So here I am, again.
I think this must be attempt #75376 but I’m back and I’m absolutely on it with a vengeance.
Starting new diary so I’m humble and not tempted to start referring back to this being the time I’ve really changed for the better, as a diary from only 7 months ago suggested that and I was absolutely wrong.
Back at over 225lbs again and feeling disgusting with no clothes fitting me at all, having had to buy size 18 work trousers and size 16 jeans, neither of which are loose, and with my knee popping when I kneel down which is utterly horrifying.
I just have to get back to this. I don’t know if I’ll manage to maintain, or if this really is the last time, but I think all I can do is commit to the loss and take one day at a time.
Text a new consultant and hope to see her this week, and we’ll see where we get to. Plan for tomorrow is 4 shakes (I’ve got leftover packs, obv) and 5 litres of water and repeat for the rest of the week. No plans where I have to eat, working from home all week, and NO excuses. Days 1-4 are hard, and I don’t feel properly in the swing of it til after two weeks, but I really feel I have no choice but to get on with it. I need to lose 4 stone, and that’ll take me 14 weeks, so that’s 29/01 with a few weeks to go til my 34th birthday.
I think this must be attempt #75376 but I’m back and I’m absolutely on it with a vengeance.
Starting new diary so I’m humble and not tempted to start referring back to this being the time I’ve really changed for the better, as a diary from only 7 months ago suggested that and I was absolutely wrong.
Back at over 225lbs again and feeling disgusting with no clothes fitting me at all, having had to buy size 18 work trousers and size 16 jeans, neither of which are loose, and with my knee popping when I kneel down which is utterly horrifying.
I just have to get back to this. I don’t know if I’ll manage to maintain, or if this really is the last time, but I think all I can do is commit to the loss and take one day at a time.
Text a new consultant and hope to see her this week, and we’ll see where we get to. Plan for tomorrow is 4 shakes (I’ve got leftover packs, obv) and 5 litres of water and repeat for the rest of the week. No plans where I have to eat, working from home all week, and NO excuses. Days 1-4 are hard, and I don’t feel properly in the swing of it til after two weeks, but I really feel I have no choice but to get on with it. I need to lose 4 stone, and that’ll take me 14 weeks, so that’s 29/01 with a few weeks to go til my 34th birthday.
