3lb Loss: 0st13lb(7.34%)
#10
You just look AMAZING! Such a fantastic change. This really motivates me. Can't wait to see more progress pictures!
 

Angel-xo

Full Member
S: 12st7lb C: 8st9lb G: 8st3lb BMI: 20.8 Loss: 3st12lb(30.86%)
#11
You look absolutely gorgeous. I wouldn't be surprised if guys were checking you out. ;)

Very well done hun, keep it up!
 
S: 11st3.5lb C: 10st10lb G: 9st7lb BMI: 26.6 Loss: 0st7.5lb(4.76%)
#13
This is SO inspiring Pink! You look absolutely amazing, I couldn't believe your before and after pics. You've totally spurred me on to stick to my diet, best of luck for 2011!!!
 

Tarragon

Silver Member
G: 14st4lb
#14
A really inspiring thread - It has really made me think about how much I want to lose this weight.

And wow - You look amazing - completely fantastic - well done
 

Pink!

Silver Member
S: 16st1lb C: 13st3lb G: 10st0lb BMI: 31.8 Loss: 2st12lb(17.78%)
#16
Thanks everyone! Blushing right now.
I agree that seeing people's progress is always really inspiring, it's what has kept me going. And it's always good to reflect on the changes that you're feeling; we can get so wrapped up in counting calories on focusing on the odd days that we mess up that we lose sight of the big picture. It can feel like one take-away or even one biscuit has ruined everything, but realistically it hasn't.

Hope everyone's doing well ;)
 
S: 25st0lb C: 13st1lb G: 13st1lb BMI: 24.1 Loss: 11st13lb(47.71%)
#17
Great stuff, I'm loving it, well done love.
 

Pink!

Silver Member
S: 16st1lb C: 13st3lb G: 10st0lb BMI: 31.8 Loss: 2st12lb(17.78%)
#19
Graduation isn't for another year, so I've got time to lose it all :) But yeh, I want to wear something lovely under the gown.

Reasons for losing weight are pretty important I think, if they're not the right reasons then you're not going to make it. That's another thing that I find really inspiring about people's diaries, especially the people who have reached their goals; it's like 'Yeh, I want that too!'

Hope that everyone's well :)
 
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S: 25st0lb C: 13st1lb G: 13st1lb BMI: 24.1 Loss: 11st13lb(47.71%)
#20
You'll do it love, I tried not to have targets other than to stay clean and lose every week if I could. ok, you get stalls now and again but you just keep on keeping on really.
 


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